One more Kiss  

heavenly_body39 61F
740 posts
9/13/2005 6:16 am

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One more Kiss

How tangled our lives become and still we trudge onward to our destinies...

I have been spending some time looking back over this year which has been so difficult, so monumental in its challenge. It's as though my bank account of life energy has been gradually, slowly depleted and I'm going into severe deficit, running up that credit.

It occurs to me this morning how many of the people in my life that I love have had difficult, painful years running in parallel time with mine. I wish I could, with the power of my heart, give enough love to make their lives easier. Like...just one more hug, one more gentle holding, one more quiet conversation, one more pep talk. I am idealistic at my core to think this might change things, while the newly-minted cynic questions how much difference I could make in a world of pain.

Isn't it in giving, freely, without expectation of any return, isn't this when we find juicy things rushing in?

rm_4nik8_4u 62M
2501 posts
9/13/2005 7:56 am

I had trouble focusing on your writing with that picture drawing my attention. I couldn't shake the image of me grabbing those ropes and pulling you back onto my cock and using those ropes to hold onto while I mercilously fuck your pussy taking us to a whole new level of intensity.

To answer the question...yes!
when you give with no thought of yourself then you are giving from the heart and good things usually follow. it is well known and has a name...KHARMA!

rm_mtnravyn 61M
890 posts
9/13/2005 10:37 am

To experience, but only briefly at any give time,
for the joy/pain is so exquisite.
One with whom sharing is not precipitous,
but done with focus and intention.
There is an intensity cloaked in a mystery.
The connection and the knowingness
go far beyond the conscious realm.
Yet to walk there implies a certainty,
An understanding reception,
that cannot be ignored.
There is a pull, almost magnetic,
That attracts one along this path.
Small steps, small doses,
Or the fate of the phoenix
Without rebirth may befall.
To verbalize the feeling
Is nigh impossible,
But to fail to pursue the experience
Is likewise.

There is something rising out of old memories
That adds to the pull.
The paradox of larger than the world
and smaller than the space of time
between one moment and the next.
It is so easy to lose part of you
until the self is almost unknown.
And then a mirror appears
Revealing what it knows of you.
A new paradox emerges -
a feeling of smallness in its
reflection, and yet
a knowingness that you can hold
all that need be held.

It elicits a yearning
that cannot be denied,
a nameless ache
that you’ve known before
the bright embers of the fire
that can never be touched
only appreciated for being
exactly what t hey are.

two41and14two 56M/50F

9/13/2005 1:53 pm

yes nik, i agree, very nice pic My eyes paused a while as well.

"Isn't it in giving, freely, without expectation of any return, isn't this when we find juicy things rushing in? "

The giving without expectation of return is a concept i understand, but being able to receive without reservation or obligation? that is something i am not familiar with. i think the giving falls under the "put your bread upon the waters" or "it is more blessed to give than to receive" or even the somewhat lesser idea "you reap what you sow", oh but to be able to be on the receiving end, to be worthy of more than scraps, to be able to open myself to blessings that are more than i can imagine. Why an i not familiar with these principles? I am torn between wanting to fly away free, and wanting to roll into a ball and find a safe hole. I recently read that the during the 40 yrs the jews spent wandering in the desert, the entire time they were only a 9 day walk from the promised land. Why do i wallow in scarcity when there is a feast within my touch? i hope i do not repeat this pattern for another ? yrs. any advice?

rm_anacortes 75M
2850 posts
9/13/2005 3:40 pm

I am not a lawyer..

But, it seems to me that the "answer" can only be "perhaps" or "no".

No being the option to truly prevent expectations of reward for good behavior... others have said it as "virtue is its OWN reward".

The act of giving has nothing to do with the actions of the receiver. If you offer a "gift" is must be free of strings.

However, giving also implies a receiver (two41) and being a good receiver can also be learned.. why MAKE THINGS COMPLICATED?... just accept the gift for what it is... free and clear.

If one wants to go into "self-analysis" receiving gifts, that is your choice.

I am very often surprised how many Yin do not yet realize they are already goddesses.. and, once a goddess ALWAYS A GODDESS..


rm_Rookie128 50M

9/13/2005 8:59 pm

Life pushes you around, just keep pushing back.

Give to those close to you, particularly in their time of need. Any comfort you can give should be appreciated, and if not, when you replay the interaction in your mind years later, hopefully you will say, "I would not have done anything differently if I could relive that moment".

You have made a difference in those lives around you. Never doubt that. Strive to continue this work.

Let me know where the dies are, so they can be sundered lest they mint another cynic.

two41and14two 56M/50F

9/14/2005 4:41 am

i m tired of keeping my head above the water. i wonder why we all persist at this. not too long ago i was at a satsang.. katie davis happened to be there. and older man asked her what the purpose of his spiritual pursuit was. She told him to give up. To pull in his oars and stop rowing. i think, perhaps, that is the best advice i've come across recently. (btw here i am typing in bed because mt husband left this morning to do a 24hr 1000 mile ironbutt motorcycle ride. guess he is out searching for something else as well)

two41and14two 56M/50F

9/14/2005 4:50 am

i did however have a delightful morning, still dark outside, a quiet house, a kingsize bed to myself, some new batteries in my favorite toy, my lips and breasts swollen, as i cum, heavenly, i think about your soft kisses pulling on my nipples, imagine my face buried in your sheets xox

kokpelli_999 62M

9/14/2005 9:23 am

"Trudging toward our destinies", why the fatalistic perspective? You have chosen to sentence yourself to a singular life path? The epithet already carved in your headstone. I've discovered if I spend too much time looking in the rear view mirror I come dangerously close to rear-ending the car in front of me.

To give without expectation is humanly impossible. At best it may be spiritually feasible.
How hard is it to smile and say thank you? Just two very basic forms of communication, one visual and one aural.
Can not the receiver grant the giver one of these acknowledgements? If not then what the fuck! I'll share with those that remember how to smile. However I would not help but wonder, did they feel unworthy of a gift?
I did in a past life.
A juxtapositional observation. There is no lesser pleasure than receiving from the
Just my opinions. I could be wrong butI doubt it.

tillerbabe 57F

9/15/2005 2:15 am

Oh but idealism is so grand! Soemtimes painful, but it opens doors of possiblity! Be there for those that cry, weep....believe that your caring touch brings joy - it does, even if not apparent immediately.

Heavenly - you are beautiful.....

heavenly_body39 61F
157 posts
9/15/2005 2:35 pm

lol, someone told me yesterday that i leave a footprint/imprint as big as sasquatch on a man's life (specifically his) but i do believe that my impact, to me at least, is often NOT apparent immediately.

Why, ty, tillerbabe~

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