laaaaadidaaaaa  

katooofa 44F
12 posts
4/12/2006 7:41 am

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5/15/2006 12:00 am

laaaaadidaaaaa

tomorrow! wish me luck peeps..

all of my reservations have to do with one thing, which really makes me wonder what my motivation for this adventure is: i miss my ex. he's the one i want to fuck. he left me because i couldn't give him what he needs - i still can't, that is obvious to both of us. and still i hesitate in taking this step. i fear it will sever the ties between us forever.

what does that mean? eleven months on!? does this ring of obsession?

emm. of course it does. which ties in nicely with the rest of my story: long time drug abuser (socalled light ones.. for some, i guess), ex-bulimic, ex-anorectic, eight-year-long relationship with Fuckhead of the First Order (that's the previous ex). addicted to pain and rejection - bloody pathetic!

so this is a new step. on my own, in the world, sniffing at pleasure. free!
perhaps that's what i've been addicted to; unfreedom. judgement. define me, please, someone, anyone, so i won't have to.

i'm going to do it, just because i want it. i am horny, and i want to eat this pussy that i've been sent pictures of, and kiss the mouth of this cheeky girl who promises to take me to heaven - perhaps have her boyfriend's dick inside me, if that's the way things go.

tell me i'm free. someone, anyone?


pesce66 51M

4/12/2006 2:16 pm

I say untie and move on. But try not to hurt yourself in the prosess. Best of luck tomorrow. And you are a fine writer


mollen6 35M

4/13/2006 10:11 am

You are free!


pesce66 51M

4/16/2006 8:19 am

Hey Katoofa.
Did it work out alright?
You honesty is touching and your sharing is appreciated.
I hope you are OK.


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