Its time to get real  

cuteredhead83 34F
134 posts
6/10/2005 4:47 pm

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5/30/2006 11:03 pm

Its time to get real

It is time for me to get real about a promise I made mostly to myself.
It was to starting over and letting the one person I loved go. I was engaged and went through a hard four years of off and on crap. I never wanted to see the problems. I have a bad tendency to put others before myself.

Finally after he told me that he still wanted to be with me but he wanted to have "meaningless sex" with other woman. After all it was just sex it didn't mean anything. That was my breaking pointed. I told him by the time he realizes he loves me it will be to late. The last thing I said to him was; he was only sleeping with other woman to convince himself he didn't love me anymore. He got mad and hung up. I have more self-respect than he was giving me.

Its been a few months since this occured. For the first time in four years I feel free and ready to give a person the love that he didn't deserve.

purejoy4fem 47F/46F
682 posts
6/10/2005 5:39 pm

When both partners agree, it's swinging, when they don't, it's cheating. Good riddance, you are better off without him. Welcome to blogland honey

redswallow777 49M
6811 posts
6/10/2005 6:49 pm

Meaningless sex....I think not....good decision on your part to move on. Good luck in your search.

cuteredhead83 34F
34 posts
6/10/2005 7:01 pm

Thanks pure.
I don't believe in swinging esp when I was going to marry him.. I guess I am just old fashion

patsam69 52M/52F

6/10/2005 7:22 pm

I am glad you are healing...good luck and have fun!

CuteAZguy27 40M
1545 posts
6/10/2005 8:47 pm

*Stands up out of his chair and claps for culteredhead83* Bravo, bravo ! Im sooooo glad that their are STILL woman out there like yourself who can have the WILL to walk away from creeps like those. thank you-thank you so much for sharing.

cuteredhead83 34F
34 posts
6/11/2005 8:20 am

Thanks everyone!
CuteAZguy27 don't clap to hard. It only took me four years to realize what he was a jerk.

joeyb50 43M
1 post
11/22/2005 10:43 pm

well it's now 11/22 and I was wondering if you would like to meet with the whole group, so you would feel safe I was amarine ine the first war in the god forsakin desert, I may not be much to look at cause of all the scars been shot, stabed, and even blowen up once but all parts still work, just a little rusty been 6 years since I been even close to a woman. If you don't want to meet I will understand been compared to schrek only white.

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