Home Again  

gypsy1629 42F
324 posts
5/27/2006 1:49 pm

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5/27/2006 8:37 pm

Home Again

I am finally home again...I did not know I would be gone for 3 weeks...but I did enjoy every day of my family get away...I was surrounded with many I love...laughter was a common sound...giggling...yelling...of course, crying was heard on occassion too...that goes with the territory of four to five kids and three to four adults inhabitating one place...

I have more grey hairs on my head, I didn't look, but it is a feeling that they surely did sprout...

I came home to absolute quiet and stillness...but also nice waether...the best we have had so far....by the time I had gotten home I had been awake for two days, had just spent 9 plus hours in a court room, and am just now getting over a rather icky cold...Yet I could not sleep still...

Memories of my visit lingered in my mind...I could almost hear the children calling out to me... "aunty XXXX"..."Mom"..."Look at me"..."see what I can do?"....all music to my ears!...

Now I have had a couple of days to recuperate and wind down and I miss it all...I seriously cannot wait till I move again...to be near them all.

I hate living where I do as I know hardly anyone in the area...I guess being without "Eddy" makes a difference too...no more phone calls to and from him...we did e mail recently (today) but only because I asked him if he had called while I was gone as there were several (more than 10) hang ups on my machine...he is known to rarely leave a message so I assumed it was him...however it was not...I was disappointed to this thought...I miss him terribly and my hopes got high when I heard all the none messages on the recorder...hoping it WAS him that had tried to call...

You know...the missing him terribly always gets worse when I come back home from the family vacations...I guess cause then I am alone and I allow myself the "what ifs" or"whats he doing?"..."is he lonely too?"

Gonna drive myself crazy bout this man I think...I almost did throw caution and my heart to the wind and call him...For reasons unknown though I did not....I did tell him there would be no sex unless there was a relationship...so that ball is in his court unless I want to thow all my ideals out the window...right now I am not ready for that...well maybe I am and I am just waiting for a breaking point before I do something so rash and bold...

Anyways...I will be going through all my watched blogs through out the weekend and prolly into the week as well...I watch quite a few of them so I know it will take time...since I have so many to go through I may respond in them very little but please know that I care and understand I would normally write more in them but I have many to go through....and in the few I have already been to I see that a LOT can happen in three weeks time!

Prayers of strength and hope go out to you all!

gypsy


phoenix639 50F

5/27/2006 2:16 pm

Good to have you back.

Catch up with you very soon.

As for how you feel, baby steps hun.


rm_funinic 50M
823 posts
5/27/2006 4:53 pm

You're BACK!!!

(huge hug!)

I'm glad you had a great time with family. Most of mine is scattered to the shores... It's very infrequent that we can be in the same place at the same time.

Stick to your principles.

Use a vibrator.

If it helps, here's my tongue...

Welcome home...


gypsy1629 42F

5/27/2006 4:54 pm

phoenix...thanks hun and is good to be back!...although a bit time consuming til I get all caught up on the blogs...

gypsy


gypsy1629 42F

5/27/2006 6:11 pm

Funinic....you make me feel all warm and cozy, you also made me laugh pretty damned hard...wish your tongue were here though...it has been a horny, frustrating, sexless day for me!...Thanks for the hug!

gypsy


gypsy1629 42F

5/27/2006 6:39 pm

Shaye...thanks for stopping by and leaving some words of wisdom I appreciate it...and thanks for the hug

gypsy


flagg134 37M
1582 posts
5/27/2006 8:11 pm

Well Gypsy I'm ecstatic to hear you are back with us we all missed you. I'm glad to hear the time spent with the family was enjoyed by both you and them.

Don't worry about responding we're just glad to have you back. Take your time and keep your chin up.

RF


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