I'm Back...  

lonely_bbw_in_wb 45F
33 posts
5/25/2006 8:32 pm

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I'm Back...

Wow I can't believe I haven't posted a blog here since March.

I did start blogging on another popular site, but I suppose I'll start back here again since I got a better response.

A lot has changed but a lot has stayed the same. I'm feeling confused today.

I've been walking around with my eyes wide shut. I've been living in this little dream world of mine, thinking that things are different than they really are.

I have so much to offer. I don't know why I'm not given a chance to shine, to show what I can do, to go hog wild lol. I guess my shyness holds me back a lot.

Sometimes I think my self-esteem holds me back too, I get offers all the time for 'no-strings fun' but I'm not about one night stands. What I long for, is a steady partner with a high sex drive like myself. Someone I would like to see on a regular basis and who would also like to see me. Someone I can talk to outside the bedroom too. But how do you know, how do you believe the other person when they say they want the same thing? They can certainly say that they want more than a 1 time fling but once they get what they're after and they're gone, then I'm left scratching my head and swearing I won't do it again. Now I certainly don't want to make myself out to be something I'm not. I do not hook up with people at the drop of a hat. In fact, I'm going through a little dry spell. I guess this is my own choosing though because I turn down offers. I believe in quality not quantity.

So, I sit here, living up to my name LOL

What is the answer? Anybody?

I've met quite a few people from the online world in real life. Most, I didn't care to see again. A couple of them, I liked and would have enjoyed more of their company. I suppose though, their lives took them down different paths and they didn't have room for me. I don't know why this happened. Maybe it was me, maybe I did something, said something, or didn't do/say something that just turned them off. Maybe it had nothing to do with me and it was all them. I'll never know. But that's ok. That is ancient ancient history.

I wish I had a crystal ball to see what was down the road for me though, to see if I'm just wasting my time here.

rm_shaveclean2 57M/44F
691 posts
5/25/2006 9:04 pm

I'm sure you aren't wasting your time here...cause I believe that everything happens for a reason. We have had sooooo much success With this site and I hope that it turns around for you. We were once disappointed but have changed our minds!! BTW....When you find that Crystal Ball Store drop me a line>>>>I could really use one!! Welcome Back to Blog Land and Nice meeting you!!!

g the female 1/2 of Shaveclean2


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