Time to Kick Back for Just Awhile  

heavensent11236 53F
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7/17/2006 5:32 pm

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10/26/2007 8:15 am

Time to Kick Back for Just Awhile


Wow, what a day. Just kicking back now listening to some GNR greatest hits to be exact. Wondering just how high you can go on the volume before you do some permanent damage. I got up to 65 watts before I started worrying about my eardrums. I was considerate enough to hook up the earphones so it wouldn't shake the walls and I'd have to listen to the neighbors complain.
Talked to a few people today, one of them being Him, the one from my past. Careful what you wish for sometimes, in an earlier blog, I think it was under this screen name but it might have been the old one, anyway redundent, I said that I use to wish something would happen to his wife, just something to take her out of the picture. You have NO IDEA how bad I felt today when he told me she has something seriously wrong with her, but refuses to go to the doctor to find out for sure. Every symptom he said points to cancer, I wouldn't wish that on anyone, not even my worst enemy.
His and my relationship, sometimes it reminds me of that old Alan Alda/Ellen Barkin movie about the two of them meeting for one weekend once a year, for years and years and years. Over the years it's been almost like I really know her and the kids, same as he probably feels about my kids and my ex.
I had to come clean to him after him telling me that, came clean about wishing something would happen to her, about almost sending her a letter in the mail, about all of it. I never did any of it but oh man was I ever tempted at one point or another. The only reason I didn't, I didn't see the point in destroying all the lives that would have been affected if I had.
I guess that was one thing neither of us was ever really able to do with anyone but each other, REALLY talk about anything and everything, knowing that no matter what you said the other one wouldn't pass judgement and would try their best to help and give you legit advice. It's also almost like we grew up together, have known him since I was 16 and he was 21. It also didn't hurt that he use to look exactly like Andy Garcia. I always did have a weakness for Italian looking men.

Tone_33756 56M

7/18/2006 7:48 am

Did you say 'Italian' men ????

PS: My ear drums have been permantely damaged by headphones turned up to 184,930 watts.......love it...would do it again


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