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rm_cru1972 46M
3520 posts
3/23/2006 7:20 pm

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I want


Oh my f'ing god I can't believe it! I want him to be be mine soooooo much. I have never been so content in my life. God let him be mine. I have never been so content in my life. Son I hope you are mine. Ilove you with all my heart

rm_saintlianna 46F
15466 posts
3/23/2006 8:18 pm

I want him to be, I hope he is too. I wish I could be with you now.


angelofmercy5 60F
17881 posts
3/23/2006 8:27 pm

Cru....theres nothing sweeter than a new baby! Especially one that is your own. Since I'm sure that you will be a great Daddy...and you want him so much...then I hope he is yours too. How soon will you know???


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/23/2006 8:57 pm

Honestly I'm flattered, Nothing would make me happier.


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/23/2006 9:08 pm

    Quoting angelofmercy5:
    Cru....theres nothing sweeter than a new baby! Especially one that is your own. Since I'm sure that you will be a great Daddy...and you want him so much...then I hope he is yours too. How soon will you know???
Thank you angel


HOTNBOTHERED0414 48F

3/23/2006 9:21 pm

I AM KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED FOR YA!


sassybelle21 33F  
13313 posts
3/23/2006 9:32 pm

Best of luck with the new baby


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/23/2006 9:42 pm

Thank you very much sassy.


catseyes23 62F

3/23/2006 9:46 pm

It is so nice to have a baby to care and nurture for.

I am keeping my fingers crossed for you.

Cats...


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/23/2006 10:02 pm

After tonight so am I. I didn't think I would ever know a joy like that.


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/23/2006 10:13 pm

I got toes crossed too, have you ever tried walking like that? OMG I look funny.


demonicsexkitten 42F
10689 posts
3/23/2006 11:37 pm

*hug* best of luck..... hope everything comes out right for you.


sweetSinn2690
2943 posts
3/23/2006 11:47 pm

Your post brought tear to my eyes...where me fuggin tissues!
Was that not the best feeling ever!? Amazing and Blessings to you both(fingers crossed too) I would cross my legs but they haven't been crossed since 1991...lol....xo



Oh WHATEVER BITCHES!


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/24/2006 12:04 am

    Quoting demonicsexkitten:
    *hug* best of luck..... hope everything comes out right for you.
Thank you very much


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/24/2006 12:06 am

    Quoting sweetSinn2690:
    Your post brought tear to my eyes...where me fuggin tissues!
    Was that not the best feeling ever!? Amazing and Blessings to you both(fingers crossed too) I would cross my legs but they haven't been crossed since 1991...lol....xo

Just imagine teary eyes for 1 1/2 hours, but still I've never experienced anything that wonderful before.


HBowt2 60F

3/24/2006 1:27 am

He'll be a lucky baby if he is yours.....any baby that's loved as much as you would love him is so lucky....I hope for his sake that he is yours too......


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/24/2006 4:48 am

I have never felt like that b-4, It was the best thing Thank you


rm_shar1 57F
606 posts
3/24/2006 5:01 am

Your in my thoughts and prayers...I hope he's yours.


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/24/2006 5:35 am

So Do I, Thank you for your prayers.


Kaliedascope61 43M
4084 posts
3/24/2006 9:09 am

don't worry about if he is yours or not, Sounds like you bonded, and no matter who that baby's father is, Your gonna be his daddy. He is innoncent and will need you in his life no matter what.


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/24/2006 3:18 pm

Thank you Kal, I do have somewhat of the same idea


rm_metalmama69 43F
3878 posts
3/24/2006 6:30 pm

I am so happy for you! Some men never experience that joy that you speak of due to circumstance or just not allowing themselves to feel that deeply. So, enjoy it! There is no greater love than that which you feel for your child. And the way you feel at the moment of their birth is unbelievable! Best wishes!


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/24/2006 9:16 pm

    Quoting rm_metalmama69:
    I am so happy for you! Some men never experience that joy that you speak of due to circumstance or just not allowing themselves to feel that deeply. So, enjoy it! There is no greater love than that which you feel for your child. And the way you feel at the moment of their birth is unbelievable! Best wishes!
Thank you Mama, I never thought I would be able to feel that way.


powerbella 44F

3/24/2006 10:26 pm

Oh Cru,

You make Bella cry all the time these days!!! May this be your son!!! My prayers are with you!! A Baby is a new life, a new fresh start and also a time to get to know another "you" that lives inside of you that only love for your own child can bring to the surface...holding all my fingers and also doing the funny crossed toe walking thingy here!!!

Bella


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/24/2006 10:42 pm

NOOO not another me. The planet will start freezing over Now seriosly thank you for your kind words.


powerbella 44F

3/24/2006 11:59 pm

Cru, this is really not the place to share a secret with you at all, but I am putting my neck on the block here and will share this with you...I was pregnant a few years back, and all of a sudden a truly beautiful woman rose up in me, that child that grew in me changed me, another part of who I am rose up in me...unfortunately I lost my son at 5 months....I have never completely healed from this ordeal, but you know in my heart a lot changed, I have never felt bitter, althoug I were in a lot of anguish and terrible emotional pain...you have such a wonderful opportunity to hopefully raise this child, I truly hope this happens for you!!!! Children are so pure and you know they have no refelctions on the past of a parent, they just love and trust and that is stunning.


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/25/2006 2:09 am

    Quoting powerbella:
    Cru, this is really not the place to share a secret with you at all, but I am putting my neck on the block here and will share this with you...I was pregnant a few years back, and all of a sudden a truly beautiful woman rose up in me, that child that grew in me changed me, another part of who I am rose up in me...unfortunately I lost my son at 5 months....I have never completely healed from this ordeal, but you know in my heart a lot changed, I have never felt bitter, althoug I were in a lot of anguish and terrible emotional pain...you have such a wonderful opportunity to hopefully raise this child, I truly hope this happens for you!!!! Children are so pure and you know they have no refelctions on the past of a parent, they just love and trust and that is stunning.
Bella, I'm glad you felt you could share that secret with me. I'm not even able to convey my sympathies in words, So I am giving you a great big Hug. After knowing a love that I never realized I could ever know I can't even imagine the Pain you went through. I don't want to sound selfish, but I hope that I never have to go through that, for I know if I did I would not be able to be as strong as you were.


powerbella 44F

3/27/2006 6:26 am

    Quoting rm_cru1972:
    Bella, I'm glad you felt you could share that secret with me. I'm not even able to convey my sympathies in words, So I am giving you a great big Hug. After knowing a love that I never realized I could ever know I can't even imagine the Pain you went through. I don't want to sound selfish, but I hope that I never have to go through that, for I know if I did I would not be able to be as strong as you were.
Cru,

You will be amazed at the strength of the human spirit!! I believe there will never come things our way that we are not able to handle. But that is a fire-journey of ones soul that has the poer to destroy you, you have to find strength every day just to get out of bed, but with years it gets better and the wonderful memory of the priveledge of carrying my son under my heart will always stay with me...till we meet again one day....


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/27/2006 8:34 am

    Quoting powerbella:
    Cru,

    You will be amazed at the strength of the human spirit!! I believe there will never come things our way that we are not able to handle. But that is a fire-journey of ones soul that has the poer to destroy you, you have to find strength every day just to get out of bed, but with years it gets better and the wonderful memory of the priveledge of carrying my son under my heart will always stay with me...till we meet again one day....
Fortunately I have never experienced the loss of someone that close. I have had the loss, but never to the extreme you have felt. My life has been a non-stop fire-journey, and I feel that it has made me the person I have become today. And for that I am grateful, even with all the pain it has entailed. Thank you for sharing, I would like to get to know you better, you have "Wonderful Words of Wisdom".


powerbella 44F

3/28/2006 12:32 am

    Quoting rm_cru1972:
    Fortunately I have never experienced the loss of someone that close. I have had the loss, but never to the extreme you have felt. My life has been a non-stop fire-journey, and I feel that it has made me the person I have become today. And for that I am grateful, even with all the pain it has entailed. Thank you for sharing, I would like to get to know you better, you have "Wonderful Words of Wisdom".
Fire-journey.....the only way to refine gold is to put it in the fire, then all the crap rises to the surface...same with us. I had fire-journeys, but the most signifcant in my life was the "burning bush-experience". When you come to that point in yourself and you are at the "burning bash" like Moses of the Bible, you listen and you act...

If you have access to the music of Sinead O'Connor, listen to her song "Fire on Babylon" god, that is so good. Feel everything the confusion(Babylon) in me burn down to ashes when I listen to it....

Wisdom is only a gift and when you use it with the right heart attitude and for the better of yourself and those around you, so as I said before...think on these things, whatever is true, whatever is good, whatever is wholesome then your life will show wisdom...


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
3/28/2006 2:14 am

    Quoting powerbella:
    Fire-journey.....the only way to refine gold is to put it in the fire, then all the crap rises to the surface...same with us. I had fire-journeys, but the most signifcant in my life was the "burning bush-experience". When you come to that point in yourself and you are at the "burning bash" like Moses of the Bible, you listen and you act...

    If you have access to the music of Sinead O'Connor, listen to her song "Fire on Babylon" god, that is so good. Feel everything the confusion(Babylon) in me burn down to ashes when I listen to it....

    Wisdom is only a gift and when you use it with the right heart attitude and for the better of yourself and those around you, so as I said before...think on these things, whatever is true, whatever is good, whatever is wholesome then your life will show wisdom...
Lately I have been feeling a very large lack of wisdom.


twirly_girl 48F

5/16/2006 8:42 pm

And he loves you too.
You will see it in his smile and his eyes.

-Nikki


rm_cru1972 46M
4407 posts
5/17/2006 2:11 pm

    Quoting twirly_girl:
    And he loves you too.
    You will see it in his smile and his eyes.
Thankfully I do everytime I get to see him


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