How could you?  

goddessofbitches 42M/34F
5317 posts
11/2/2005 7:26 pm

Last Read:
3/5/2006 9:27 pm

How could you?

How could you disrespect me so? I'm the child you don't even know. I am the woman that bleeds...I am the woman who needs.

Can't you see, just what those words do to me? I am a person not your punching bag...shut up you foolish hag.

It was your mistake, I'm not to blame..It was you and my father who gave me my name..Even though I am flesh and blood...you through me down into those puddles of mud.

How could you make me think I am hell...is it that you aren't mentally well? You're my mother and I'm your baby...There are no buts...if I hadn't or maybes...

You gave birth to me and here you stand...cussing me and spitting on me, refusing my hand. Not helping me up when I am down...Looking on me with that sad frown.

Is it not enough for me to cry..you say you want me to die? OK fine I will leave...taking my heart so it will no longer bleed. It's time for the child to stand alone..no more using that hurtful tone.

This is your last chance to tell me what exactly it was I did, What? Your mad because I was born when you were only a kid?

As I said before...I can't be to blame...for the mistakes that you had made. How could you throw away A daughter like me...one YOU MADE?


This is dedicated to the children whose mothers are abusing them. Something I hinted about but never really revealed about me is that I don't have a very good relationship with my mother. She tends to be verbally abusive to me and everyone else around her. So..now I take my stand...and walk away with my children in my hands. For the time has come for me to spread my wings and leave.

THANK YOU ALL FOR READING ALONG WITH ME. I am sorry to send such a sad message today. But.. on a day like this...I can't be happy...

Even goddess's hurt and cry sometimes.

HUGS~~~MANDY


Always The Bitch


nightstalker172 37M
1258 posts
11/3/2005 8:51 am

Thats terrible that some parents treat their children like that especailly when they dont deserve it...I say if shes mean...be mean back...but thats just me...Its a shame your mom cant reconize what a wonder woman you are...and trust me Im not the only one who thinks so...so I say...when down....GO PARTY!! that always helps me anyway


rm_FreeLove999 47F
16127 posts
11/3/2005 9:54 am

listen my love, i know where you're at. i had to do the same thing. but it does not mean a damn thing about your own worth, except that you are a brave person and a strong person for not tolerating it.

and ...

you will have other mothers... ones you choose yourself for their kindness, or their wisdom, or some other thing undefinable ... that code of family that says your family are the people you grew up with can be broken -- what you are doing now is making space for your chosen family to enter...





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weineroftheworld 67M

11/3/2005 1:54 pm

I am very fortunate. I have a mother who loves me very much. I am the oldest of seven kids and if she could have her way we would all move back into her house..and she's almost 80!! I don't know your mother. I have known people like her. They all have low self esteem and try to make their kids feel even lower. You can, and will rise above this. Just avoid her at all costs. It is her loss that she won't see her daughter and grand children. Stand tall and proud and be the best Mandy you can be. You now know how NOT to treat your kids. The preacher said to honor your mother, BUT he goes on to say to cherish your children. These go hand in hand. You cannot have one without the other. I will stand beside you if you need me. I will be your friend.


realmom2 59M/51F

11/3/2005 2:17 pm

That's my girl. Stand tall, and be proud of the wonderful woman you've become.

You were born, and, sadly, for some, that's too much to handle. You did absolutly nothing wrong, don't even go there. Your mom is a very messed up individual who needs ALOT of professional help.

Hold your head up high sweetie, and hold your children close, for they are the loves of your life. Look only to the future, because you can't change the past. Live for yourself, your kids, and your husband, and leave everything else behind.

Look into the eyes of your children, and see what they're seeing, A LOVING MOM. And look no further.


saddletrampsk 55F

11/3/2005 3:19 pm

(((big hugs)))


SoljerBlu 40M

11/3/2005 7:50 pm

My God, Mandy.. I cry from the bottom of my heart!
My own sadnesses seem so fucking small.


AlbertPrince 59M

11/4/2005 2:46 am

I may not know you very well, but I feel for you. I couldn't live without my mother's support - who would do my ironing?


tillerbabe 57F

11/4/2005 8:05 pm

Mandy...

Good for you! And don't ever apologize for sharing your pain with people that love you! (Takes pain from you, wraps it in a hermetically sealed bag and scrifices it to the Gods!)

Love your babies, know they love you....and behind all the abuse, all the anger is extreme pain. Hug yourself sweetie!

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