The whole truth pt1  

fulfillmeplease2 45F
3 posts
3/26/2006 6:49 pm

Last Read:
4/14/2006 6:06 pm

The whole truth pt1

Day 1
Well....where do I begin? I'm a 33 bi-female who hasn't been with a woman in almost 9 years and really starting to long for a woman's gentle touch. My husband has always been very understanding and is the greatest man out there in my point of view. He isn't even the biological father of my daughter but the only "Daddy" she'll ever really have. We have been together since she was 8 months old and nothing will ever come between us. He has supported us and spoiled us in so many ways that I could never repay him.
We live right next door to his bestfriend and that helps when things start getting bad he has someone to talk to. I suffer from depression and anger management problems and sometimes living in a battlezone is easier than living with me. But my husband stands by my side day and night and protects me from myself and anyone else that would hurt me.
My daughter is the light of my life and the light at the end of those dark tunnels. She seems to know when I need her the most and just stands in front of me an dhugs me until I calm down and can manage a smile. She is only 8 years old and smarter than most adults. I love my family with all of my heart and soul and thank God for them everyday!

Day 2
Any other time in my life I would be looking forward to spring break with my daughter. The last couple of years we used this time to have some one-on-one time with each other. Unfortunately, we don't get that this year. We are heading to another state. Not for vacation but to see my best friend and her family. Sounds like a good reason but it's not. My friend has to have a historectomy and they are hoping that they catch everything before she develops uterine cancer. She is like a sister to me and the thought of her having to go through with this is killing me. She has 4 beautiful children and we thank God for those. She had just talked to her husband about maybe having one more before her time ran out and then got this news from the doctor. It's something no woman wants to hear or go through and I can't let her go through it alone. I haven't seen her in 2 years but we have talked almost everyday and since this news sometimes 2 or 3 times a day. She is scared and I am scared for her. I know I have to be strong and I am praying for the strength to get her through this most difficult week ahead.
For all of you that do read this, I'm sorry that I'm so down today but the surgery is a week away and it's starting to wear on me and her. I have to be strong for her so I have to find a place to be weak somewhere else. I will update this when we return from our trip.

rm_goddess1946 107F
13518 posts
3/26/2006 10:10 pm

You are wise to count your blessings when you are feeling less than gloriously happy with life. Sounds like you have a good man there in your husband. Welcome to blogland...lots to read and think about here...blessings always, Goddess1946

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

honestfunsex 53M
24 posts
3/26/2006 10:18 pm

There's nothing more precious than family. I'd be keeping that man if i was you! He sounds like one in a million.
Keep safe

MONA_14 31F

3/27/2006 7:44 am

you are invited to be our Friends

Become a member to create a blog