An apology of sorts.....  

freetime648 53F
7629 posts
5/13/2006 10:04 am

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An apology of sorts.....

First off, I think I may need to apologize to a few people (and you know who I mean) for my outburst earlier today with my post. To Saintlianna...I did not mean to draw so much attention to your post and not clarifying that YOU were only bringing it to our attention....not that you were any part of this group or anything.

I also want to explain the passion I have on the subject of sexual, mental or physical abuse towards children. Not that I need to but, this whole ordeal has had me in a spin all day. And I feel if I talk about it, then I can let it go.

My daughter was molested...not once but twice. Both times it happened I was a single mom, working and going to school. I trusted way to many people for her care and I chose the wrong person.....It happened to her when she was 4 by a teenage boy whose own father was convicted of child molestation the year before. The second time was a bit was her grandfather on her fathers side. I did what I could do at the time to protect her but, I never could have imagined not trusting her own grandfather. This and the fact that I was recieving welfare at the time really put a damper on him being prosecuted. They also had grandparents rights and when I refused to allow her to go to their house for their court appointed weekends....I went to jail....

So, now you know where my passion lies. And why it is so deeply rooted into my being. Because of me not having money and not having a husband...I almost lost the most precious thing in my life...and at times I feel as though I had lost quite a bit anyhow. She had alot taken from her and that is not ever going to come back. No matter how hard she tries. She lost her innocense because of someone else's perverse and sick ways of thinking.....and is my fault....and I happily take the blame for it. I should have done alot of things that I did not and for that I will always feel responsible.

So, if I offended anyone by my post earlier...I do apologize from the bottom of my heart....but you have to be me to know why and also to understand it!

Thank you all for reading and I am sorry I rambled on so long......


xx FREETIME648 xx

rm_anacortes 75M
2850 posts
5/13/2006 8:23 pm

I am with Helga... FORGET THE: Thank you all for reading and I am sorry I rambled on so long......

Rambling.. and sharing is what we are here for..

Anyone who is in a hurry will not be reading what you call "rambling"

racingcrazy67 51M

5/13/2006 4:39 pm

I seem to have missed this Saintlianna stuff somehow.

I've just stumbled across all this about child abuse and I read it with a heavy heart.

Free my lovely, thank you for posting this and never apologise for standing up for what you and everyone else should believe in. the protection and love for children.

I'm really tired right now but will come back and visit to read more of your blog and on the blogs you've linked to also.

Much love


helga_hansen 50F  
1987 posts
5/13/2006 11:13 am

I didn't think for one moment that Saintlianna was involved at all with that terrible group, and I am pretty damn sure others didn't either!!

And you should never feel you have to apologise for your feelings or passion, Free... ever!!! I am just so sorry that you and your daughter had to endure such tragedy and shame. You are both wonderful women, and I am sure your daughter loves you, despite you feeling you are responsible for her loss.


Love, hugs and kisses from ♥♥HH♥♥

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