Tossing and Turning  

heavenly_body39 61F
740 posts
9/7/2005 7:31 am

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Tossing and Turning

I did not sleep well last night/early morning. I woke with my sheets damp, beads of sweat between my breasts and thighs.

What am I looking for? Waiting for? Feels as though I'm storing energy for the fall into winter.

My divorce finalizes in only a few weeks.


rm_Rookie128 50M

9/7/2005 7:09 pm

What is everyone looking for? Happiness. What form will it take to best suit you? That is the conundrum. If its form is nameless, how do you seek it? Do people recently out of LTRs look for adventure, and avoid potential matches for fear of being involved in another failed relationship? If one chooses a relationship that can't possibly succeed, that person is not at fault when it doesn't.

I purchased a bottle of 18 year old single malt scotch to celebrate when my divorced finalized and it remains unopened. Relief is certainly felt when one more hassle concludes, but is it a time to celebrate?


heavenly_body39 61F
157 posts
9/8/2005 12:55 am

Rookie, no I don't think for me 'celebrate' is the right word...rather I believe 'commemorate' or 'mark the date' is what I will do. I'm not quite sure how I will make note of the event...


two41and14two 56M/50F

9/9/2005 4:23 pm

"If one chooses a relationship that can't possibly succeed, that person is not at fault when it doesn't."
hmmmm...rookie, that statement leaves me pondering. As a couple, I've often wondered why a single woman would choose a relationship with a couple... and, though I don't know, I think it falls into that catagory of wanting a relationship... but knowing that it will never go anywhere (succeed). So does the fact that a relationship fills needs or desires for a time of transition mean that it cannot be measured as a success? I think there are periods in our lives when we need something out of the everday... a solitary hike up a mountain, a drunken evening with friends, a good book or long bath, and sometimes an occasional casual fuck. This Saturday marks 18yrs of marriage for me, in most respects it would be catagorized as "successful". I haven't yet decided how to "mark the day". More than likely, my husband will forget and wonder why he received an extra attentive bj, I will pretend like I don't care that he didn't do something for me. What's that old saying, said by a parent to an unruly child, "I wouldn't trade you for a million bucks, but I wouldn't give a nickel for another one like you." I think that applies to my marriage--- both valuable and worthless. Can it be both a success and a failure?


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