lovemetouchme5 52F
1534 posts
5/14/2006 10:22 pm

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10/28/2006 9:28 pm explanation

When I was a little girl, Cinderella was my favorite Disney character. You know the story...A poor, mistreated girl, swept off her feet by her prince charming. I've always wanted to be Cinderella. In fact I have a glass slipper that I picked up a few years back sitting on my desk and I have seen almost every movie that was made about her! I guess I lived in a fantasy world for a long time. Wanting that fairy tale... wanting my prince charming to sweep ME off my feet.

When I would date someone, I would put everything I had into it. My life would revolve around that man, my prince charming. I was IN LOVE or so I thought. My friends went about their lives and I was okay with that because I was with MY MAN! And then things would go down hill. He wouldn't come over as often or he wouldn't call. I wouldn't do anything or go anywhere, just knowing that when the phone would ring it would be him. Even when the relationships were over, I would still keep hoping that we would get back together again. Once I held a torch for a guy for 8 months after we broke up! Well, it didn't help that he would constantly call me and play mind games with me.

I think self-esteem had a lot to do with it and I didn't have any. I was relying on him to make me feel good. Thus the addiction. I didn't feel good about myself unless HE was there. It wasn't until I was finally by myself for a while that I realized that I didn't need a man to feel good about myself. However, I did end up building a wall up around myself so that I wouldn't get hurt again. It took a long time to break that wall down when I met my husband.

Addictions can be terrible things. There are people addicted to drugs, alcohol, sex, and even blogging! I was addicted to love. Today I am a much stronger person. My husband isn't quite prince charming, and we have our problems, but I don't rely on him to make me feel good or to make me happy. He lets me be an individual with my own interests and friends. When things aren't going well for us, I just take a step back and evaluate the situation, and then do whatever it takes for me to be happy. I take care of ME. I don't put my friends on the proverbial back burner; I don't put his needs ahead of mine.

I hope this makes sense. I feel like I'm just babbling, probably because it's after midnight!

toys2us 59M/59F
147 posts
5/15/2006 9:27 pm

We don't agree with anyone, which is why we are in the minority. We wish you the best in getting your thing back into place. If for some reason it does not work, then we wish you have the strength to move forward. We wish you all the best, toys!

MissKittyNip26 107F

5/28/2006 3:45 pm

Sadly, I think this is quite a common addiction for women.. I know it had been for me.. and definitely still is for my best friend..

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