Self Assessment - A Train Wreck  

goldri452 66M
74 posts
11/3/2005 2:55 pm

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Self Assessment - A Train Wreck

A little heavier than I would like to be. Not fat but still too big for my own liking. It is a shock too look in the mirror and not see the man that I feel I am inside. When I am not looking in the mirror or seeing a recent photo, I imagine myself as I was when I was in my late twenties.

I had thick, dark, curly hair. I weighed about 165 pounds and I was in very good physical shape. My eyes had a bright twinkle and I smiled a great deal of the time. I've been told that I am well-endowed. But, honestly, I can't tell. I'm okay with that part of me. At least that has not shriveled with age. I had tremendous energy and was always ready for action.

I get up in the morning and am forced to look in that mirror in order to get ready for the day. Staring back at me is this guy who could be the father of the guy I am inside. When the hell did that happen? There are plenty of friendly people who try to reassure me that I am still good looking. But I suspect that the women I find most attractive see the physical me much more than the internal me.

It's funny how this has become such a point of focus for me now. It didn't matter at all when I was young.


deliciousngood 65F
1666 posts
11/3/2005 3:47 pm

They say that age is a state of mind. I'll be 53 on Sunday. I can hardly believe it.I feel no different ( except for some usual aches and pains) than I did when I was young. I have an open mind and enjoy things meant ( I suppose) for younger people.

Here is what you need to do: ( and I say : include your loving wife in this) Begin an adventure. Stop chasing dollars and do something you always wanted to do and were afraid what people would think...WHO CARES ABOUT THAT? Just do it. I promise you you will wake up the next day feeling VIBRANT and saying...WHAT'S NEXT!!!


rm_WickedFemale 64F
401 posts
11/18/2005 4:28 pm

Age is experience......not just a number or a state of mind...it is what we have lived, loved and made it through on our journey of life. It makes us, older appreciate more and be a bit slower at things we know that we enjoy....I enjoy my age and also the respect that it deserved of it.
Some one stated that I has aged like fine wine...I did agree, I am very complexed and fruity ~winks at you~


goldri452 66M

11/21/2005 6:26 am

I had a down day when I posted this. Thankfully, I'm not generally down on myself like that. There are plenty of things that I do to feel vibrant. I play guitar and sing in a band. I take trips up to the mountains for long walks in the woods. I cook. I eat out (thinking food this time - LO. I love the work that I do (self-employed). It's just an occasional shock to look in the mirror and realize that I'm not 25 the way I feel inside.


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