Flame Worthy  

majordomobilly 49M
39 posts
6/20/2006 9:01 pm
Flame Worthy

I guess I fully expect to get some negative comments about this entry. And in some ways I will probably deserve them. Touchy subject here.... Marriage/divorce/ married-playing. For those of you who aren't aware of it I am a married man who's profile is as a man not a couple. In other words, I play alone and without my wife's knowledge or consent. This is a decision that I made knowing the consequences involved. I wouldn't call my marriage happy or perfect, but it is comfortable and of considerable benifit to both myself and my wife. That being said I can also say that I am not happy in my marriage and not sure anymore how willing I am to stay in it. This was an easy enough situation to deal with for the longest time, but now I find that things are changing in that I have found someone that I think I could be very happy sharing my life with. In a perfect world, I would have gotten to this point well before 10 years into a marriage. But who ever said this was a perfect world. So what do you do in a situation where you have met and known for awhile a person that you feel you could have a perfect relationship with, but you are in a different relationship already and don't want to cause horrible deep pain and lasting scars to your current partner? I could dwell on "how much easier" things could have been, but that gets me nowhere. It is just that when you find someone that shares your outlook, spiritually, philosophically, physically, psychologically, and sexually you start to have some big concerns when that isn't the person that you are with. SO I guess what I am asking is....What would you do? What would you do if you loved 2 people, the one you are married to you love platonically and the one that you aren't married to you love spiritually, in almost a divine way. Do you stay where you are because that is the proper thing to do or do you follow your heart/soul?

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