fortunaswm 63M/53F
558 posts
6/27/2006 10:37 am

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7/8/2006 6:15 am


If I could only put the sound I hear into words -
impossible -
can’t be done.
I envy those who can put their inner most feelings into a rhythm - a sound - waves in the air.

I hear that.
I feel that.
That’s how I feel too.
Blessed are those who can.

Also blessed are those who feel it.
Understand it
Know it.
Experience it.

I don’t know how old I was when I first discovered music.
Way young though.
Listening to Disney songs a clear red vinyl - over and over in my bed room with a simple little record player that had the speaker mounted to the needle.
And when the needle broke - I found that the tip of a very small nail also worked - anything to keep the sound in the air.

We used to sit around the living room with friends and “Sing A Long With Mitch” - literally - does anybody out there know who Mitch Miller is? I loved those days.

Then I discovered The Ventures, Chet Atkins, Ray Stevens, The Beach Boys, and a host of others that did songs like “The Swim, Shout, The Twist, Speedball, Ahab the Arab” and many others I can now no longer remember.

Then there was the night IT happened.
I had to go to bed, but my sister got to stay up and watch - THE BEATLES on Ed Sullivan.
I didn’t have a clue what was going on, or who in hell THE BEATLES were - but I knew I had missed something that night.
Then - within a couple of days my sister brought home her first BEATLES 45rpm record - I Want To Hold Your Hand. It did not take long until there was a ½ dozen in the house - She Loves You, I’ll Get You, PS I Love You, Please, Please Me, etc.
The hook was set - I had found something unmeasurably better than my Tonka Toys.
The snowball was in motion and couldn’t be stopped.

I LOVE MUSIC - and have since the day I was born.

When I was married I tried to explain it to my wife once - she had asked.
I don’t just hear it - I feel it - it runs right through me and excites every cell in my body - I come alive.


I found I had NO/ ZERO/ ZIP - ability to play - and my voice?????
I LOVED singing in the Glee Club in 4th, 5th and 6th grade - it was one of the highlights of my existence.
Then I graduated to “Junior High School” - 7th grade. And of course - my first move was to join the school choir.
I can still picture her face - the choir leader - I think of her now as “Cruella De Vil.”
She told me I could not be in the choir because I didn’t know how to sing - I was crushed beyond belief.
Actually I have never recovered and I blame this for the mental illness (just joking - but, that is only my opinion) that plagues me today.

I came home from High School one day and asked my mom - “why did God give me such a love for music, and NO ability to play it?”
Her answer was simple and satisfying - “because God gave some people the ability to play - and others the love to listen - for if there was no one who loved to listen - there would be no reason to play.” It made since and took away the edge of my sorrow.

Over the years my collection has become extensive - over 1500 album titles - all cataloged on disc by both year and alphabetically.
A couple of months ago I was introduced to a gentleman who owns a local recording studio and he came by one day to visit - he was impressed with my collection and wanted know if he could borrow some of my stuff - it was a HUGE compliment.

Recently I have been looking at the shelves full of LPs (plus the 3 or 4 boxes of LPs in storage because I now have the CD) and CDs - and the drawers full of cassette tapes - and think - “I need to start down sizing.”
Though, I think I will leave the small 8 track collection alone - and yes I do have a working 8 track player for shits and giggles - it amuses people that I have it.

It’s a hard thing to let go of after all these years - and all the pleasure I received from them - they are well worn - I played them - and played them - and played them.
They’re probably not worth much to anyone but me. But I will probably never again listen to ½ of them.
But, how do I choose?
What will I later wish I still had?
What will I never miss? - though some of these are easy to weed out.

Or perhaps I will dig out the 12 gauge and use them for skeet - who knows?

What is it in your life that captured your spirit at a very early age - perhaps since birth - and still dwells deep inside you today?

lovemetouchme5 52F
2102 posts
6/27/2006 6:24 pm

First of all, let me tell you, as I reading this post, I thought I was reading something my soon2bx was writing. He is exactly like you when it comes to music. It's his life. In fact it consumes his life. I'm a lover of music but can only play the piano. I am happy just putting on the headphones, closing my eyes and just drown in the sound.

Besides music, teaching captured my spirit when I was young. I started playing school at six, and never really quit. I have been a teacher since 1988 and have loved almost every minute of it.

fortunaswm replies on 6/27/2006 11:39 pm:
And this too is where I am - just happy to put on the headphones, perhaps a bowl load and chill for a bit.
But you my my dear -
You teach - and the lives you touch may never be known to you - but rest assured - your influence on many, many people will be experianced through generations - as just a seed planted - then it grows.
What a marvelous existence in this world - may God bless you.

smoothnjuicy4u 51F

6/27/2006 6:33 pm

I love art, oil paintings sketches you name it but I cant even draw a good smiley face. I love a well written book as well, and of course no skills in that either.

fortunaswm replies on 6/27/2006 11:45 pm:
But the warmth you gain from your love shines from within you - and is expressed through your walk -
For it is not the talents we contribute - but the expression we pass on -
Keep the love my dear lady - and pass it to another.

HBowt2 60F

6/28/2006 2:36 pm

it's music for me too... my dad sang, my uncles all played...sax and piano....i soaked up music as a kid...and like you i can't play or sing.....but it brings me such joy and wakes my soul...

fortunaswm replies on 6/28/2006 10:55 pm:
I love you much HB - and to dance with you under the stars would be a most delightful time.
Listen to your memories of your uncles - you will always keep their music alive - what a nice way to fall asleep - remembering those who brought music to your soul.

sexyariesgirl 58F

6/28/2006 7:32 pm

Books....I love books. I love to read. I learned to read at an early age and have never stopped! During the rough times last summer and until recently I couldn't concentrate long enough to really get into a book, so it's been a while since I read much. But in the last two months I have read probably 20 books....making up for lost time I guess! The funny thing is that I hated giving book reports in school...I hated being MADE to read a certain book or certain type of book and then having to analyze it. I read purely for pleasure...always have. Hated literature class too! lol

I also really enjoy music...all types. Can't read a note or carry a tune and can't play any instrument. My son played sax in school....and GOD HE WAS GOOD! But, unfortunately he didn't enjoy it and quit band after his sophomore year....he'd played the sax for five years...we even bought him a really expensive one. At first I was disappointed, but then I realized that if he didn't enjoy it he shouldn't have to do it! (His band directors didn't agree with me, but fortunately "I" was the Mama so their vote didn't count! lol)

Power To FOK

fortunaswm replies on 6/28/2006 11:19 pm:
You GO MOM!!!!! It is your vote that counts - and sounds to me like your judgements are to be respected.
Books and reading -
I'm envious - and I think that is where our growth can accellerate - through the knowledge of others passed from one to another -
though this is a weakness for me - you have my utmost respect

curiousinlorain7 60F

6/29/2006 8:07 pm

Books and flowers...when i was in grade school I had read every cotton picking book in our school library by the time i was in 5th grade...I still like to read but don't read as much. And flowers, even plants in general. THere is something so cheery about flowers. I do lilke music, it calls to my soul, not as deeply as it calls to yours though. There is a Bible passage about worshiping with song and is says "make a joyful noise unto the Lord" as a kid i knew that was put there for 'noise' was joyful, just not beautiful...but it was to Him thanks for the memories

fortunaswm replies on 6/29/2006 10:05 pm:
OH my dear curious - you just touched my heart - I know the passage well - but I sing praise to HIM with muffled tones - though I know HE heres me.

HBowt2 60F

7/1/2006 4:45 am

Speaking of sex....well you weren't really...CUM FOR ME and head to Cum on Blogland for the rules.

fortunaswm replies on 7/1/2006 9:42 am:
Honored -

for you,
with you,
on you,
in you -

and then watch you slip softly into slumber as I kiss and massage all that is you.

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