Suicide is painless  

dutchpete 55M
213 posts
1/3/2006 2:21 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Suicide is painless

Have you ever thought about suicide ?
Well I can confirm I have. Even twice to be honest.

Might sound strange the subject so at the start of the new year but just before Christmas I was confronted with two persons in situations where they have faced a suicide.

The first one was a lady friend who found her hubby dead, hanging in the garage. He had lost appr. 400.000 euro due to a bankrupt investing bank. Probably he could not face the loss. Never the less he still had a house worth 1 million of euro’s and two boats for appr. 30.000 euro. You can ask yrself why would someone take his life and drown his wife into the misery a few days before Christmas.

The other one is a close relative who was working on the Friday before Christmas at her job as cytotechnologist. By looking out of the window at the hospital she saw someone passing by. Yes, that can happen, but unfortunately the lady, was passing by from the roof top downwards at the outside of the building. You can imagine the impact such a thing has on someone and especially if you see the young lady lying, specially dressed for the occasion (indeed she had put on her nicest cloths), smashed on the ground, 5 stores lower.

With the last person, she escaped from the psychiatric hospital department, it could hve been worse, as she fell through the cover of the outdoor smoking area, where two persons were having a fag. The lady probably has timed her stepping into dead, because it was just before coffee break otherwise there would have been much more people there under that stand.

Referring back to my ‘dead wishes’. The first one was at a moment that I did split up with my girlfriend after 13 years of relation. And the other one was after a break with a business partner after 5 years of having a company together, starting from scratch. In both cases it has crossed my mind to park my car around a tree, or having some extra aspirins with alcohol and try to beat Evil Knievel with car jumping.

Though wishing to live and become stronger mentally in combination with a good friend (why do dogs understand/feel those conditions better ?) did make it just a very short period of dreadful thoughts.

So for the rest of life my motto is : Always look at the bright side of live…….. (yes nicked it from Monty Python).

Have yourselves a good 2006.

_CoffeeNoCream_ 53F

1/5/2006 2:29 am

Best wishes and knuffels......

Liefs P

papyrina 52F
21133 posts
1/17/2006 12:31 pm

pete been there and more than understand,luckily for me i didn't achieve what i tried

I'm a

i'm here to stay

CelticFlower 51F

1/20/2006 1:54 am

being on the edge of suicide is the strangest & most alluring place, at the same time. I remember after the misery of my days, then lying in bed smiling & planning my end.
Needless to say we are now a few years hence & in a much more positive state of mind. Life may get you down, people may try to change & decrease your sense of self worth.
The important thing is to reach down grab hold of your inner strength & use it to its fullest potential.
Kisses to a special friend.

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