Mi Amor  

duststormdiva 52F
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3/6/2006 1:04 pm

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Mi Amor


Tortilla Flats was posted on1/13/2006 at 5:59 am. A blog where I told about meeting, yet, another married man. Near the end of that blog I wondered what I was getting myself into again.

Let me tell you where that little visit in Tortilla Flats got me.

After meeting with him behind the church (yes it was a church) he wanted to meet again, so we did. We met every week at least twice a week. Then our meetings started to increase. Every chance we thought we could get together we did. Every chance we could talk on the phone we did. Every chance we could chat online we did.

He searched all my blogs and read as many as he could. He devoured every word I wrote. He would email me and tell me how intrigued he was. He kept telling me, “We’re perfect for each other.” Or he would say, “I am hooked.” I was scared hearing those words, but I continued to build a friendship with him. I found in him a very caring man. He was tender and loving. Our time together was very special, and we kept it that way. Intimacy was never a part of the equation. Don’t get me wrong, we had some very passionate times, but we never took it all the way. This enabled us to grow closer.

I admit there have been times we became very careless of our meetings and careless of the time we spent together because we didn’t want to leave each other. He then started coming over to my house. He met my children. He met my sons’ friends. He met my mother.

Eventually, I told all my children that he is married. Daughter(1) asked him one day, “If you are married, then why are you dating my mom?”

I was nervous and I saw him become tense. He answered, “Things just happen to some marriages and the love goes away. It’s like having a favorite toy and you think that it will always be your best loved toy. Then you grow older and the toy is not as exciting, then one day you are giving a new toy and that becomes the favorite. I didn’t intend for this to happen, but I care for your mother a whole lot. Some people would disagree with your mom and me seeing each other. But we care about each other very much.”

“That makes sense. But I don’t want you to hurt my mom.”

“I have no intentions of hurting her.”

Since that day our relationship grew. We met as often as possible and our chat conversations were even longer. One day those three special words were whispered into an ear, “I love you.” I said.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes.”

A huge smile came over his face, “I love you, too.”

I didn’t go into this to fall in love with him. I am baffled at how it happened. Sure the last married man I had feelings for, and he is very special to me. We will always be friends. But this guy, he is the love of my life. I have never ever had a man treat me the way he does. How can something that feels so right, be wrong?

As I think about our relationship I realize that we are perfect for each other. There have been so many times that during a chat session we would say the exact same thing at the exact same time, and often it was word-for-word. Every little thing about our relationship was perfect and a sign that we were meant to be. Each minute we share continues to prove that we are connected together.

I have dated a lot of different men and been very comfortable in front of them. But there has always been something… something that I could not open up with them about. There is NOTHING, I mean NOTHING that I can’t talk to him about.

Out of respect for him, I won’t go into many more details; however, I will say that he and I will be living together as soon as the legalities of his marriage are taken care of. Yes, his wife knows about me. His children know about me. His parents know about me.

We love each other and that is all that matters. He is the love of my life. He tells me that the minute he met me he knew that I was the one. He resisted because of his marriage. “One look in your eyes and I was hooked. You had me from the very beginning.” He said.

Our relationship has taken us through trials. He is leaving the only life he has known for nearly twenty years and it all seems so right. Do I feel guilty? No. He has been in a loveless marriage for a long time now. I am a woman and I do have empathy for other women, so I do hurt for his wife. I know what she must be going through. Yes, I have been left for another woman, I know.

Baby, I love you so very much… forever… and ever… and ever.

Inspirational Thought:

"Be glad of life, because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."

--Henry Van Dyke



DustStormDiva



Sorceror07 55M

3/6/2006 5:50 pm

just like the "other" bumper sticker says... Love Happens, hmm, maybe there should be a bumper sticker for that too eh?

congrats to you both! things are going to get even more wonderful than you can possibly imagine trust me, i know

...That which does not kill me merely pisses me off!...


digdug41 50M

3/6/2006 6:36 pm

hey dusty good for you glad your happy do your thing lifes to short not to cyaroun

roaming the cyber streets of blogland


kyplowboy22 63M

3/7/2006 3:59 am

Good luck, kid. Later

kpb


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/7/2006 6:41 am

    Quoting Sorceror07:
    just like the "other" bumper sticker says... Love Happens, hmm, maybe there should be a bumper sticker for that too eh?

    congrats to you both! things are going to get even more wonderful than you can possibly imagine trust me, i know
Each day I am with him gets better and better. We have some trials because his family blames me for his divorce, but I guess that's fair and to be expected. I just wish they would stop to consider that he was unhappy before he met me.

DustStormDiva


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/7/2006 6:42 am

    Quoting digdug41:
    hey dusty good for you glad your happy do your thing lifes to short not to cyaroun
I am doing just that! Life is too short to be unhappy. I was never really unhappy, but I know he was. The operative word here, being, "was".

DustStormDiva


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/7/2006 6:43 am

Thanks, KYplowboy!

DustStormDiva


TheRealThing655 49F
9558 posts
3/7/2006 7:45 am

I read your Blog with great interest. Wishing you all the best! I hope that happens to me...there is a married man I've been with that I feel such a connection with (I am getting a divorce but nothing to do with him)...your story says that dreams really can come true!! Good luck to you and your love!!


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/7/2006 8:29 am

    Quoting TheRealThing655:
    I read your Blog with great interest. Wishing you all the best! I hope that happens to me...there is a married man I've been with that I feel such a connection with (I am getting a divorce but nothing to do with him)...your story says that dreams really can come true!! Good luck to you and your love!!
Everyday it seems like a dream. Too good to be true, but then he kisses me and holds me close. He looks deep into my eyes and tells me how beautiful he thinks I am. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me close and tells me that he loves me so much!

I never thought it would happen to me. Two months ago, if you would have asked me I would have told you that I didn't need a man for anything but sex. Today, I admit I was wrong. I need him, he completes me.

DustStormDiva


TTigerAtty 63M

3/7/2006 9:33 am

Dusty ... Thanks for sharing such a personal story! I wish both of you all the very best as you both start life anew! A word of caution to both of you ... Be particularly mindful of the feelings and thoughts that your daughters and his children will have about this big change that will also affect them. Bring them along too at the pace they can handle so that they can accept and welcome your new relationship. My thoughts and prayers are with you, him and all the children!


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/7/2006 2:35 pm

    Quoting TTigerAtty:
    Dusty ... Thanks for sharing such a personal story! I wish both of you all the very best as you both start life anew! A word of caution to both of you ... Be particularly mindful of the feelings and thoughts that your daughters and his children will have about this big change that will also affect them. Bring them along too at the pace they can handle so that they can accept and welcome your new relationship. My thoughts and prayers are with you, him and all the children!
My children love him to death. I have not met his kids yet. I suppose that will come in time after the legalities of his divorce are complete.

DustStormDiva


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/7/2006 2:37 pm

    Quoting rm_N2_TheMystic:
    wow...i so relate to this! the last man i had an affair with we had the same passion, desires and all that makes a great relationship. soul mate in alot of ways...except for the wife thing!
    i let him go..when he decides what he wants he can find me. he was everything that i have been searching for. but not worth splitting up his marriage, he has to do that. i am glad this worked for you. life is too short to be unhappy. more men should take a look in their hearts and take what makes them truly happy!!
    best wishes for a lifetime of happiness!
He is my soulmate. We both agree that we fit together perfectly. He said I helped him come back alive. He pushed aside what he wanted to do what he thought was right for his family. Oh, I love him so very much!

DustStormDiva


frangipanigal 46F
10406 posts
3/8/2006 2:35 am

I am glad you have found so much happiness and love. Thank you for sharing, I needed to hear something good about love tonight.

Frangi


KC_JJ 55M

3/8/2006 6:57 am

Hi Diva,

you wrote

I have dated a lot of different men and been very comfortable in front of them. But there has always been something? something that I could not open up with them about. There is NOTHING, I mean NOTHING that I can?t talk to him about.

People often ask me "how come you've never married" and I'll say "because I've never met anyone who I felt it would really work with."

What say you have with him about being open with yourself is one of the items I've got to have to even begin considering it. And I've never seriously considered it.

Still haven't found one individual ever I could do that with in a really complete way.

I still have strong faith that there are some women that do exist with which I could share something of this nature with.

So even if there really are not I'm going to keep behaving as if it cold happen. With some form of nearly blind faith I somehow continue providing a relatively decent imaginary carrot for my stubborn jackass to continue following.

MMM [ MMM


rm_DarknStar 55F
2823 posts
3/8/2006 7:48 am

You sharing the life story with us, was great! and Left me in a WOW mode! Good luck with a long life of Love and Happiness!


slidein2meplz 63F
1994 posts
3/8/2006 9:12 am

hey there Diva...(my new nickname for ya--cuz dang girl, you can SING)....sounds as though things are progressing forward for you 2.

I absolutely know how much this means to you and I am tickled pink for you and for him.

He's a very lucky man to have you in his life. Hell, for that matter any man would've been....but you know what they say...snooze, ya loose...and the others lost. They're loss his gain, but I suspect it is very much your gain as well.

Jefe and I were just discussing the miracle of the universe...because what we are feeling is very much the same as you and yours....'cept the "L" word hasn't been mentioned....but I do feel it's presence. You cannot ignore feelings when they are meant to be.

~~~ Just me, poppin to say HI! ~~


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/8/2006 11:31 am

    Quoting frangipanigal:
    I am glad you have found so much happiness and love. Thank you for sharing, I needed to hear something good about love tonight.

    Frangi
Well, I am glad that my new love has made others happy besides us and my children. Make it a great day!

DustStormDiva


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/8/2006 11:33 am

    Quoting KC_JJ:
    Hi Diva,

    you wrote

    I have dated a lot of different men and been very comfortable in front of them. But there has always been something? something that I could not open up with them about. There is NOTHING, I mean NOTHING that I can?t talk to him about.

    People often ask me "how come you've never married" and I'll say "because I've never met anyone who I felt it would really work with."

    What say you have with him about being open with yourself is one of the items I've got to have to even begin considering it. And I've never seriously considered it.

    Still haven't found one individual ever I could do that with in a really complete way.

    I still have strong faith that there are some women that do exist with which I could share something of this nature with.

    So even if there really are not I'm going to keep behaving as if it cold happen. With some form of nearly blind faith I somehow continue providing a relatively decent imaginary carrot for my stubborn jackass to continue following.
I don't blame you. Don't settle for anything less than you deserve. I think that is what captured me about him. He is everything I want in a man. EVERYTHING.

DustStormDiva


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/8/2006 11:34 am

    Quoting sweetneeds2:
    I am Soooo happy for you......you truly are blessed to have found each other...and sometimes it is just the way it is....I hope I will someday find that too!!
Keep hanging in there, and don't settle for anything less than you deserve. Yes, your true love can be found here on AdultFriendFinder.

DustStormDiva


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/8/2006 11:36 am

    Quoting rm_DarknStar:
    You sharing the life story with us, was great! and Left me in a WOW mode! Good luck with a long life of Love and Happiness!
I will have the rest of eternity with him. Forever and ever. I can't imagine anyone else kissing me, holding me, making love to me, or fucking me... he is the only one I want.

DustStormDiva


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/8/2006 11:38 am

    Quoting slidein2meplz:
    hey there Diva...(my new nickname for ya--cuz dang girl, you can SING)....sounds as though things are progressing forward for you 2.

    I absolutely know how much this means to you and I am tickled pink for you and for him.

    He's a very lucky man to have you in his life. Hell, for that matter any man would've been....but you know what they say...snooze, ya loose...and the others lost. They're loss his gain, but I suspect it is very much your gain as well.

    Jefe and I were just discussing the miracle of the universe...because what we are feeling is very much the same as you and yours....'cept the "L" word hasn't been mentioned....but I do feel it's presence. You cannot ignore feelings when they are meant to be.
It sounds like things are progressing nicely for you and jefe. I know how excited you were to meet him. I am glad that your visit was a cornerstone to possibly a strong relationship.

DustStormDiva


rm_cuda006 68M

3/9/2006 12:12 am

I'm really happy for you and I so can relate to your situation cuz I'm in the same situation only reversed. I married my high school sweetheart and after 35 years we are what amounts to really great friends. There is no physical affection whatsoever and I just don't try anymore. She has no problem with that but I desperately need so much more. I just found this site and don't know how to use it but the prospect of meeting someone and sharing simple feelings of affection seems so overwhelming. Anyway, if you get a chance to help guide me to overcome my intense fear and to actually meet someone like you I would be grateful. Thanks for sharing with us and all the best to you!!


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/9/2006 6:37 am

    Quoting rm_cuda006:
    I'm really happy for you and I so can relate to your situation cuz I'm in the same situation only reversed. I married my high school sweetheart and after 35 years we are what amounts to really great friends. There is no physical affection whatsoever and I just don't try anymore. She has no problem with that but I desperately need so much more. I just found this site and don't know how to use it but the prospect of meeting someone and sharing simple feelings of affection seems so overwhelming. Anyway, if you get a chance to help guide me to overcome my intense fear and to actually meet someone like you I would be grateful. Thanks for sharing with us and all the best to you!!
For us it happened quickly. He created a profile and within the week winked at me. I responded with a "thanks for the wink." in an email and he emailed me back. Not everyone gives thanks for a wink, but I did. We continued to email back and forth, and eventually exchanged yahoo chat screennames and spent time chatting with each other. We met and fell in love.

If you want some guidance, I'd be happy do oblige; however, I can't email, since I am a standard member, so you will have to contact me. I can't do the chat, because often times in the evening I am with him. Chatting just is not as important anymore now that I have him in my life.

DustStormDiva


rm_cuda006 68M

3/9/2006 8:53 pm

Thanks so much for the response. I'll have to send in some money to get full membership to email you. I will do that as soon as I can. If you think of anything you can post here I will recheck until I can get email going. Best to you and your new love!


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/10/2006 6:50 am

    Quoting rm_cuda006:
    Thanks so much for the response. I'll have to send in some money to get full membership to email you. I will do that as soon as I can. If you think of anything you can post here I will recheck until I can get email going. Best to you and your new love!
On Y! You can contact me at arizonabbw. That might be easier. I know it's not easy for married people to gain membership at these sites without raising question.

DustStormDiva


rm_cuda006 68M

3/11/2006 1:47 pm

Thanks. I've tried it but doesn't seem to work. I'll keep trying. I know you're probably very busy now. Later, cuda006


duststormdiva 52F
6854 posts
3/11/2006 5:03 pm

    Quoting rm_cuda006:
    Thanks. I've tried it but doesn't seem to work. I'll keep trying. I know you're probably very busy now. Later, cuda006
I found you, it's working. You can contact me through email with that same username. Might be easier.

DustStormDiva


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