My body...hate it, like it or love it...  

goddessofbitches 42M/34F
5317 posts
7/24/2005 11:16 am

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My body...hate it, like it or love it...

So, I am standing in my bathroom, completely naked, and getting ready to get into the shower. I let my hair fall freely around my face. As I stare at my face, I am thinking that it looks great and I am very attractive the face. That is when I notice the bulge belly from not one but 2 c-sections. Long story there. is when I see that...I get upset and angry. When I was 16...I started starving myself and got down as low as 128 lbs. Which is thin for a 5'3 gal, who played basketball for her school and took gym class for the weightlifting.
I was loosing mucles and didn't care. Then after having my two babies and look in the mirror and what remained, I get so down about it....THen I try to think to could be WORSE...RIGHT? Next I glance at my ass and hips...I can see a slight jiggle...but...I am not too bothered by it.
And lastly, as I am embarresed to admit...I look at my beautiful Vagina. I think of the fact there I am proud that I am a "perfect fit" for my hubby, as well as quite tastey to my other female lovers. I also think of the fact that when it comes to sex with my husband...or these other lovers...I never seem to worry about what I look like. I never seem to feel embaressed about that bulge. I just accept the fact that I am beautiful on the beautiful on the makes up for the outside....

*** This is dedicated to those mothers...with the few extra pounds...You are beautiful...simply because raising children takes a special kind of person...and in all knowledge of kid makes you helps develope you...


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ANewLevel4Us 39M/38F

7/24/2005 11:36 am

Great post Mandy. I am a mother of multiples, and my body has paid the price. I am a much better person than I was before the kids, though. I am always looking for ways to improve the outside, but am happy to say there is not much I would change on the inside.

czeckmeout 43F
2 posts
7/24/2005 11:51 am

you go grrl!! i have sometimes thought the same thing and everything you said was right on- dont worry about that bulge cuz men and women alike love you for you, not mention your kids! Dont let the pouch get you down, cuz too many people love it!!!

GoddessOfTheDawn 106F
11240 posts
7/24/2005 11:56 am

Mandy, great post.

I am no mother and probably won't get to know any of the special feeling connected to that blessing. But I know all about hating one's body. You are beautiful in all ways there are to look at you, and don't let anyone tell you any different.

~ huggzzzz ~

rm_FreeLove999 48F
16127 posts
7/24/2005 12:03 pm

bulge belly??? hell, since my c-section i have "overhang" --- !! but the funny thing is tho my body in reality looks worse, i feel more beautiful now than ever before ... and i hope you do know you are beautiful inside and out!

[blog freelove999]

redmustang91 58M  
8935 posts
7/24/2005 12:17 pm

If you care enough about your appearance there is lipo and tummy tucks. All is vanity, but most guys do not care if you are good at enjoying and giving sex. Just stop whining about it and get it on!

CuteAZguy27 40M
1545 posts
7/24/2005 1:08 pm

A wondeful post indeed goddessofbitches a blog truly from the heart. Even though you may feel less attractive or even have arguments with your husband, he still loves you very VERY much. The way he speaks to you, the way he carries you when your in pain, or how when you were at the bowling ally back in June and you stuck up for Janie When that girl was causeing problems and you gave her a headlock (still an excellent job on that)....your husband came and helped you out at the end, and of coarse the way he makes love to you and supports and encourages you even when your nervous or unsure, he Loves you from the inside of the heart to the outside of your toes. He love you just the way you are-he loves Mandy.


Barbiedoll2003 64F

7/24/2005 2:15 pm

Let us not forget...the GrandMothers...hehe..theres a few of us out here ! I think when a man says to me...You know I like women "like" you, Barbie.....somehow that comes across as a backhanded compliment. Sorry, but I usually reply, You know I am Just Me....Im not like anyone else and glad to be Me. Ive been larger, Ive been smaller...but so what! Just like age.thats a number...and should not effect what I feel inside! Now we all humans that our outward appearance does play into our emotional feelings and yes sometimes it is a reflection of such..or lack of within...

love yourselves first...the rest will all take care of itself

keithcancook 61M
18125 posts
7/24/2005 3:24 pm

Nice post Mandy.

goddessofbitches 42M/34F

7/24/2005 3:25 pm

ANEWLEVEL4US--- Thank you. I can't imagine being a mom to multiples. I can say that sometimes I realize how much I have changed since kids and can say that I am happy. You do seem very sweet and I am glad that you wouldn't change a thing.


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DukeAbbaddon 43M
280 posts
7/25/2005 12:49 am

I never feel good being fat ! its like umm look at me im bloody fat look its the belly !

goddessofbitches 42M/34F

7/25/2005 9:23 am

CZECK---Thank you. Yes... I don't think I will let the bulge get me down. I feel as though if it's gonna come off, it will in time. Just take getting my habits back in order...

GoddessoftheDawn--- From one goddess to another, I think you are beautiful. I read your blog and I read what comes from your heart and I know that you are absolutely positively a beautiful person. It shows...and I am sorry that you are probably not going to get the chance and motherhood...but there are many women who can't and won't, so you aren't alone. I feel bad about it, but I also know that part is also what makes you such a strong impact typed person. HUGS BACK AT YA.....

Freelove--- Yeah, I know that "overhang feeling" Before I gained the extra extra weight, I could see that and I actually wondered if they stapled me back together right or I do know I am, and thank you for saying so...

RedMustang--- I'm not entirely whinning about my weight. I think that it is something that all women at some point go through. Even skinny girls look at themselves sometimes and wish they could GAIN weight. GAIN IT!!! Geeze.... AS for the lipo and tummy tuck...Even if I had the money to do it, I probably wouldn't want to. I don't need any MORE surgeries.....Besides...what good will that do if you don't have your eating habits and regular routine in order? That is just a sample of the things I am trying to do to get a normal life. A Schedule that includes daily exercise (in some form...might be sex everyday..who knows) and making sure that I am doing things the right way. I have nothing against lipo and tunny tucks...but I think that is the EASY WAY OUT (not to mention EXPENSIVE) I want to work for it so I remind myself of what it takes and not to give up or give in at any point.

GuteGuy--- you couldn't be more right and I am glad that you said it. I know my hubby loves me and I know he cares for me. I am glad you remembered my cat fight...that is awesome... I was even more shocked that he didn't chew me out about fighting while I was hurt!!! LOL

Barbie--- Yes, loving yourself is very important. Some people think that if everyone else loves them, they will be happy. But, if they don't love themselves, doesn't matter who loves them...they still feel like they are missing something. So...3-cheers for the GRANDMOTHERS and HOORAY!!!!!!!!! are a very smart...that is what makes us granddaughters better...we learn and love those grandma's that love us and spoil us....

Keith---Thanks....It means so much coming from you. I know you have no clue about the stretch marks, the scars, and the swelled breasts...but...for you to like my post makes my day....

Looking4Fun--- That's the truth...mine gave me a boy and a girl and I couldn't be any happier about it. Thanks for leaving me the message Jezebelle

Duke--- That is also true. Some people don't always see past the fat to really see who they are and what beauty is beneth the skin. But that's ok. Not everyone is ready to do that. It takes time.


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7/25/2005 9:24 am



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