But; Who Am I?  

macker1965 61M/43F
851 posts
4/29/2006 3:08 am

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But; Who Am I?


I see you in the mirror as I do every morning. Your face is familiar. I know it's me!

But who am I?

I have known you all my life, see your smiles, see your pain, see desires!

But who am I?

I love nature; love to marvel at the beauty that is around us and so many of us take for granted.When the sun shines my spirits soar and I long to just wander in the fields, the mountains, on the beach or in the forests.

But who am I?

I love eroticism, to experience new sexual desires, experiences, adventures. I quest for that ultimate sexual pleasure, if there is such a thing!

But who am I?

I hate hurting people, physically or emotionaly. But I probably have; if unintentionally!

But who am I?

I long to hold her hand, wake up to her in the morning, walk with her through nature, love her, hold her, never let her go. But will I ever find her?

But who am I? But who is she?

If I find her will she be able to answer my question? Will she see into my heart, my 'soul', my inner most being? Will she be my soulmate and be able to answer that question and tell me;

Who I Am?

Am I frightened or depressed that, after all this time, I still can't answer the question "Who am I?" Not really. Life is a journey, a quest, an adventure, an exploration.

I'm looking for something. Maybe it's happiness and my soul mate. I may never find either or at least true happiness. But if I don't keep dreaming, searching, exploring, I know I definitely never will.

I'll keep searching for the answer to the question;

Who am I?

If I ever find out, I'll let you know.

Macker in Contemplative mood

KC_JJ 55M

4/29/2006 2:12 pm

I could answer your question for you but it would not be the equivalent of you experiencing the answer for yourself. Which is really the only way to do this that counts. That will take as long as you need it to to happen but there should be no rush in getting there. Everybody gets there in their own time. If not in this life then in another.

The ride is an essential part of the destiny. And even that destiny is but one of an inifinite number. As much as you sometimes might want the journey to end it simply doesn't.

The question you ask though is indeed one of the better ones (if not the best) to be asking.

MMM [ MMM


macker1965 replies on 4/29/2006 3:50 pm:
KC,

Thanks for the comment. It's a question I ask constantly. There was a time when the fact that I hadn't got an answer annoyed me, but not anymore. As you say I've now come to realise it's a life long quest for the answer, but if I'm luck enough to find 'what I'm looking for' maybe, just maybe the quest may not take that long.

Thanks again

Macker

HBowt2 60F

4/29/2006 4:23 pm

It's the journey without and end Macker...we're changing all the time....so just when we get to know ourselves we go and change again....


macker1965 replies on 5/1/2006 12:31 am:
HBowt,

I tend to agree with you. I can see so many changes in me over the years. But it's a journey worth having and the occassional bit of excitement, to spice things up, eases the journey; for me at least.

Macker

SxyCrazyCool 39F

4/30/2006 12:11 am

I have been asking myself the same question every now and then since I saw Jack Nicholson ask it to Adam Sandler in Anger Management..

Who are you he kept asking.. and Adam started talking about his job, then his hobbies, his character..

But who am I?
I think I am me and there aren't any words to explain the concept of me (or you) to anyone other than yourself..

Why do we so badly feel the need to figure out Who we are?

Isn't it enough to just be?

~*xXx*~
~♥sXy♥~


macker1965 replies on 5/1/2006 12:36 am:
sXy,

I think it's enough just to be but sometimes we just don't settle for 'enough'. Sometimes we search for the answer to the really hard questions. In my case, and I suspect yours, we search for the hardest question of all. The difference between people like you and I and the rest of the world is that we ask the question and crave the answer.

Macker

jjsunshines 59F
20 posts
5/1/2006 1:39 am

do we ever really know who we are.....who could make us feel complete....is there really anyone out there...to me...seems obsolete


macker1965 replies on 5/1/2006 3:54 am:
jj,

I believe, I dream, I search.

Someday my dream will become a reality, my reality will become my dreams.

Macker

jjsunshines 59F
20 posts
5/1/2006 5:08 pm

May all your dreams come true....your beliefs come to life.....your journey well traveled......


macker1965 replies on 5/2/2006 7:03 am:
jj,

Thank you. I wish the same for you.

Macker

SxyCrazyCool 39F

5/1/2006 6:42 pm

~ The difference between people like you and I and the rest of the world..~

Is there any difference I wonder? I've been told there is.. People who don't ask questions, people who don't wonder, people who just live their lives in the stream that it takes them.. For me it is very hard to imagine people like that really do excist.. I have yet to meet one person like that.. Everyone close to me that I can think of is/has been wondering at some point or another..
Even the people that have themselves manouvred in the stream of everyday life, work, bills, kids, morgage, housework, etc and have hardly any time to look at themselves in a mirror (really look); even they must be in bed sometimes, sleepless and wondering what the f*ck it's all about.. ? I think..

And what you said in your reply to Wickedwytch69 is so familiar to me! All of what you said could've been said by me! But after much thinking I'm wondering: can't one be perfect with their imperfections? Isn't it the imperfections that charaterize one's personality?
And why do you have to be a better person if you are already perfect? We are a good person, so we don't have to improve ourselves! We can make changes (I mean not to take the word change as an Improvement, but just as it is: a change), if there are things that we like less about ourselves. And I think if we live in conciousness/awareness (I never know the difference between these 2), and realize the slips that we've made; we can do things differently in the future. But real mistakes do not excist (in my opinion), because most of the time we did not do it on purpose, we did it the way we knew best at that time. If it didnt work out the way we wanted or expected to, we will do differently next time.

Thank you for writing this!!! Sometimes I too wonder if my thoughts don't take me too far, haha making me even wonder if I'm still sane.. Then it's nice to see some proof that there's more ppl wondering about the same things

~*xXx*~
~♥sXy♥~


macker1965 replies on 5/2/2006 7:09 am:
sXy,

Thank you for commenting. I suppose trying to find who I am is less about trying to find imperfections and changing them and more about understanding the type of person I am. Most of us have a pre-conceived idea of the type of person we are. But to have an open mind, especially about yourself, is a wonderous gift. To be aware of one's self, one's 'pefections' but more especially one's imperfections enable's you/me to be a 'better' person. Why do I want to be a better person? Now that I'm not sure about. What is an imperfection? That I'm equally unsure about. But the important thing is to question but not to over analyse.

Macker

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