Ramblings of an exhausted mind  

curious082385 32F
4230 posts
11/25/2005 12:51 pm

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Ramblings of an exhausted mind

I was going to fill this space with much different words, but I find that my mind is to tired to stay focused on the topic I had wanted to post on. So I'm just running with it.

I find myself wondering at the amount of control that we allow other people and their perceptions to have over us and our emotions. Why? I don't pretend to know the answer...I do it just as much as anyone does. Say something cruel and it will hurt. Say something taunting and I'll get mad. Simple as that. Emotions are triggered by chemical reactions in our brains...but why do someone else's words trigger a certain chemical to be released? What is it about a word of praise that triggers the release of endorphins to make us happy?

Why do people complicate life so much? Some things are difficult to puzzle out, yes. But why do we argue, start wars, kill people over a simple difference of opinion? If you don't believe the same thing that I do, does that give me the right to kill you? To burn your home to the ground? Why is it not okay for people to have their own beliefs?

And here is one for you to think about....
How do we know that we all see the same things, the same colors? How do we know that all peoples eyes process color the same way? I mean, if you look at a leaf you would identify the color as green, because your mind has been taught to link the word green with the color of the leaf. I could look at the same leaf and I would still say green...again because that was the word I was taught to use for that color. But is it really the same color or are we just using the same word to describe it?

Who gets to name colors anyway?

Why are people starting to get so mean to each other? Are we all just too stressed out? Or is it deeper? Are we losing the idea that we should be decent to our fellow human beings? Since when is it "a sign of weakness" for a man to shed a few tears? Why are good, truly honestly good, men and women suddenly so rare?


11/25/2005 1:26 pm

That's a lot of heavy duty questions.

Which in turn trigger me to ask even more questions.

I tend to have been quickly rattling off a lot somewhat sharply opnionated comments (not mean but in a certain undefinable way "sharp") on randomly chosen blog posts here.

Now I _always_ have what I call "the intention of being honest and helpful" behind any of the comments I might quickly rattle off. But somehow all your questions made me reflect about what real effect my comments might be having on all these other bloggers that I've been assailing with my randomly selected showers of verbal brain doodoo.

I would not be shocked if I had royally pissed off some people with some of the "help" that I doled out yesterday.

And I don't disagree entirely with someone I once heard who essentially said "sometimes what somebody really needs is a good punch in the nose". I think it was the modern academic "king of myth" Joseph Campbell who said that in that PBS series call The Power of Myth.

I just hope it isn't me who needs that.

Anyways that's that. And what would you choose to name the colors if you could miss curious? I'm now picturing a new color entirely unlike any other that's ever been seen. It's name?........


KC_JJ ( see, I told you I was a major dork)



11/25/2005 1:28 pm

PS - that smiley face was a kamikaze and appeared by itself from out of nowhere


nightstalker172 37M
1258 posts
11/25/2005 2:20 pm

I have to say that Ive delt with alot of BS from people. My rule of thumb is this. If they make fun of me fine...if they tease me Ill tease back if they say something in an attempt to be hurtful I pretty much ignor it. Some even dare to touch me. Say what you want but dont touch me. If you do I will break you. words are just words but try to harm me and you will regret it. That is how I do things when it comes to people being hurtful. It would be nice if people could all get along but some are mean and cruel because thats all they know..thats how they where treated and they pass it on. Its sad but not much you can do about it except walk away and not waste your time or if need be kick the holy shit out of them in self defense of course .

Well if people didnt complicate life...wouldnt life be boring?

As far as the same colors...who knows...I only have my own eyes to see threw...

Good question...who ever named Black did something right I like the name for that color.

Why are people mean...I would say its in our nature we are animals after all....we struggle and fight for survival....and the law of the junlge is the survival of the fittest right. I have always tried to be decent to fellow people. I give everyone a chance...lose that chance by being mean and you will get nothing buta dirty look from me .....honestly a man blubbering..well its ok depending on the circumstances...like loseing a family member or something like that...that I dont see as weakness....but if say...you get into a fight and get hit and start crying...(something a BOY might do) that is weakness...So it depends on the situation IMHO. As far as being honest well..I think people do what it takes to win whatever it is they are competeing for and being honest can sometimes lead to your downfall..of course then people become used to lieing and backstabbing that its all there is....but thats JMO

HedonisticGuy69 47M
90 posts
11/25/2005 2:55 pm

Biochemical activity in our bodies may be the physical accounting of emotions but I have to believe that there's more to it than just that.
Things become complicated when people become less open minded,
hence all the conflict and hostility. It may be an oversimplification, but it comes to self confidence and feeling threatened, doesn't it? When someone questions, challenges our views then doesn't our guard go up? When the wall goes up, have you not noticed how less open we are?
We all have a unique perception which must be different from one anothers no matter how alike. Just like snowflakes, no two can be exactly the same.
If you relate life to quantuum physics and Jung's ideas, then many things are not only possible, many things can and do exist at the same time.
The recent most revelations about the nature of light is comparable in that as it can exist and act like a particle and also as a wave dependant on the attention it recieves.
If this is possible, that it neither has to be just one or the other then credence to Jung's thoughts on connectedness and a collective unconscious is not only possible but real then?
Your views don't have to be necessarily wrong because mine is right or vice versa.
Western civilizations problems arise from the concept of getting to the top by outdoing others (a competitive rather than a co-operative situation), dog eat dog mantra of capitalism.
Our society would like you to think that it promotes individuality but in reality, the atmosphere is one of conformity, thereby great pressure to be sheep like. Just look around you, it's self evident.
Anorexia and bulimia are social diseases that would support this thought, how skewed and distorted views on body image influences people on societal level.
If all it takes for evil to succeed, as the saying goes, is for all good men and women to stand by and watch, then, perhaps the world is going straight to hell.
We have been conditioned to accept our underwhelming, poorly managed, heck often mismanaged, beureaucratic governments, dare I say corrupt? How else do you explain how we just stand idly by to watch all the bs and crap that happens on a daily basis? By we, I mean the majority, as there are those who dedicate their lives in pursuit not only of happiness for self but the happiness of others, of all.
A discussion of the archetypes of 'good' and 'evil' will have to come another day.
How open minded are you really? When push comes to shove and you were to be absolutely and brutally honest with yourself and no other?
Possibilities upon possibilities not only can exist but do.
Food for thought.

PrincessKarma 44F
6188 posts
11/25/2005 3:26 pm

In this day and age "good" is equated wih "stupid" or worse... yet all I do is from a desire to be of some good to others, to protect and nurture those I care about even at a cost to myself... sometimes a very high one. I constantly pay the price for it, yet I continue to care, even when logic dictates I shouldn't.

So, I'm stupid... *shrug*

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

rm_TwiztedCharm 57M
456 posts
11/25/2005 10:03 pm

I think allot of the reason that all people are acting strange these days has something to do with dust traveling in the air. It is a common denominator that is shared by everyone and there has been a terrific amount of turbulance in the atmosphere. I have also noticed that longtime friends have been at one anothers throats lately.

curious082385 32F
4925 posts
11/26/2005 6:11 am

I love you guys!
Great answers and now you have me thinking even deeper into those questions and the possibilities. That's a good thing, by the way, I enjoy it.

curious082385 32F
4925 posts
11/26/2005 6:19 am

KC - there will always be people who ask questions and don't really want the answers....they want you to say what they want to hear. To bad, in my opinion....if you're going to ask, I'm going to tell you the truth. Just the way I am. In being honest, yes, you probably have offended some here...but don't worry about it. They shouldn't have asked if they couldn't deal with the answers. I, for one, value your responses and thoughts very much.

Florple, huh? I like it!!
*runs off happily to mix paints in an attempt to find a color worthy of such a name*

curious082385 32F
4925 posts
11/26/2005 6:26 am

Nightstalker - Very much in agreement with you about men crying.....it is a hard line to walk. And there is a difference between crying because your heart and soul hurt or because something touches you deeply.... and simply crying over something petty and childish. And it does help to define that line between "man" and "boy". A man's tears, in my opinion, are something to be greatly respected by the person he chooses to share them with....especially in todays society when so many say that it is a weakness. For him to cry in front of me shows his trust of me. Tears like that I'll kiss away, hold you against my shoulder and give you whatever comfort or solace you need from me. Just me.....

curious082385 32F
4925 posts
11/26/2005 6:39 am

Hedonist, my dear, you never fail to push my mind further into the realms of philosophy and questioning! Thank you.....there are few who do. As to biochemical reactions and what causes them.....of course there is something else that triggers emotions. It's one of the things that fascinates me, because it is something that no one has yet to be able to explain and makes human emotion all the more precious.
And I would love to sit down and debate Jung and light and life and excistance with you.....someone who might actually understand my thoughts and views!
You made me laugh with the hesitant comment on goverments.....corrupt they are indeed, no need to pause there. And so often these days, people can't separate love of country from love of leader/government.
"A true patriot must be willing to defend his country from his government."
Sorry....I digress.
I think we all stand by because so many think......"well, I'm just one person, what good can I do" and seem to forget that there may be thousands of people who think the same. And if we were to just step out and call them to join us, thousands of "just one persons" would be walking together.
How open-minded am I? I'm not going to say that I'm a saint, because I'm not. But whether I agree with your opinions or not, I won't condemn you for them. I will freely tell you that I don't agree or that I don't understand your thoughts, but I will respect the fact that those are the beliefs that work for you. It's the difference between saying "You are wrong" and "I think you're wrong".......do you see the difference? Does it make any sense?

Food for thought indeed.

rm_saintlianna 46F
15466 posts
11/26/2005 4:33 pm

Twizzle , dust in the atmoshpere? Oh god, thats funny, ahem sorry. People are cruel, Curi, they have been since the beginning of time. Its as human an emotion as love or happiness. Some derive hapiness from others suffering. I dont know why but its true, and you will find this through out your whole life, all you can be is true to yourself and maybe make a few "true" friends along the way. If you see injustice, fight it. Someone in pain, console them. Thats all you can do. And I know that we dont see color the same, how anyone can like florescent green is beyond me.

curious082385 32F
4925 posts
11/27/2005 10:49 am

Saintli - florescent green....ick *shudder*
In Florida, they'll paint a house sea foam green and then add cotton candy pink for the trimming. That's gross.
Some create drama and pain for no reason other than their own enjoyment...I'll never understand this. So glad to have found you and Efil....true friends indeed.

dasher121 37M

11/27/2005 2:05 pm

"why do people complicate things?" Great question. I think that everyone could have their own opinion on that. As you said, its all about your perception.
My perception tells me not to justify their actions or disorder only to realize that it makes me stronger. And plays a HUGE part in who I am, who I become.

HedonisticGuy69 47M
90 posts
11/27/2005 4:27 pm

sometime a discussion on a various topics would indeed be entertaining, at the least, potentially enriching *smiling ruefully*
being new to blogland or AdultFriendFinder, i try to tread lightly when it comes to governments as it can be mistaken as an attack on one's country.
americans are extremely patriotic, nearly to the point where one might think they have a chip on their shoulder, when anything is questioned (or seemingly so) in regards to country.
in all honesty, I sense that you will speak your mind and be openly truthful, hence why I check your postings (not just to look at your lovely pic nor read your thoughts )
as to being open minded, I only meant that if you were to continue to grow and develop, you would see that as open minded as you may think you are now there will come a day that you will laugh at how naive you were since in comparison, you have become much more so (not so subtle way to push you to look at yourself in that dimension). *mischievous laugh*
I too like to be challenged, pushed beyond where I am, should you be one to do so, then I would be pleasantly surprised as I am only hear on a bit of a lark, originally.
you've echoed thoughts I have had, perchance you may come to different conclusions as well as introduce me to lands beyond imagining.
I am always open to listening to others for I know I have miles to go... before I sleep.
hard for me to be offended since realizing and coming to terms with how flawed I am and so far have been unable to rid myself of all my shortcomings, so, how can I take the attitude (no matter how strong my beliefs are) that I am right about any one thing or everything?
It wasn't that long ago that man thought the world was flat, or believed that leeches were a cure all. It wasn't all that long ago that man believed without doubt that light was only a particle and how ludicrous to even consider that we had anything in common with apes.
a decade or two or three from now with any luck, humans will discover many more errors in thinking.
it's a treat to see growth and change not just in oneself but in others.

ManinMcK 51M
23 posts
11/28/2005 12:23 am

Try this on for size, there are so many self conscious, and frightned people out there that they don't trust a helping hand, it scares them. That also don't like themselves to much so it is easy to hurt when hurting. If you don't take kindness at face value, that what con you do but complicate it with looking for reasons, and agendas.

Perceptions... hehe you couldn't imagine hom many discussions I have had with people over color, of course there are biologicle reasons to see different colors, but take all that away, twins for instance raised seperately, and there is still a god chance they will see diferent colors. I think it has to do with perceptions, and life expierence "rose colored glasses" or the "half empty glass" a happy blue, or a sad one, same color?

Efilnikufecin69 48M

11/28/2005 1:39 am

shit, missed the damn boat again! Coulda warned me about this one you know!


11/28/2005 7:07 pm

Somewhat of a follow up here.

I ended up getting two messages from some of those people I had feared I had pissed off. Once I got the courage to read the notes it turns out they actually thanked me for what I'd said so that was actually a big relief.

Now wondering what colors you ended up mixing.



curious082385 32F
4925 posts
11/30/2005 1:20 am

Dasher - everything can shape who we are, can't it? It's up to us what events we allow in to change ourselves.

Hedonist - to push you beyond where you are, huh? Hmm...where do you want to be pushed to? Wise words on patriotism, open-mindedness and beliefs. I wonder what beliefs will change in the next fifty years...

Manin - "Try this on for size, there are so many self conscious, and frightned people out there that they don't trust a helping hand, it scares them. That also don't like themselves to much so it is easy to hurt when hurting."
Very, very true. Why is it that so many people can't see that?

curious082385 32F
4925 posts
11/30/2005 1:24 am

Efil - awww...you didn't miss the boat. See? I read your comment.

KC - good to hear it.
Hmmm....what colors did I end up mixing?
Tried a whole bunch of different mixes...personal favorite:
magenta, purple, deep blue and the tiniest swirl of sparkly gold

ManinMcK 51M
23 posts
12/1/2005 9:05 am

So many people are so wrapped up in the day to day business of their lives that the don't take the time to reflect on themselves, some are just too shallow, others self absorbed. I know this is grim, but from expiernce with both types, I can tell you it's true. I grew up in LA where this is so much the case with so many people that it is hard not to use the "everybody" word. It's not everybody though, there are fantastic people out there ( LA and everywhere else), who are unfortunately learning how to hide behind shields because the sharks are circling. Those who don't shield are either VERY strong individuals who know themselves well, or just don't care what the the others think, they are happy with what they want and how they feel. We have to learn to accept others for who they are, good traits and bad, and not let anyone dictate who we are as people (know thyself) then decide whether or not they are someone who you want to get to know to let know you... It isn't the safest thing, but I have met some truely great people, who just were afraid to let others know them...

curious082385 32F
4925 posts
12/3/2005 12:25 pm

Manin - yes, it's just a matter of walking the very, very thin and dangerous line on "how much do I show".
On one hand, letting someone get to know you and having someone who is that close is a wonderful feeling of freedom....especially if you are one of those who has spent most of their life in hiding.
But the closer you let them get, the more they know....the deeper they can hurt you.
It's deciding who is worth the risk and who isn't and crossing your fingers that you are right about them. But you have to put yourself out there. The alternative is a life of being surrounded by people who don't really understand who you are and that is a very lonely way to live.

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