Confused and maybe a little sad  

cigarlawyer 47M
19 posts
8/2/2006 8:27 pm

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8/3/2006 12:15 pm

Confused and maybe a little sad

I have to admit I am puzzled and confused.
back story: I met a girl we will call "J" a few months back. Everything seemed to be going smoothly, hung out alot, had dinner, even helped her remove shingles from her roof and lay down tar paper. looking at an old cell phoe bill, snet about 1000 or so text msgs to each other, then out of the blue she vanishes. Ok I can deal with that, will always wonder why, but life goes on. No harm no foul.
Flash forward: 2 1/2 months since I lasrt heard from her. I go to the normal spot after have a drink with someone from I me via AdultFriendFinder. J walks in out of the blue, sits at the far end of the bar. My friends and i notice her. One goes down to say hello, but I do not. I don't want to crowd her or make her defensive - to me the past is the and if she wants to talk ok, if not ok. She leaves after one beer.

I kinda feel bad. She always used to come into this place, in fact this is where we met. I have wondered if she was avoiding it because of me. Anyway, she would know that i normally am home on Wednesaday due to personal reasons. I have to wonder if J came in to have a good time thinking I would not be there only to see me holding court with my friends. I have long since deleted her numbers, so i can't call and say I won't bother her, which in fact would be bothering her.

So here I am thinking about someone I don't really know all that well wondering what, if anything, I did wrong (for the record I don't think I did anything) and sad that this lady might feel she needs to avoid me at any cost.
For those that do actaully follow this blog, no J is not the girl I discribed in the myths entry.

rm_max_is_back 44M

8/2/2006 9:31 pm

Dude - let me tell you first hand, DONT WORRY ABOUT IT. I have taught myself this - "She's the loser, I didnt do anything wrong. I know I am a good person" She had some reason for doing what she did. But just know that if you and J were meant to be together some way, shape, or form - you'd be with her. But you're not. Suck it up and just keep doing what you are doing, MOVING ON.

The more you wonder why - the more YOU are going to believe YOU did something wrong. And if you didnt do anything wrong - then you have nothing to worry about.

cigarlawyer replies on 8/3/2006 4:58 am:
Thanks for the comments, be assured I have mocved on. Just a momentary, feeling brought on by alcohol and childish behaviour.

rm_2_Sassy 57F
4 posts
8/3/2006 11:15 am

Yep, what max said...PLUS, if anyone owes an apology, she owes you one for disappearing without an explanation.

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