Just One More Bad Memory  

devilsfuckangel 31F
81 posts
10/3/2005 6:24 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Just One More Bad Memory

When people see me the first thing they think about is sex. Not that I can blame them. If I were a guy that would be the first thing that crossed my mind too. So it doesn't really bither me. What does though is when people think that sex can take all your problems away. That is bullshit!!!!!!!!!! I mean really, when has sex honestly solved both parties problems? Unless you are both hormy. When I was little I had people in my life that used me to solve thier problems and trust me, IT DIDN'T HELP ONE DARN BIT!!!!!!! It gave what some would consider Just One More Bad Memory. But after a while all thoso memories can build up inside a person making them feel unhuman and worthless. If they don't have anyone around them that cares enough to listen to what they say the pressure of the way they feel builds up to a dangerous piont. It build sup to were they either do one of two things: They start hurting themselves, either physically or emotionally. Or they start hurting others. Neither one is good. But the worse thing about it all is that there are a-holes out there that use others for thier ouw thing. The really bad part about it all is that more often than not they use children and that worps the child's mind for life. If you have to pick on someone, than dangit pick on someone your own size. LEAVE THE CHILDREN OUT OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


spirit1872001 37F
2 posts
10/3/2005 6:54 pm

I'm just curious, and please don't be offended, but have you ever been to counseling? I ask because my brother was as a child and for years I blamed myself. Many of the times during which it occured, I was babysitting him. I spent years of blaming myself before really ever speaking with my brother about it, but when I did he helped me get rid of the guilt. I had spent time in counseling groups and stuff, but it never seemed to work. All it really took was talking to him about it, and we both finally started to move past it.

spirit1872001 37F
2 posts
10/4/2005 3:21 pm

God sweetheart, I cannot tell you how deeply sorry I am for what you went through. All I can say is how glad I am you have found someone to love and trust. The greatest gift in the world is to love and be loved in return.

rm_luke69iner 49M
3275 posts
10/5/2005 5:34 pm

i agree with Spirit love can make a difference

i'm glad you found him


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