I Hate This  

cuteNEway 42F
1774 posts
8/4/2006 11:10 pm

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8/5/2006 8:42 pm

I Hate This

Ever just wanna die? I do.

Ever just wanna disappear? I do.

I love my kids but I hate my life.

I don't know how much longer I can take this.

Fuck this. It hurts too much. It really hurts alot.

Please make it stop hurting so goddamn much.

Does anyone know how? I don't.

Can anyone do it? I can't.

Take me away?

AtomicArtist0 46M
6015 posts
8/4/2006 11:29 pm

god damn it! This too shall pass...remember that please. I've been in just as deaperate situations and it passed. yours will too. please know this. Luv ya, babe

cuteNEway 42F

8/5/2006 12:21 am

you don't get it

MissAnnThrope 57F
11488 posts
8/5/2006 2:11 am

Ever just wanna die?

Yeah, every month when I have PMS. Just like you.

Ever just wanna disappear?

Yep. I once pulled off disappearing for a year about 25 years ago, by just going to work and staying in my room the rest of the time. Avoiding everyone I knew. I would have stayed that way, except my best friend finally saw what was happening and he wasn't about to stand for it and dragged me back out of my shell. I'm still thinking of seeing if I can pull off an Abby Hoffman type disappearing act.

Please make it stop hurting so goddamn much.

Sorry, that's something you have to do for yourself.

Does anyone know how?

Yes, you know you have to get treatment for your depression, which will always be worse at this time of month.

Can anyone do it?

Yeah, you can. You're the only one who can do it for yourself. Unless of course, they have to talk you down from the top of a bridge, then a judge will order it.

digdug41 50M

8/5/2006 4:47 am

Hey cute keep writing your feelings here coz you'll find your not alone I too have been goin through it but I keep swingin with the madness and not lettin it swing me hang in therre luv

roaming the cyber streets of blogland

moonlightphoenix 46F
6508 posts
8/5/2006 8:16 am

I always wish there was a button I could press to just stop existing. Not kill myself. Just delete me....every trace of my existence.

Yeah. I know how it feels.

Sweetpickles69 48F

8/5/2006 11:22 am

I've been there, girlfriend. Don't do it! You're loved and needed. We'd miss you here, in Blogland too! Hang in there another day, you just have to look at each day that way. I even had a grandmother and best friend, that showed me how to get out of this life. I even tried once. Now, I'm so glad I lived through it all, I know better now! Life is so HARD, I know, I struggle everyday. It CAN'T get any worse!



strongelk2006 54M

8/5/2006 11:47 am

Hay girl,,you know me as Strongelk. My spirit name is Ma-cha-le fu-gah-hi,,,it's in Kee-too-wah Cheroke. I'm half Native,,You are standing in a space I like,,and I don't mind you being in it.LOL.

You don't have to leave ,,,when you are asking for help,,just ask.



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