heavenly_body39 61F
740 posts
7/27/2006 12:54 pm

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7/30/2006 1:08 pm


I find myself furious at times these days. While normal and natural, I recognize also how debilitating it is.

For the first time in my life I find myself so angry that I could quite possibly take action that would irreparably change someone's life. The arrogant complacency that allows him to walk, unscathed, while I mire in the muck fuels my helpless rage.

Oh yes, I have the tools and the will with which to accomplish the deed. I fantasize over and over about revengeful actions. I believe my blood has been poisoned by the toxicity with which I painted my soul, for nearly a year with the brush I was handed.

Oh, to ignore the angels now! Please, let me hurt him so he rots in hell in this lifetime; surely he will in the next, but I will not bear witness to it.

But to ignore my angels now means I surely have sold my soul. I refuse to do so. Let last night's angry tears be the last I shed; let this angry outburst be the final cascade of putrid negative energy flowing wasted from my spirit.

I turn towards the sweetness of aber tawe's heart and soul.

phoenix639 50F

7/27/2006 1:16 pm

This is very good you know.

2daycowboywanted 46F

7/27/2006 1:24 pm

Heres to hoping you feel much better!!


buddhamike 107M
7006 posts
7/27/2006 1:27 pm

Your metaphysical insight here is so sweet. Don't let problems from the past diminish your enjoyment of the present. And remember if it isn't happening right now it's part of the past.

kokopelli_123 52M

7/28/2006 4:46 pm

Tuesday morning I awoke after a dream and while shaving I admitted to myself I was lonesome. My spirit told me that was ok. "Really" I asked. "Yes, it's ok" my spirit answered. "Just be careful how you handle it" my spirit warned me. "Ah, don't medicate it?" I asked. "That and don't deny it" my spirit warned. "It's ok."
Now I no longer blame some one else for not being there and consequently my loneliness.
It's been a bitch of a year at times, but we have learned much.

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