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curious082385 32F
4230 posts
9/2/2006 8:58 am

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How do you make yourself stop crying when your own family dosen't want you around?

How do you feel loved when, to them, the only value of your presence is because it's cheaper for you to be at home then anywhere else?



JustaSeeker 107F

9/2/2006 10:32 am

Do what I did. Try to block them out and focus only on people who want you until you can go somewhere else. Some parts of your life you just have to endure gracefully. Oh, and love yourself because there are so many times that nobody else will.

xoxo Justa


rm_1hotwahine 64F
21091 posts
9/2/2006 10:57 am

You start by finding the thing inside you that loves yourself. It's in there and it's connected to the greater whole of all things.

Plus, they do love you, you know.

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]


maverick1255 52M
3953 posts
9/2/2006 11:39 am

( ..... crying, ...... omg.....)

I agree with Justa and Wahine. Be strong, we ALL know you are more than loved here!!! We like all that "YOU" are!!!

(((((curious)))))


rm_smosmof2 68M
3240 posts
9/2/2006 12:14 pm

so what happened in the four intervening hours to bring that up?


frangipanigal 46F
10406 posts
9/2/2006 5:06 pm

Big hugs sweetie.

You're having one of those moments I see...All is not as it seems, I bet!

I know those feelings as well (as you know) so come cry on my shoulder OK?

Frangi x


absolutelynormal 57F
6563 posts
9/2/2006 5:41 pm

Anytime you wanna come visit me, you can. While I can't take the place of your own family, I'd probably mommy you till you were absolutelysick of me. Try to think of yourself as "we" the people who really know you think of you. We think you're pretty great, as if you didn't know! Mac


Passion247000 47F
3195 posts
9/2/2006 6:46 pm

Awwww...sweetie...I am so sorry to hear that....Sometimes parents have a way of making us feel that way...but I am sure they love you...it is hard for some people to show love when life has taken a toll on them....

Please know that we are here for you... If you ever need anything/ help...you are always welcome to contact me... I will be there for you and that's my promise to you...


elysianpleasure 49M

9/2/2006 7:40 pm

you have an extended cast friends and family...

you are far from alone and unwanted.

hugs


funintheday2006 57M
9659 posts
9/2/2006 9:53 pm

Frangi is probably right hon.


toothysmile 52M
16517 posts
9/3/2006 1:14 pm

Bridge Over Troubled Water -Simon & Garfunkel

When you're weary, feeling small, when tears are in your eyes, I’ll dry them all.
I'm on your side, oh, when times get rough and friends just can't be found,
like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me down.

When you're down and out, when you're on the street,
when evening falls so hard, I’ll comfort you.
I'll take your part, oh, when darkness comes and pain is all around,
like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water, I will lay me down.

Sail on silver girl, sail on by. Your time has come to shine, All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine, oh and when you need a friend, I'm sailing right behind
Like a bridge over troubled water, I will ease your mind.
Like a bridge over troubled water, I will ease your mind.

sweet kisses.


tootsiedippin 54M/54F
1078 posts
9/3/2006 1:19 pm

Well now it is a new day and yesterday has past. What are you going to do today?

but in the mean time hugs to ya as I'm sure it is not what it appears to be also

T & D


rm_slmned_38 49M

9/4/2006 9:01 am

Well these stuff really happens and the only way to stop that feeling is to understand where your family's attitude comes from... I can only guess that they feel a certain loss and frustration over the fact that you could be out there being more productive than you are right now. I guess they know you could do more and they have high hopes that you can... Hope this helps you alot..


NutBuster1974 43M
1138 posts
9/4/2006 10:19 am

be strong
be with friends who are they to support you


angelofmercy5 60F
17881 posts
9/4/2006 12:57 pm

Oh little sweetie! My heart went out to you. There is nothing worse than feeling that your family let you down. I'm hoping and praying that it is a misunderstanding and will be worked out soon. In the meantime, know that you are loved by many here....and I'm standing in line to offer my shoulder to cry on if you need one.


blueguy1051 61M

9/4/2006 7:54 pm

No one can hurt us as much as those we love. It's hard sometimes dealing with family. They think they know us better than we do ourselves. You just have to love yourself, and know that your life will be yours, and not theirs, and deal with them as best you can.

Hugs.


Seriously_Real 49M

9/5/2006 8:20 am

Yeah, all that above and more. Well, not more, just more intensely -- particularly the "probably not what you think" and "they do love you, you know" parts. And of course the hugs.

Elb's right, too. You have a cell phone full of numbers, and I'd even make you laugh once. Just once. Because you gotta pay extra for multiples...

--Seriously


caressmewell 55F

9/5/2006 9:50 am

Ditto to all that's been said. Hopefully by the time you read this you are feeling better. Hugs hon...you are loved and appreciated.


KC_JJ 55M

9/5/2006 3:21 pm

Well this straight out ain't cool at all! I hope things have by now changed for you even if just a littel 'cuase that's not ever a good place to be.

I won't really go into the depth of my own self created dilemma 'cuase it would surely up the bummer factor here and you don't need any more of that to go with your own. But just know that I can also relate quite closely to this feeling of yours at the moment and that I'll be picturing things getting better for you and hopefully staying that way for awhile too.

I will meditatively use my mind as a radiator, generator and broadcaster supreme of helpful, healing and uplifting radiance which will assist you in beginning to generate your own new wave of both physical, mental and emotional health. And to then attract the most outlandishly stunning, super stud beefhunks to you that the universe has ever known. ( and also make things cool again with your family )

MMM [ MMM


rm_lust2u2 53M

9/6/2006 1:08 am

You are valuable - to your friends, family (misdirected concern for you)...


curious082385 32F
4925 posts
9/8/2006 3:28 am

Sorry for indulging in a moment of self-pity there. Was having a bad day with the family and typed this one. Went back later and clicked Hide, but I guess it hadn't posted fully and so it stayed up.
Thank you all for the love and support...hate to say it, but I needed it. I love you.


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