The only explanation I can give  

five_speed 42M
3250 posts
11/8/2005 10:40 am

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The only explanation I can give

I know all is not always games and sunshine in Blogland. It cannot be because there are real people behind every word that is posted, and I am sorry to be the one to break the news to you, in the event that you don’t already know, but people are stupid. I include myself in that statement. We are all stupid. Some of us are more stupid more often than others, but make no mistake: all people everywhere are all stupid to some degree.

I have noticed that stupidity increases to unbelievable levels when money, power, and inflated egos enter the mix, and consequently Blogland just became extremely stupid to me. Last night I was allowed to glimpse one of the most over-inflated egos I have ever encountered. I didn’t think people could really be this stuck on themselves in real life. I thought it just happened on TV. But these egotistic elitists actually exist right here among us. The experience has left me nauseated and completely disillusioned. I will not detail the specifics, because I don’t want lawyers sniffing for my blood too.

As I ponder legalities and law sharks, I worry about most of my writing that I have put on this site in good faith. I realize I could have been seriously plagiarized by now and not even know it, but I left the words there anyway, until now, at least. Last night I was smacked with a glaring reminder that so many people are self-centered and self-serving.

I also do not want future copyright issues arising with AdultFriendFinder when I publish some or all of the poetry and prose I have posted here for your enjoyment. With that possibility in mind, I have ripped out all of my writing that I cannot allow to be stolen.

My time on this site has been good for me; it has allowed me to meet a few really great people, and writing here has allowed me to remember my style and craft that I forgot while trying to do the nine-to-fiver, but blogging has grown to the point of dominating my time.

In the last week, I have spent hours and hours in Blogland. For all that time and effort, I have tentatively moved from the #5 spot to the #4 spot on the Holy List of People Who Really Need a Life. That’s cool. Awesome. Does it benefit me in any tangible way? No.

I could have spent those same hours writing my novel, or reading a book, or looking for a new job or exercising or learning my way around my new town. I could have wasted those hours playing video games. At least then I would be relaxed and content instead of pissed off over the silliness that I have been exposed to.

I Love Carlos Mencia, and I wish he was here right now. He’d be handing out Special Olympics gold medals to a couple of retards right now. At this point, I think Blogland and the Special Olympics have a lot in common. Consider the Special Olympics: Even if you win, even if you are King of the Games, at the end of the day, you’re still retarded. Blogland is exactly the same way. And here I am, not even solidly in the #4 spot. I’m not even a runner up, not even a bronze medalist. It means nothing to me.

The time has come to face facts, and there are two facts that are most important to me. 1) Blogging will not put gas in my car or food in my belly. 2) If I really want published, I have to finish my book, and that will not happen if I continue dumping unlimited time into my blog.

I know I have touched many of you in a positive way, just as I have been touched by your support and kindness, and I cannot bring myself to abandon Blogland entirely. I expect I will still post my thoughts, views, and humor, but no more fiction or poetry will be coming, and I will not be reading other people’s blogs. I need that time to write my books, because I have a few things I really want to share with the world. I think my words can bring smiles and awareness to many people, just as they have to some of you, but to do that, I have to take time away from Blogland.

Therefore, I will limit myself to two hours per day for Blogland. That is time for writing new posts and for replying to comments. That is all the time I can give it if I expect to get this book done on the schedule I have established. I hope you will not be offended by my decision to remove some of my writing, and I hope you will not think I am being a jerk for being a blog hermit. Last of all, I hope you will continue to visit me here in the days ahead. I will be here as much as I can be.

rm_LilBlondeNZ 42F
1028 posts
11/8/2005 11:29 am

As a fan, of course I'll miss your work, but as a former attorney I think you have made the right decision to keep your work out of the public domain... not everyone is well intentioned, and when money and intellectual property rights come into play... people come out of the woodwork... it's crazy!

At least we got a sneak peek, and we can all say... "We knew him when!"

Although it's not the case for blogland peons such as myself, you can easily scale back and go for "quality over quantity" have garnered your audience.

I don't care if you drop down to #29 and write once a week, you'll always be on my watched blogs. And I'm sure everyone here would love to be invited to your book party in the near future.

Dibs on your autograph...


SibylBatchAxile 44M
384 posts
11/8/2005 11:59 am

Wow, I pretty much said some of the same things today in a comment on my blog (although much more condensed...)

I know how you feel 5er.

You mentioned one of the same reasons why I will be leaving here shortly, as well..I would like to be published some day, and I can't accomplish that when I spend all of my time on here. It would be nice to actually make a living doing something I enjoy. I don't enjoy spending my days behind bars (yes, I still get to go home after 8 hours, but still, it's like being in hell...)

The time comes for some of us to change...and I don't view that as a negative thing at all.

Good luck on your future, and know that I will still check in from time to time to see how you are coming along...

bulging_boy 50M

11/8/2005 12:01 pm

Now I'm all happy and sad at the same time.

Go the book bud, it'll be a smash.

Look... I'm even willing for you to cut back to half an hour per day if it'll help get that book of yours out quicker.

Besides, the sooner it's out the sooner you come back right?


Unless you get really famous and then forget us all.

The faceless ones... the ghosts in the machine... the... idiots.

ok... I have a face. I was being poetic

Don't anyone steal that... I'll fucking have ya!

DefiniteTrouble 51F

11/8/2005 12:22 pm

Your decision to pull your writing is the right legal decision. It's a shame you were prompted to do such for such petulant reasons. Disillusion was a good word last night. Pathetic is what comes to mind now. It just makes me sick. I, too, am sorry this had to happen. I know how much you appreciated and respected reader input. You're such an amazing writer. Call me biased all you like, but if I remember correctly, and I do, I felt such passion toward your writing when we were "just friends."

There are many reasons I'm thankful to be the one sharing your life. Today, I'm epecially grateful, as I can't imagine not being able to read you whenever I choose.

rm_DaphneR 59F
8023 posts
11/8/2005 12:46 pm

Hey, you have my email if you still need an editor

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.

tillerbabe 57F

11/8/2005 3:00 pm

Oh Poop! Great strategy....and I'm happy for you..but Oh Poop!

Ok ok, plz tell us who the idiots are? These people usually wind up being my "friends" Plz "warn me".

Nobody "warned" me about Tit and now look where I am?

spinmedown 50M
3626 posts
11/8/2005 3:48 pm

DANG!! I'm really sorry to hear that.
I had been clearing my plate, so I could spend an evening or two here reading and enjoying your stories. Seriously, I just got caught up on Dan Abnett's latest books, and I was looking forward to another good read here. Let me know when it hits the presses. I'd like a first edition, and I'd keep it on a shelf in good company.

Most people are other people... FUCKING CHARACTER LIMIT!!! ~Oscar Wilde

SoljerBlu 40M

11/8/2005 4:14 pm

You also have to change your handle.. I've been to the 'Boro' and I'm pretty sure I-69 don't run through there! lol
You have responded to a couple of my posts, and I have found you thoughtful and kind, so, you can go ahead and steal anything you want for your books. I'll try to put in something worth stealing!!
Oh, and let DT drag you down to the 'Bluesboro Club'.. lots of young nubiles... and some old blues players (and bluegrass pickers) who will knock your socks off... and if all else fails, try a couple of the 'Trappist Ales' they carry in their beer cooler... expensive, but oh so good! If I ever clear my legal shit up, maybe I'll meet you there.. and buy you both a good beer... and maybe play a tune or two there again.

rm_talldarkavg1 107M
10172 posts
11/8/2005 7:27 pm

Consider the Special Olympics: Even if you win, even if you are King of the Games, at the end of the day, you’re still retarded.

Isn't that the truth. I have spent around 10 years with this event. I have watched the joy of participating in an event brings. I have watched the pride in their accomplihment, the recognition of their efforts, the snap in their step as they wave to the cheering crowd. I listened to the Down's Syndrone boy say, "Only a small part of me has Down's Syndrone. The rest of me is normal." And the young lady who told Gigi, "GOD didn't waste his time giving me a pretty face. He spent his time giving me a loving heart." You are so right 5 the end of the day they forgot all about the olympics and were still retarded. The odd thing, everyone else in the stadium that day remembers the experience to this day.

[blog talldarkavg1]

tillerbabe 57F

11/8/2005 7:32 pm

Ok...I got the "scoop"..i knw I'm late..but I'm pissed. Maybe those that are worried about their reputations shouldn't "BE" on AdultFriendFinder. Seems pretty simple to me. Putz. I will never go to that BLOG again....

tillerbabe 57F

11/8/2005 7:34 pm

Kisses for:
Bunz {=}
DT {=}
5'er {=}
and two , wait THREE for TiT {=}{=}{=}

Peeps with integrity!

impish_pixie 55F
6867 posts
11/8/2005 7:46 pm

I want an invitation to that book party too, and an autographed copy of the book would really make me smile. I'm happy for you - looks like you're ready to jump off that ledge, I have no doubt that your net will be there.

BTW...didn't comment before - the two blogs between you and DT were so incredibly open, honest, human, and raw-ly (yes..I know it's not really a word) vunerable - it was beautiful. You both solidify my belief that sometimes it ain't easy - but it's always worth it. I'm on the sidelines cheering you on because I think you've found "it" and we all know how rare that is. Looks like your star is rising - don't be afraid to fly.

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


11/8/2005 7:50 pm

I can understand you wanting to lash out at what you may percieve to be wrong some way or another,,, but to out and out attack someone or a group of people that have no part in your feud is beyond me.

Live the life or walk beside a Special Olympic member as one of your flesh and blood and see how it feels to have someone with no heart desparage you in that way..
Stand up and be a man and have your feud with how it belongs with ,,do not SLANDER our children with your heartless garbage.

You are not worth the emotion it takes to get upset or the time it takes to even read your crap.

PrincessKarma 45F
6188 posts
11/8/2005 7:52 pm

What a pity... would you consider finishing up "Shadow Infraction by email? Pretty please? With sugar on it?

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

carebearluv2 43F

11/8/2005 8:38 pm

Of course, I will still read your blog, it is my favorite, no matter how little you post! As a fellow writer, I can understand and sympathize with the need to pull your material. Writing is my solace and the thought of anyone plagurizing someone's work for personal gain sickens me. This is the reason I have never put my work out there. It remains my treasure.

It is a shame that a creative outlet such as this is open to that type of trivial garbage. It should be about fun, just like writing is and making friends. How seriously can one take a sex site? Amazing.

I have never posted a blog on this site, but as I have told you before, you have inspired me to continue my writing and possibly start a blog. My ultimate goal is to be a published writer. I support your decisions and hope you will let us know when your book comes out so we can all buy copies. We are waiting for the best seller!!!

five_speed 42M

11/8/2005 8:57 pm

Dear TDA, Thank you for stopping by my humble little rest stop; I know you are a very busy, very important man. It means so much to me that you would take time out of your hectic and interesting life to drop a few words into my little blog.

Thank you also for that heart warming account of such a special event. It was beautiful!


**Wipes a single tear from his eye**

five_speed 42M

11/8/2005 9:03 pm

Dear BlondeNeedsaCLUE,

If my blog is such crap, why take the time to comment? Regardless of what you say, every comment you make just adds that much support. Thanks for the help, darlin! I really appreciate the boost!

I can't help it if you are misinterpreting me the exact same way you misread travelingintexas a few days ago, but luckily we live in America, so the solution to your problem is very simple: I will continue to write what I want to write, and if you don’t like what I write here, DON'T READ IT! GO SOMEPLACE ELSE!

DefiniteTrouble 51F

11/8/2005 9:10 pm

First, YOU are more than worth the emotion, my dear. And if the very people who deemed you unworthy took 5 minutes to watch Carlos Mencia, they'd understand that you aren't poking fun at any of the our "challenged" children, nor our "challenged" adults. You'd never do that. What you are poking fun at are those who are lacking in the common sense department. Imagine.

"Challenged." That's right. I'm politcally correct.
1. I serve on the board for Special Olympics.
2. My daughter is considerd "mentally challenged."
3. I spend endless hours tutoring mentally and physically "challenged" students.

I would NEVER associate, much less be romatically involved with, anyone who disrespected these wonderful children and adults I've been blessed to have in my life. NEVER.

Read this post for what it is, not for what you want to take away from it and exploit for your own agendas.

Sweetest_Sin_Jes 38F

11/8/2005 9:12 pm

Well, golly! I will miss your cute little snuggly picture of you holding your penis (hehe) and funny comments in my blogs, but I most certainly can understand the need to devote more time to real life. BOO, though!


Okay, I'm better now! I wanted to tell you that I saw a t-shirt the other day somewhere that said something about ass-hats! Too funny (although I still don't understand what an ass-hat is - will you have time to explain before you go off into the real world????)!

I'm asking this question now because I don't think I posted a question in your ask me anything blog thingy the first time, so you owe me an extra question...right? Oops - that's two - sorry! tee hee!


Efilnikufecin69 48M

11/8/2005 9:43 pm

Blondeneedssex: When I met Lianna I found out about her daughter. Some people thought that this would scare me away from her. Let me tell you something. Children with handicaps are true Angels on Earth! If you have never helped out during a Special Olympics, then this is something you NEED to do at least once in your life. To see the joy on those kids faces when they cross the finish line, even when they come in last, they are so happy, it makes your heart cry out for them! I helped out here in Germany at Rhein Main Air Base with the Special Olympics here 3 years in a row. It enlightened me, brought me joy and even though I am not a religeous man, I think you can't be closer to God himself until you have counter-acted with one of these wonderful humanbeings.
I love saintlianna, and I love her daughter. She is wonderful and a true Angel who knows no evil, hate, death or destruction. Who lives a simple but yet complex life. These are children, let us not forget. Those who scorn that must try and put themselves in the situation of the parents of these Angels. These parent are true Saints and none of us can hold a candle to them. If you ever want to look into the eyes of an Angel, look into the eyes of one of these children and see who God really is! Those that scorn and hone these parents and their children, I weep for you, you have no heart and no soul. How will you explain to God that you honed one of his Angels, on Judgement Day? I stand beside you Blonde. You always have a friend here with me that would join you hand in hand with your child and lianna's as we cross that line!

rm_DaphneR 59F
8023 posts
11/8/2005 10:15 pm

Hey, I hear they are laying odds and taking bets on the outcome of this fight in Vegas.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.

AlbertPrince 59M

11/9/2005 11:45 am

Could you also limit my time in Blogland to 2 hours per day. Come and kick my butt if I overstep the limit - thanks

onelittlesecret 34M
1579 posts
11/9/2005 1:48 pm

I think I need a cap too. Unfortunately my time on here comes out of my sleeping time.

This is a little bit like the comment whore thing where I'm not really sure what's going on, but good luck with your book 5, I'll keep checking in on ya'! (Hope you get a chance to check in on others on occasion too. )

rm_LilBlondeNZ 42F
1028 posts
11/9/2005 11:46 pm

Oh I get it now... *finally connects the dots after reading like 20 posts wondering what all this big fuss is about* That's it? What a letdown...

Can't we all just get along?

*Hands out daisies and sings Kumbaya... Peace, Love and Blogs, Baby...*

goddessofbitches 42M/34F

11/10/2005 7:25 pm

I personally don't think you should limit yourself. I think it would be better for you to get on for short periods of time through out the day. Maybe getting on here and there for about 30 minutes or so would be good...

Please don't limit your time....I may not get to speak to you as often....And I would like to talk to you more...


Always The Bitch

TopFisher 64M

11/11/2005 12:19 am

I'm of the opinion that NOTHING on this site couldever possible damage ones carreer. Well unless the one being so called damaged, is, we so called damaged already!

Sorry if I was makin 6 fgures, I would not be a headliner in this place. Come on it's a site to get laid by! It even says so every time you sign in! Pay attention.

I'm still not aware that McCarthur has been relected. Did I miss something?

No I did not.

TzarsAmuseChant 42M
2854 posts
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