Late and Cant Sleep  

dreamluvrsc69 48F
10 posts
11/6/2005 9:55 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Late and Cant Sleep

I can't sleep. The bed is so empty and cold. Adjusting to being alone again, its hard. But I know I must move on. I have spent the last year with him; loving him, caring about him, caring for him, doing for him. And he throws it all away, tosses me like a piece of paper with some fat chicks phone number on it. Im not ugly, this I know. I have a big heart, guess thats why I let him break it. Well Im moving on. I must! My emotions with him have been like a really bad roller coaster ride, and dang it Im tired of riding it. Im sure in a few days he will call, needing something or wanting to know something. But I dont have to answer, I dont have to say a word. Guess I could be a bitch to him. I dont like it, but how can I stand up and be strong. He thinks I am mad because he wouldnt take me to a club with Neil McCoy. No Im hurt that he complained about spending $40.00 bux for us to go. Like I am not worth the $20.00? I even offered to go elsewhere, but got nothing but I will call you later. I NEVER GOT THAT CALL. I tried calling back, he had turned his phone off. I left him a message, "Ok, I get the hint. You have turned your phone off. You do not want to go out with me, be seen with me, nor do you want anyone knowing we are dating. Fine, you win. I will leave you to be the single guy. You have lost me as a girlfriend, as a friend. After a year, and it comes down to you not wanting to be with me unless we are going to meet some swingers group, or have sex with others. Fine, go fuck someone else over. Im done trying to please you and not getting pleased. Seems everything else is more important to you than me. Hope you have a nice life. Good bye!" Was I wrong to have left that message????? Should I have just not left a message???? My gut feeling is he is with someone else, am I being Paranoid???? UGH. I hate the not knowing, the not being honest. Why cant I be in a relationship that is made of, built on, Trust and Honesty and Committment. All the other stuff just falls right in... Am I destined to sleep alone forever?????

Efilnikufecin69 48M

11/7/2005 12:46 am

Keep your head up lovey and welcome into Blogland!

love and kisses{=}

Efilnikufecin69 and saintlianna

rm_reltym 53M
1 post
11/8/2005 6:02 am

you are definatly a special one you will only sleep alone by choice, dont settle for lines and donot compromise you set the terms you will get what you want...

rm_traveler3425 63M

11/8/2005 6:46 am

hey sugar he can be replaced at the snap of a finger,you to pretty and sexy to put up with that type b/s.i fugure thats his lost.the saying you dont know what you had till it is gone,is going to hit him shortly.stay strong and enjoy life ,you got one shot at it do it your way

rm_comerclit 67M
1 post
11/8/2005 12:11 pm

Poor baby...I'll make you feel better! Stand firm and let me know how & when I can help.

rm_grtech64 53M

11/30/2005 5:17 am

From your pictures, I can tell that you are a very beautiful woman. From your profile and your comments above, I can tell that the beauty goes all the way through. Any man that doesn't care enough to want to make the woman he's with happy - within legal/financial reason (which your request was VERY reasonable on ALL levels) - isn't a man that deserves to have a woman that seems as wonderful as you.

One day, you will find the man you seek. Admittedly, I would like an opportunity - just like all the other guys here - but I mainly wanted to let you know that your message was NOT wrong, and you were not wrong to leave the message. I dont' believe you were reading anything into the situation that wasn't there. I would tend to agree with you that he had found someone else with which to have his fun, but he should have at least been man enough to say so.

One last comment, I agree with reltym concerning you sleeping alone. If you continue sleeping alone, make it your choice - not because you don't want to sleep with someone else, but because you want to make sure the one you are sleeping with really wants to be there for the long haul.

If you ever need a friend, I would be honored. If you ever want a date (dinner/movie), I would be the luckiest guy around. As for anything else, we don't know each other well enough yet to go that far. I can only hope to one day get to know you that well.

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