sometimes i just wish i could undo my past..  

devilsplayangel 31
88 posts
11/21/2005 7:32 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

sometimes i just wish i could undo my past..

the tital of this one says it all, but since i cant rightly so that the least i can do is change the furture, make sure i dont make the same mistakes twice.

PawPr1nt 52M
133 posts
11/21/2005 8:14 pm

Maybe you can change the past, by changing your attitude to it? OK, you'll never be able to rewrite the happenings, but you can surely alter your feelings about those happenings.

There is a clever little book, called 'The Present', which describes how to see parts of your past, imagine their relevance to your here&now (the present) and apply what you learn to guide your future.

Pretty simple stuff in a nice thin book.

I hhave a postcard, stuck to my bathroom mirror, which shows in multi-coloured letters the statement - 'It's never to late to have a happy childhood'

imBambi 59M/51F

11/21/2005 8:24 pm


Sometimes the past is not what it seems to be (yeah, this sounds wierd but keep on reading...).

In the early 70's a rich kid named Patty Herst robbed some banks and thumbed her nose at society. Once she was caught, she was tried, convicted, and jailed. Later, in the 1990's, when society had a better understanding of how trauma can affect a person's life, her conviction was overturned - and rightfully so. The point is, Patty Herst was not a "bad apple" and Patty Herst did not make bad decisions or mistakes in her life. Instead, her actions were guided largely because of the trauma she endured during some portion of her life (when she was kidnapped).

Since this highly publicized event, psychologists have taken a look at the relationship that trauma (especially childhood trauma and sexual abuse) has in a person's life. Although I do not know anything about your particular circumstances, you might want to do some reading (surf the web) on the "Stockholm Syndrome" before you beat yourself up too much for your "mistakes."

If you need more information, leave a message on the "AtomicKisss" blog site. Good luck and may you find inner peace.

"Mr. Bambi" (also known as AtomicKisss)

rm_luke69iner 49M
3275 posts
11/23/2005 2:32 am

The future is yours Angel

Live it

S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo

devilsplayangel 31

11/26/2005 5:03 pm

I can't have a happy childhood completely not without deleting what happened, i did have some happiness in it and i have somewhat chenged the way i look and feel about my past... and as for what i went through, well i am sure there are others that had it worse.

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