My Bisexuality  

firestarter665 43M/40F
3158 posts
4/4/2006 4:53 pm

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4/6/2006 4:24 am

My Bisexuality

From the time that I was in Middle School, I knew that there was something different about me. Like other posts I have read (which makes me feel good that I am not the only one), I used to look at my dad's nudie magazines or if I was at a friends house we would take her father's. I thought at the time that it was natural curiosity. But then I would fantasize what it would be like being with one of my girlfriends. In middle school I did have one chance to be with my firend, but at the time I was very shy.

Years past and in High School I would look more at the girls than the guys. Girls with low cut shirts turned me on more than the muscular football players. Again, I was still very shy and dated men. I mean hell, that is what I was brought up to do.

About three years after High School, I met the man who is now my husband. He is absolutely the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. Three years into our marriage is when I confessed to him that I am attracted to women. Of course he was like "Alright!!", but there is more to it than just getting arousal by it. Before we joined this site, I had my first experience with a woman. A friend of ours came out with us one night and we were all having a couple of drinks and chatting. Someone had told us to kiss and she leaned in and gave me a peck on the lips. She then leaned in again and really kissed me.

There were a few times after that one night that we fooled around. We would kiss and feel each others breasts. Little did I know that she was more interested in Mr. Fire. So that came to an end real fast.

I have not been fully with a woman, but it is just as difficult as being with a man for the first time. I want it to be special and with the right woman. I don't want to go out to any old bar and start picking up girls. I want it to mean something, not just for me but for her as well.

We are currently talking to another couple right now. They have just about as much experience as we do and I am really looking forward to meeting them. I have spoken with the woman on the phone and we seem to get along well, and yes I do think that she is a good looking woman. I often think about what our first meeting might be like.

There I go off to fantasyland again!


4/4/2006 5:14 pm

excellent.. thank you so much... your expierence mirrors mine.I take things slow.. and I have had a woman try to go through me to get to hubby.. She failed.. but it hurt deeply.. I thought we were very close friends.. I was a fool.
Thank you so much... means alot to me

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firestarter665 replies on 4/4/2006 5:54 pm:
It did hurt that she tried to get to my husband, but to this day we are still friends.

SpaceRangerNJ 56M
4687 posts
4/4/2006 6:52 pm

I hope you have that special experience. And that it is mutual.
Be careful and good luck.

firestarter665 replies on 4/5/2006 5:49 am:
Thank you.

runzwithknives 61F

4/4/2006 7:02 pm

"... I want it to mean something, not just for me but for her as well."

You don't go picking up strange men at the bar to fuck. You sure wouldn't do this with a woman either. Take your time.
And I hope it's very special for the both of you.


firestarter665 replies on 4/5/2006 5:50 am:

lifeisablast333 55M

4/4/2006 8:11 pm

fantasyland is cool....the redneck

firestarter665 replies on 4/5/2006 5:50 am:
It sure is, but I would like to experience the real thing eventually.

MrNuttz05 50M

4/5/2006 12:02 am

As crude as it sounds, I have NEVER looked at it from that perspective... I hope it's everything that you want it to be... Love is EVERYWHERE You are too sweet... I wish I were the 'OTHER WOMAN'

firestarter665 replies on 4/5/2006 5:52 am:
I am glad to shed new light on the subject for you. Love is everywhere, but finding another special someone when you already have on is difficult.

mycin62 55F

4/5/2006 7:29 am

Thank you for sharing your story, funny how we all similar experiences!! Take your time, it will happen, when the time and person are right.

Good luck,

firestarter665 replies on 4/5/2006 8:45 am:
Thanks Cin. That is just the way I look at it.

libgemOH 57M/53F

4/5/2006 10:41 am

My beautiful Mrs Fire, I am sooooo sorry I didn't get here sooner, but better late than never, right??? I did kinda rush my first experience, was just so desperate to get rid of that "virginity" and it turned out pretty badly. There is something about being with a woman that is so much more emotionally than being with most men, present partners excluded of course. I'm still pretty hurt that after that first time, I haven't heard anything from her again. I did have a more positive experience the 2nd time around and thanks to the blogs, am making real emotional connections with a wonderful circle of beautiful women, present company included! Thank you for sharing your story with us!!! -B

firestarter665 replies on 4/5/2006 4:04 pm:
It was my pleasure to share. And thank you for sharing a little more with me.

sassybelle21 33F  
13313 posts
4/6/2006 2:31 am

Well I've always been interested in men only. Then a couple of months back, I had some sort of curiosity about being with another woman. After awhile without any pursuits, it just went away and I'm glad. I know I will feel weird and maybe weird out a little too.

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