Another Day Part Two  

cutiepiexxx20 31F
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7/13/2006 12:19 pm

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7/15/2006 9:41 am

Another Day Part Two

Well, I got a ride today from my brother so I can go to class. I got another ride on the way back home. That fu**er said he'd call me last night to come f*** me and he never called me. Which is cool, because after he got that hickey on his neck he don't turn me on anymore. Note to all men: Hickeys are DISGUSTING AND A TURN-OFF! Now I have to find some other brown skinned sexy man to make love to. I got a 71 on my test which sucks because I got to retake it and on my next 3 tests I have to score a 80 or higher. I can only retake one more test. I'm stressed out, don't have time right now for anything. I can always make time to get laid though. If it ever does happen. Anyway, I think I'm moving on from him. By the way his name is Ron. He's jerked me around for half a year and I can't take anymore of it, maybe I could if I hadn't got my heart broken so many times. Maybe I could if all the heart breaks didn't make me more wise. I was foolish enough to go along with it all this time anyway. A waste of 2 weeks thinking he cared about my feelings and sh**. Goes to show how can you fall in love if you know every past relationship has been a fall? I'm thinking about taking a vacation to Washington D.C. in August. Time away from my family, my kids. Just me. I'm not sure yet, I really want to though. Well I don't know how I am supposed to forget about Ron and move on. Maybe with fu**ing a different guy every week will help me forget about him, or it'll make me depressed. Probably make me depressed. I just want a man who will care about me and my thoughts and feelings but also makes love to me. I don't know. I hate HICKEY'S I hate Ron. I hate the girl who fuc*ed him! I'm starving, gonna go eat. I'll probably write more later. I just don't know what I'll say when he finally does call me. What would you guys say in my situation? That is if you read all my other posts first. Later.

ASH


cutiepiexxx20 31F

7/13/2006 5:01 pm

You know, that is all I needed to hear. Thank you. I can never get the guts to talk about me and Ron's situation to my sister or my friends. I needed to hear advice from a man's point of view. I am, I am going to leave him behind and never pick up his phone calls. I can just see me now; my phone ringing Ashanti's tone; "Don't Let Them" and seeing "Ron" flashing with the blue lights on my phone screen. Putting my index finger on the OK button to answer it, and just keeping my finger there until the sad ringtone ends and the screen no longer says "Ron" but says "1 Missed Call" Then I'll spend hours crying and fighting to not call him back. I'm not looking forward to it, I already see it coming and he is going to call when I am really REALLY horny and lonely. Mostly lonely. Ouch. Fuc*. I hate this shi* Anyways, thanks for your advice, I really appreciate it.

ASH


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