with small slow steps.. not quite in a straight line..  

dark_whispers 39F
159 posts
2/7/2006 9:04 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

with small slow steps.. not quite in a straight line..

with justin.. it never quite blossomed.. it stayed at the same spot.. always just a faint glow..
with mike.. it flashed to life so quickly.. it burnt itself out.. an explosion..so painfull..

with eric.. it happened with a spark.. it blazed.. and i felt it..
and then it burned a bit lower.. only to flare up again with each new meeting..
so different.. like a fire.. slowly stoked.. over a long winter nite..
while sitting and talking.. so that at times.. it almost goes out..
but then.. with some patient attention.. you realize.. its all still there..
you just have to poke a bit here.. add a little here.. and then sit back.
and enjoy the new found warmth.. bit by bit.. i find im falling for him.. more and more.. while im almost afraid of it all .. im not really..
it feels like falling in love.. it doesnt hurt.. unless we want it too..
he randomly enters my mind.. and i find myself smiling..
he walks into the room.. and i feel my heart start beating faster..
he looks at me.. and im drawn to him..
he touches me.. and im on fire..

he calls at random .. talks to me online.. i look forward to his calls in the morning.. i look forward to the nites i spend wrapped in his arms..
laying down and watching a movie.. while he plays with my hair..

i have knocked the wall down.. im picking up the net..
and while im sure there are pieces that will still trip me up..
with my arms spread.. and my eyes open..
im losing my fear of falling..

AltumHunksUnite 54M

2/8/2006 6:07 am

It's great to know that things are going better for you.

Let me drive. I like the view

MillsShipsGayly 53M

2/8/2006 6:31 am

someone once told me you shouldn't fall in love ... you should walk through the door with your eyes open.

You write from the heart and it has a special resonance

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