My God Given Right  

duststormdiva 52F
7253 posts
6/23/2006 10:03 am

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6/24/2006 2:32 pm

My God Given Right


IF you don't want to hear about mentral cycles, move along.

Sometimes I wonder why us women were cursed with the shit we go through. We have emotional mood swings when our hormones are fucked up right before and during our cycle.

We bleed, and cramp and crab and bitch and moan. It's my God's given right to be cranky and emotional during that time of the month!

My sons friend says that he does not beleive in anything that bleeds for seven days and does not die. I said to him, "yeah, but you sure like to fuck it don't you?"

I wish that I would regulate so that I know what to expect each month. I mean one thing is almost guaranteed. One day, usually the day right before my cycle starts I am so hateful I can't stand myself. I have dealt with this for nearly 30 years and it still takes all day of me being a bitch to realize that I just might be starting my period the next day. Damn! what I don't get is the irregularity in my moods and emotions during this critical time of the month.

Up until the day I become a bitch, I am usually very happy. Then one day, I am Witch Helga with the wart on the nose. The next day one of the following occur:

1. I bleed like I have just been stabbed 150 times. But, I am happy. My cycle lasts about three days.

2. I cramp real hard and feel like shit and can barely get out of bed. I piss and moan from the heavy flow. I deal with it for a day, then I spot for a few other days.

3. I feel on top of the world and have a light flow. But I bleed for nearly a week.

Rarely do I become an emotional wreck and cry all the time, but this week I have cried so many tears. And my cycle has been all fucked up. Is it on a 31 day cycle or a 28 day cycle? Hell I wish it would make up it's mind so that I could prepare for the dreaded moment.

First day, light bleeding, second day, well how many times did I get stabbed? Third day, well, this better fucking end today or ... well, I have not cussed and yelled at God in years, but this week is taking a toll on me.

I hurt from cramps, I am weak from how hard it is on my body this week, I have a headache, and I am sick and fucking tired of crying.

I asked why men could not go through these things, why can't they bear the children, why they don't get periods, God knows they have PMS! A wise lady told me that if that was the case then most men would not be able to handle it. After one kid, they would be DONE!

If only for one week of their lives, men experienced what we do EVERY FUCKING MONTH OF THE YEAR, they might understand our mood swings. They might understand our pain.

DustStormDiva



duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
6/23/2006 3:44 pm

    Quoting SensuallyKatey:
    and along with this turmoil our hormones give us...
    comes one very blessed gift..
    the ability to feel life start anew inside of us.
    I feel sad for men that they do NOT get to enjoy
    that very precious gift.
    I figure it leaves them searching for the rest of their lives...
    and often not knowing why or what is actually being searched for...
    yet we know...why dear sir..it is the gift of Life.
    hugs,
    Kate
Okay, just put me in my place. Childbirth is something that is miraculous that us ladies are blessed with having the ability to do. What a beautiful wonder to bring life into this world and feel it develop from within.

Still... what we have to go through to enjoy our babies.

DustStormDiva


rm_wetfingeraz 55F
3012 posts
6/23/2006 5:14 pm

Yeah, I WISH it was just right before and during. My PMS starts anywhere from a week to 10 days before. This last time was a bad one. I actually took a day off of work because I was afraid that I would be fired if I went in. Fortunately for me, the emotionalism wears off the day it starts, but then I hemorrhage for 3 straight days to the point where I literally cannot do anything overly physical, like massage. Great for business, let me tell you.

My older friends keep telling me I'm perimenopausal, but my doctor hasn't said a word about it. Do you have your Annual Indignity every year? Have you mentioned it to your doctor?


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
6/23/2006 6:52 pm

    Quoting rm_wetfingeraz:
    Yeah, I WISH it was just right before and during. My PMS starts anywhere from a week to 10 days before. This last time was a bad one. I actually took a day off of work because I was afraid that I would be fired if I went in. Fortunately for me, the emotionalism wears off the day it starts, but then I hemorrhage for 3 straight days to the point where I literally cannot do anything overly physical, like massage. Great for business, let me tell you.

    My older friends keep telling me I'm perimenopausal, but my doctor hasn't said a word about it. Do you have your Annual Indignity every year? Have you mentioned it to your doctor?
I have not mentioned anything to my doc. I am waiting for my insurance to go through. Once I have insurance I'll have my female parts checked out. I fear that I might lose my sexual drive if something drastic has to happen. My periods have not been normal as of late. I hate it. I have been hemmoraging as well. Bloody hell!

DustStormDiva


Whispersoftly5 53F
15176 posts
6/23/2006 10:10 pm

Mine are regular as all get out - 20 days off 4 days on - 20 days off - 4 days on. Not horrible most of the time, but I have a visitor a few extra times a year because I'm on a 20 day cycle instead of 28. Ugh...

Poor sweetie - I'm feeling you.

Whisper...


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
6/24/2006 2:30 pm

    Quoting Whispersoftly5:
    Mine are regular as all get out - 20 days off 4 days on - 20 days off - 4 days on. Not horrible most of the time, but I have a visitor a few extra times a year because I'm on a 20 day cycle instead of 28. Ugh...

    Poor sweetie - I'm feeling you.

    Whisper...
20 and 4? Ick. But at least you don't have pain.

I had never tracked my cycle until I started hemmoraging back in March. I was on a 31 day cycle for awhile, then I moved to a 28 day cycle last month. This month followed in 28 days. Thank God it's nearly over.

DustStormDiva


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
6/24/2006 2:32 pm

    Quoting rm_mzhunyhole:
    I feel for ya gals..I'm glad them days are over for me..thank Gawd!
My doc told me about four years ago, he thought I was going through premature menopause. If that's the case I fucking want it done and over with! LOL

DustStormDiva


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