Jumbled Thoughts  

impish_pixie 55F
2106 posts
1/29/2006 4:24 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Jumbled Thoughts

Tonight is the night of the New Moon. This is the time when you meditate on your heart and mind and send your intentions out to the universe. Be careful of your intentions and the things you ask for.

Tonight is also the beginning of the Chinese New Year. Welcome with open arms the year of the Dog. The Fire Dog. (Hmmm...perhaps this is the year we all learn to love unconditionally?)

I am not a habitual "fake tan" -er, but during the cold dark days of winter, when I'm feeling "blue" from lack of sunshine I will go in and spend 15 min's getting some fake sunshine. I'm always amazed at how relaxed I get and how much lighter my world seems when I leave. Therefore, when they change the bulbs and don't warn me...and I end up with a cherry red ass...it just kinda kills the "happy" mood. Know what I mean?

So I'm flipping through the channels and end up on MS-NBC and what do you think they're reporting about? Alzheimer's. A family is documenting the progression of their Mother's disease. And I am stuck here and can't seem to change the channel - as the tears run down my cheeks. Quietly. And in these quiet moments when I am alone and have no need to be strong for anyone, I can rage about the unfairness of it and cleanse myself so that tomorrow I can be strong again.

When I was home for my daddy's birthday last weekend we bought plums and made homemade plum jelly. I had forgotten how much fun it was to do that. I had forgotten how cool it was to be in the kitchen with my Moma and my Sister doing something so simple as making jelly. I had also forgotten how good it is to just sit at the table and lick the spoon and pot for every last drop of sweetness. There's just something very wonderful about 3 grown women passing around a spoon and pot and talking about life.

Maggie and Ava are laying on my bed sleeping the sleep of the contented. I'm thinking there's a lot to be learned there. Dog & Cat...they're not supposed to like each other - but they apparently didn't get the memo. They're all snuggled up like peas in a pod. It looks so sweet, and warm, and happy. Hmmm...excuse me...I think I'm going to join them. Just get right in the middle of all that Love. Later peoples.


I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


MillsShipsGayly 53M

1/30/2006 5:59 am

'cherry red ass' .. you obviously didn't get the memo about the hazards of tanning without panties! ... lol

I really like the 2 photos you put on your last blog posts

Something warm about them .. very nice!!
Maggie and Ava sound lucky to have ya too!!


impish_pixie 55F
6867 posts
1/30/2006 4:41 pm

Michael - Nope...didn't get the memo...damn, feels much better now though. Actually...I'm very lucky to have them. Thanks for stopping by!

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


rm_oceanman5 57M
7 posts
1/31/2006 10:50 am

Enjoyed your Blog writing... I read all of them and wished there were more. Good luck with the non smoking life ! My mom did not stop the addiction till late 50's..... She will be 80 next month. I fear not having Her give me the weekly update. Your love for your father is nice thing to see in your writing.

I agree... Dog and cat are in good hands.


impish_pixie 55F
6867 posts
1/31/2006 7:13 pm

Mzhuny - Thank you for stopping by - pull up a chair and let's chat a bit. Comfort is good - but change is so necessary. It's good to have a few constants.

Oceanman - Thank you for allowing me to be your first post. I'm honored. Hope you'll come back and visit again. I am now 22 days a non-smoker and feeling better about it everyday. My Father is my hero and I adore him - Mom's turn is coming - hope you'll be here to see that one. Spoiled Rotten is what those two silly animals are. (And all three of us love it that way!)

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


tillerbabe 57F

1/31/2006 8:39 pm

....move over...i'm bringing Leto, Hector, buddy and myself...


rm_luke69iner 49M
3275 posts
1/31/2006 11:30 pm

Happy New Moon Pixie


S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo
.
~Dante~


rm_oceanman5 57M
7 posts
2/1/2006 7:53 am

Hey,

1st Post... Sounds kind of virgin like I have never stopped to look at blogs before. Not sure why...

I think a little like you and value the family... and the simple thing like love from a dog. My "Puppy" is a Lab/Chow mix who just came along with this 100 year old house when I bought it. Sick for the past few days... I think He might have dined on some left over hunter trash while wandering in the woods. A good vet bill later He seems to be feeling better.

Headed over to West Virginia in a couple days... if the dog is well. My Brother comes in from Arizona for our annual week in the mountains... Some skiing and beer... 5 years now. Probably no licking spoons on this trip...


impish_pixie 55F
6867 posts
2/2/2006 3:41 pm

Tills - The bed's big enough for all...and wouldn't that just be a "love-fest"? (Of course darlin...your very long legs might hang off - my bed is a bit short...lol)

Luke! - So nice to see you sweetie, and Happy New Moon to you also - perhaps this will be the year all of our intentions become fact!

Oceanman - poor puppy. Hope he's feeling better now. Enjoy your brother, be careful of the beer and sking part, those trees are MUCH closer than you think. LOL

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


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