Please remain calm....  

drkwaterz 37F
155 posts
7/27/2006 10:37 am

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7/28/2006 12:34 pm

Please remain calm....

In response to a comment made on my last post by gordy012000. My vagueness serves a purpose. I do believe, though, that you have hit the nail on the head. People tend to play it safe when it comes to matters of the heart, a sort of automatic response by one's sub conscience to protect yourself (instincts) Though I must make myself clear on this point and where it is that I stand.

I have always one to take that leap even if only in my love life. I tend to lead a pretty safe and secure existence and have felt that being content with my life as it is, the only place I can actually take a risk is when it comes to love.

I have been, usually, very apt to jump in feet first into situations without giving much thought to what the consequences of such actions may be. It goes without saying that I have some pretty awesome battle wounds, and still I have not been deterred by this. I still ultimately want to find that one person that I can call my companion, confidant, lover, and equal. The person that can provide me with the ultimate gift of unconditional love.

In saying that, imagine my surprise when I felt these feelings of confusion and worry! I have never been one to hesitate. I would much rather live in the moment and take things for what they are now and enjoy the time I have with the individual. Yet for some reason I gave in this time to the feelings that I would normally push aside. Could it be that I may have actually found what I am looking for? Does the worry come from panic over losing what I think could be what I have been longing for? I still don't know. I do have to say that having subsequently reread my posts on the matter, I have found that this maybe the case. If this is so, it makes matters all the more difficult. Especially, not being able to express these feelings in a sense due to the fear that the object of my affection has their own concerns about this situation. This being the problem.

I think another reason I hesitate is what knowing that the feelings may not be mutual, and that if I divulge these feelings I may scare them off, seeing as they may not be ready for something like this at least at this point in time. For as much as I want to take things slowly and see what happens there is a part of me that is screaming for more which, I can only assume here, he isn't ready for.

See my dilemma? I have been somewhat successful in turning these feelings off when I am around this individual, to a certain extent. Yet I can always feel my senses losing themselves in this person. With every moment we spend together, it becomes harder to control my composure and be so nonchalant about it all.I feel lost in this aspect seeing as how I have never really dealt with something like this in the past. Any suggestions?

rm_Gordy012000 47M

7/27/2006 11:09 am

Very well said....I'm surprised my response prompted you to write a entire blog but I'm flattered just as well!!

Oh yeah....the link you put up with my screen name is Gordy01200 when it's really Gordy012000. So I'm sorry....the link is dead and leads you to!!

I still appreciate your effort to gain me more exposure though!!

drkwaterz 37F

7/27/2006 1:34 pm

lol Better?

rm_douglhers 42M
150 posts
7/27/2006 5:10 pm

Sounds like your in love, awwwwwwwww..... I wish the best for you on your journey and may we all be so lucky!! As i wrote once before i have found my self recently confused by a similar situation and was advised by a wonderful understanding woman that we should take it one step at a time....

drkwaterz 37F

7/27/2006 8:33 pm

I do believe that would jumping the gun to assume that I was in love with said person, but I do believe the potential maybe there, which is why I feel as I do. Thanks for commenting!

rm_Gordy012000 47M

7/28/2006 12:05 pm

Ooooooh.....much, much!! Now I can just wait for all the offers to roll in!! Of course....I'm sure they'll all be on the other side of the world like you!!

drkwaterz 37F

7/28/2006 12:34 pm

Probably, but hey just think of it this way, ummmmm..... (trying to think of something optimistic and positive to say)

Let me get back to you on that [/color

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