OnE oF tHoSe DaYs...........  

kissnlik 41F
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6/13/2006 9:49 pm

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6/19/2006 5:16 pm

OnE oF tHoSe DaYs...........


I've been having one of "those" days. I'm lonely, sad, bored and frustrated.I feel like I want to just stand here in the middle of the room screaming "PAY FUCKING ATTENTION TO ME!!!" My only salvation today was an email I got from my "friend" today. At least he had time for me today. I've been nothing but the "go for" today. I know it's my job here at work to do that stuff, but it just gets so damn old. I hate feeling like people can see right through me. I feel like I'm walking backwards through traffic with my eyes closed. I'm blind to whatever is going to hit me next. Why do the people we are closest to treat us the worst? I never understood that about humanity. You think that most of us would appreciate having a friend, or lover or spouse. Aren't we supposed to be doing all we can to keep them in our lives? I don't get it. I go to work and fake a smile or a laugh for a total stranger to make them feel welcome and wanted. I go home and say hello to the kids and the husband ,when he's visible, to let them know I missed them. What do I get in return??? Silence and the cold shoulder. Why do I bother going home? I'm not feeling like myself today, just plain old sad.

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