Run Baby Run  

lustcurious42 57F
257 posts
7/6/2006 11:14 am

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7/7/2006 8:46 pm

Run Baby Run

Today I'm starting to feel like running scared again. I'm realizing how I'm beginning to feel towards the old bf, and it scares me. Sometimes I wonder if I was meant to love. I can't really put a finger on what scares me, or even why it scares me. I know the realization of how he hurt me in the past is there, but that isn't what's going on with me now. Right now is my normal every time I really think I like a guy, the voice inside of me that yells run baby run. I have a belief that people are here for you today, and gone for you tomorrow. That life is fragile and if you love someone with everything, the way that love was meant to be, expect it to be gone tomorrow. So, I start thinking wow, run before those feelings get deeper. You know you'll wake up and it'll be all over. And you'll be left with nothing but the pain. But if you listen to your run each and every time, you never experience the joy of having someone. Anyway, today is my wanting to run away day. My day of questioning everything inside that I am feeling. Is anyone else afraid of falling in love? Of giving of yourself? Feelings can change at any moment. What if I wake up tomorrow and feel like I need someone else? And I'm a needy woman. He knows all my needs so well and he's feeding them very well right now. A call every morning, first thing. Bedtime call and talking for an hour or two about everything under the sun. Lunch hours spent holding hands and laughing. Long days spent being held in bed. Yes, I am a needy woman. I don't fall in love. Usually my needs aren't fed so completely, so it's so much easier. Oh well, pull myself together time I guess
Kids and I are heading out in the morning for a few days. I'm sure the thinking time will be good for me. Probably just what the doctor ordered.

florallei 100F

7/6/2006 3:20 pm

Hi Lust,

I don't know any comforting words that would help but my heart and ears are here okay? Take care Hun.

somethingelse40 76M
14676 posts
7/7/2006 3:18 pm

We all have similar needs, similar fears, and similar feelings, more acute at certain times than others or under certain circumstances or perhaps both concurrently. Let your feelings heal and keep on loving. You’ll be glad you did. There are many needy men who truly need to love a needy woman.

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