DO AS I SAY NOT AS I DO !!!!!  

jawbreakergood 54F
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3/6/2006 12:58 am

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3/7/2006 7:55 am

DO AS I SAY NOT AS I DO !!!!!


Well my dear sweet and ever faithful bloggers It is I your hopeless and gullable and evidently glutton for punishment blogger Katy, I went and did it again same bat person same bat place and same bat results which was ,now say it with kids,
my heart ripped from my chest and handed back to me on a paper plate of course after he screwed me a couple of times and in more ways than one! You see I was so busy with the thought of this being the real deal and so when things started going wrong like x girlfriends pic up on board in draw beside bed talking about her in sleep, Kids telling me I gould never take the place,secrets of the kind that couldn't be told to me twisted fantasies that were brought to reality and numerous times being told It was all because I couldn't act good that it just wasn't going to work and not once or twice but three times of going back only to be fucked and sent on my way I stole something from this gentleman in a quick moment to make sure that I was not the only one getting screwed and then me with this whole honesty kick that I am on admitted to it with the assurance of love waiting and working thru our problems only to slapped in the face and I am quite sure laughed at just as some are doing while reading this right now! but with each episode I am not hurting more it seems as though I am developing an outter surface of hard granite and with no mistaken aggenda I am so thourghly guilty of trusting in doing what I think is the right thing to do and doing it sometimes after the fact yet still I am a firm believer in HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY !!! I hope and pray that I remain as I am right now because as others say they forgive and surely they know that they aren't even going to come close, I am capable of doing just that and heres the blessimg I forget to!! So to all who are so quick to say that they forgive and forget let it be known by all men that they are the worst liars the world has ever seen and probaly the most miserable people on the face of the planet because in the quest for perfection and truth they find themselves alone and mostly because they can't swallow their pride and take a look inside because at some point and time there will come a need for them to ask please forgive me and it will not be granted leaving them in a state of anger and confusion for after all it is the right thing to do which is what they pride themselves doing all the time!! as always I love my blogging community for allowing me to spew these words of blah,blah,blah and be understood! sincerely the hopeless one.

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