Hard decisions  

eveready06 43M
1058 posts
6/9/2006 4:32 pm

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Hard decisions


Hellooo people! After the last couple of months of pure unadulterated joy and happiness, this week has been a bit of a downer all round really. And guess what, me being me its all my own doing! I sometimes think that my body and mind rebel against the things that make me happy because they secretly like the humdrum unhappy state so much! I'm rambling!! To my point! I'm in the process of making one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make in my life! I'm at a crossroads and I know whichever way I turn is going to change my life completely forever! So much so that its left me dithering about like an idiot! Anyway, does anyone else want to enlighten me as to their lifechanging decisions and their outcomes?

honeypot7473 44F

6/9/2006 5:12 pm

My husband and I have been married for almost 12 years.Three years ago my husband told me he wanted me to move out. I won't go into all the details as it is very long and hard to explain. Let's just say that I was completely caught off guard by it. I didn't even know he thought anything was wrong. I was really depressed, and felt as if the whole world was just gone..dried up over night. I was as stay at home mom, and hadn't worked since I had my first son.So, I had to move out, move into my mom's, get a job, put my kids in day care for the first time they were ever away from me. I had alot of issues all at once. At the same time, I wanted to try and work things out with my husband. We talked about it, and still had sex. 5 times in a weekend that was two weeks after he asked me to leave. I loved him so much...I thought it meant he wanted to work things out. The next monday he brought me divorce papers.I was so devastated I couldn't even breath.It took my two months to even look at the papers. In the mean time I was willing to change everything about myself...do anything to just be with him again. To just be a family again.two months later, i signed the papers and sent them to his lawyer. When I told him he freaked out. He came over and stated kissing on me, and trying to hold me. He cried and begged me to try again. I was really confused. I didn't know what to do. I still loved him, but I no longer trusted him with my heart.He sent me roses at work, he told me that our kids needed both of us. I was really torn on what i should do. I went back to him. He got the papers stopped. At first it was great, I was just happy to be with him again. He said the only reason he had filed for divorce was because he didn't believe I would really sign them. He said he just needed me to realize that there was a problem with us, that had to change. He said when he had tried to talk with em about it before that I didn't seem to understand or care. He thought doing something that drastic would show him if I really cared and we could work things out. I do not condone what he did. It hurt, and to some level I have never fully trusted him with my heart again. Today we are happy, and while I do think i made the right decision, I still wait for the bottom to drop out from me again. That fear has never left me. For me I found out one thing from what we went through. I can live without him, but I don't want to. He is the only man for me. If something were to happen again, I don't think I would go back to him again, but I would never love someone else. I also will never regret my choices. I did what I felt was the best thing for my children,him, and myself....I stand by that. I have also had a great three years with him since. We are more in love than we were before.I hope this helps you in some way, even small. I don't know what your choices are but all I can say to you is look at them very carefully, do what you can live with, and what you can't live without.


rm_xxSpecialKxx 47F
1614 posts
6/10/2006 9:13 am

aww hun thats really crap your having too make such a hard decision personally id say go with your heart wink wink go with what makes you happy go with what blow job makes you tingle ,shake say fuckin helllll in deep voice as ya spillin ya juices etc more than the other lmao mwahhhhhhh ok im off out now luffs ya fuckin big bucket loadsssssssssssssss and more xxxxxk


eveready06 43M

6/10/2006 3:38 pm

    Quoting honeypot7473:
    My husband and I have been married for almost 12 years.Three years ago my husband told me he wanted me to move out. I won't go into all the details as it is very long and hard to explain. Let's just say that I was completely caught off guard by it. I didn't even know he thought anything was wrong. I was really depressed, and felt as if the whole world was just gone..dried up over night. I was as stay at home mom, and hadn't worked since I had my first son.So, I had to move out, move into my mom's, get a job, put my kids in day care for the first time they were ever away from me. I had alot of issues all at once. At the same time, I wanted to try and work things out with my husband. We talked about it, and still had sex. 5 times in a weekend that was two weeks after he asked me to leave. I loved him so much...I thought it meant he wanted to work things out. The next monday he brought me divorce papers.I was so devastated I couldn't even breath.It took my two months to even look at the papers. In the mean time I was willing to change everything about myself...do anything to just be with him again. To just be a family again.two months later, i signed the papers and sent them to his lawyer. When I told him he freaked out. He came over and stated kissing on me, and trying to hold me. He cried and begged me to try again. I was really confused. I didn't know what to do. I still loved him, but I no longer trusted him with my heart.He sent me roses at work, he told me that our kids needed both of us. I was really torn on what i should do. I went back to him. He got the papers stopped. At first it was great, I was just happy to be with him again. He said the only reason he had filed for divorce was because he didn't believe I would really sign them. He said he just needed me to realize that there was a problem with us, that had to change. He said when he had tried to talk with em about it before that I didn't seem to understand or care. He thought doing something that drastic would show him if I really cared and we could work things out. I do not condone what he did. It hurt, and to some level I have never fully trusted him with my heart again. Today we are happy, and while I do think i made the right decision, I still wait for the bottom to drop out from me again. That fear has never left me. For me I found out one thing from what we went through. I can live without him, but I don't want to. He is the only man for me. If something were to happen again, I don't think I would go back to him again, but I would never love someone else. I also will never regret my choices. I did what I felt was the best thing for my children,him, and myself....I stand by that. I have also had a great three years with him since. We are more in love than we were before.I hope this helps you in some way, even small. I don't know what your choices are but all I can say to you is look at them very carefully, do what you can live with, and what you can't live without.
Awww hunny, sounds like you've been through hell and back! I cant imagine what that must have been like. I'm so glad it worked out for you in the end although having those thoughts in the back of your mind can't be much fun. Don't honestly know if I could have been so forgiving! If its working for you and your happy though then thats what counts. Thank you for posting, you really have given me food for thought! x


eveready06 43M

6/10/2006 3:42 pm

    Quoting rm_xxSpecialKxx:
    aww hun thats really crap your having too make such a hard decision personally id say go with your heart wink wink go with what makes you happy go with what blow job makes you tingle ,shake say fuckin helllll in deep voice as ya spillin ya juices etc more than the other lmao mwahhhhhhh ok im off out now luffs ya fuckin big bucket loadsssssssssssssss and more xxxxxk
Lol! Did I really say fuckin hell in a deep voice? Lmao! Must have been good! You know I want more than anything to go with my heart baby! You also know how much of a scary dithering mess my head is at the moment though too! lol! Luffs ya baby! xx


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