my apologies  

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8/18/2006 6:04 am

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8/18/2006 7:08 am

my apologies


I used my blog to try and get over feeling disrespected, humiliated, and - I'd say hurt but that word does not even begin to describe what I have felt. I can't just escape in drugs or sex or partying with people when I hurt, and I can't do that when I have hurt someone who adored me either.

I swear to God I said nothing untrue. There may be a tiny insignificant detail here or there that I have unintentionally stated incorrectly - but nothing that has anything to do with honesty and character. Still, I was wrong.

Susan, I will let your misleading blog post go. Correcting it requires reliving some differences in opinion that just aren't worth it. But I will not allow you to call me a liar. I did not ever lie about you or Buddy. Ever. And I don't expect you to apologize to me for your having a better non-sexual relationship with my boyfriend than I did. You both earned that; both of you worked on it, often. I have to admit - that comment stung. I suppose I deseve it for all I've done to and said about you - none of it untrue but talking about you none the less. Still, I would trade my pain for yours. That is probably just one of those "the grass is always greener" things though. Everyone knows what I have put you and Buddy through.

Buddy used to say to me, "Do you want to win, or do you want to be happy?"

You win. I just want to be happy.

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