March 26th 1st blog of my life (recent biogrophy)  

grasshopper230 48M
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3/26/2006 9:18 pm

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March 26th 1st blog of my life (recent biogrophy)

My life has been through a lot of changes lately since I stopped using drugs and alcohol. I had over 22 months clean and relapsed. I was clean from 12\18\2003 to 11\9\2005. Having been in recovery for over 22 months, I found that I had one last reservation in my program. I had expectations that my life would improve,and it did for a time. However, when the storm came I was not prepared for it. I had been working 6 days a week and had saved a pretty good bit of money. I bought a car and installed my dream stereo system. I found a nice woman and my life seemed to be going great when all at once things changed.

I stopped making money at the local restaurant I worked, lost my girlfriend, roomate quit his job, etc. I became depressed and decided to go to the local casino's and try my luck at making the money I lost by having to pay the full rent. I lost a lot of money and became frustrated. About 2 weeks later me and my best friend who I had recently went to his wedding. By the way it was my first wedding. I cried when I seen it. I have always wanted a wife and for the most part had some chances at having one, but blew it because of my drug use. To make a long story short me and my best friend used together. It is now about 4 or 5 months later and he is in rehab, divorced, and on probation for drug possession. I on the other hand decided about 20 days ago on March 6th to go to detox.

I was in detox for 7 days. I have been going to meetings every chance I get. I got a better job than I had before. I work at a local restaurant here in Vicksburg, Mississippi as a waiter. I am pretty excited about it. I have earned over 400 dollars in tips in the last week. Things seem to be improving dramatically, which I really owe everything to God. Because I don't deserve it, but God loves me anyway because I am a child of God.

Yes, I strongly believe in the trinity of the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost. However, I am just a plain joe, who is trying to improve his life one day at a time.

Today, I worked had to work after having a tough night on Saturday. I made 110 dollars Saturday night, but I got into some arguments with my manager who is a woman. I have always had a hard time following direction from a woman. This is one thing I am trying to change one day at a time. I believe that whether it be a man or woman, if someone is a manager and I am the employee then I should follow direction and obey any commands given to me from my manager. I went to work this morning at 10 AM after working last night til 1 AM. I was so tired. However, once the customers started coming in to eat, I became energized. I made 74 dollars today, which is great for a lunch shift. I ended up apologizing to my manager and she forgave me. I really want to do a good job for her and more importantly my customers. I think I will do well as long as I continue to give it 100% and become willing to go the extra mile.

I came home around 5 PM. My roommate and I ordered some Pizza from Pizza Hut and it tasted great. It was so nice not having to cook or leave the apartment. I watched the Soprano's and The Big Love. I love them shows. I decided to start this blog because It think it will help me to write things about my life. I believe I need to be honest with myself as well as others in order to change my life one day at a time. I will try and reply to all responses to my blog. However, if I don't get any responses then that is ok too. Because I am doing this to help myself. Well, tomorrow I work a double and will try and post antother tomorrow night when I get off from work. Oh I almost forgot I have been approved a loan to help support me getting back into college. I have one year left for a BA in Information Technology.

Don't wear a mask, be yourself! David


blogginOnly 59F

3/27/2006 2:54 am

Yes David, life gets tough. You fall down, but you have to pick yourself back up, no one else will. You are doing a great job hon. I never did get involved with drugs, but I do know people who have. It is a daily struggle. Keep up the positive thinking hon. Glad you are going back to college. You are on the right path now and you may encounter bumps in the road, just keep your chin up and keep moving forward. The path will lead you to where you need to be

Oh, it does help to write your feelings down.


runzwithknives 61F

3/27/2006 9:31 am

Keep it up David. The process has been really helpful for me.
Remember, no one takes care of you but you. You are doing a great job. Small steps. Many forward and at times bacvkwards. Always try to keep moving forward. You'll get there.
welcome to Blogland. It's a great world here.

Hugs
Rosa


southrnpeach333 51F

3/27/2006 9:39 am

Thank you for sharing your story here. I know that you did it for your own benefit and it does help to write things down. I applaud you on your recovery and your decision to go back to school. Just keep taking those steps one at a time. And keep a friend close to help watch when the storms roll by.


grasshopper230 48M

3/27/2006 7:31 pm

Thanks to all who responded to my blog. I am not sure whether when you add comments if it goes to the one who I am responding too or if it goes online to all. For now, I will assume that it goes to all. I really appreciate all of the support. Yes, it is tough at times, but the longer I stay clean, the easier it gets. I will post a new blog dated each night. Therefore, if anyone cares to follow my life that would be great as I really do need some friends who can share their experiences with me. I will always take constructive criticism and use it to try and better my life. Special thanks to blogginOnly, runzwithknives, and southrnpeach333. After a while, I may follow all of your blogs too, but for now I plan on just keeping it simple and writing down my true feelings each day. However, I will always try and respond to all the people who comment on my blogs, David!


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