the angel showed her horns  

charmedlulu 61F
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5/25/2006 4:51 am

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6/2/2006 11:06 am

the angel showed her horns


...well, my son's father came to town for the third time now, came to watch the opening debut at the race track...it was a very strange weekend...I am not quite sure how to paraphrase the events! ...I think I finally got the grand picture this weekend... Again, he came with his current girlfriend. Here is my take of what has unfolded, although it is a gut or intuition thing I now have. He left his wife of roughly fifteen years for this woman...they ended up moving out of the area, he has always lived in, when they moved in together simply because she was never going to be accepted in his world, because she was the "home wrecker". I believe, although I have not asked, that my son, was from day one a bone of contention in his marriage...for many reasons, as I tried to explain in my last blog. Anyway for some strange reason, they stayed together, and decided to keep everything a secret. Sweep it under the carpet so to speak. His wife directed his life from that point. She put restraints on him, so to speak, that he was never to see his child, nor was anyone to know about him...it became a very dark deep secret. Anyway, fast forward fourteen years...a man who is very unhappy at this point in life, begins a relationship on the side...things blossom...life is great...and now he wants out of his marriage, and delivers the message to his wife...who knows everyone in the community, and hales herself as the innocent victim. The girlfriend...who he moves in with...is now "the other woman", and hence is dammed by his family and friends. The new girlfriend finds through conversation, the long lost secret. What a wonderful way to drive a wedge further between him and his estranged wife... She now understands this has torn him apart for all these years, and she uses it again to her advantage, to become an "angel" to his family. Indeed, that is how his mother, my son's grandmother, portrayed her in November, when she came to meet her grandson for the first time. She has total acceptance now from his family...she is wonderful beyond all means. She was an angel, brought to us to reunite father and son. At the request of my son...Joe(his father) came this weekend to visit...to be here for opening season of auto racing. ...he asked his father not to come in March, for his birthday, but instead to be here for his opening season race... Naturally, Joe was unable to come alone...so Joe and girlfriend arrived on Friday. Although, I don't let them stay at my home...they stay in a hotel in town...they spend the better part of their waking time at my home. I have tried for my son's sake, to be as hospitable as possible, and to be the social planner, etc... Well it was this weekend that made me see the bigger picture...although she offered to help me a few times, in meal preparation, she would disappear, and never allowed father and son more than a few brief moments of time together. Actually, the only time I was left alone with him was when she had to go to the bathroom. He and I laugh about things, and tell stories...and yet...she never really joins in...she never laughs...she never tells stories... I believe being the “angel” backfired on her...she never anticipated the whole picture ~~what if all went well. Don't get me wrong, I have no desire to ever rekindle anything with Joe...but he is the father of my son...and therefore, we have a very strong bond, and it is a bond, which will forever be there. I cannot tell you the hurt, and pain I went through at various times of my life because of all of this, but it isn't about me...never was. It is about a relationship between a father and a son...that I have always hoped and dreamed would happen for my son...I never gave up on that hope, and therefore never closed the door completely, although there came a time, where I felt it would never be. This woman, now has a bigger picture...her relationship with Joe, started the same way mine did with him...they work together, and he is her direct boss...and perhaps she has put together some of the parallel's...but needless to say, she acted like she was far better than I...and treated me very coldly this weekend, and as if I were a slave to her. Even at the races, when he and I were talking, she was straining to try and hear over the roar of the cars...she didn't want one word to pass that she couldn't hear. He invited us to a family get together he is having for Father's Day...although I told him, I would see that our son got there, my presence was not appropriate...he told me, he knew our son would be more comfortable with me there, and also that his family would welcome us with open arms...and I may even enjoy myself. Joe's siblings...never knew about his son...they first learned about him, last summer, when Joe first started to make contact, and knew he would be meeting his son...it was a secret that went that deep, that no one was told. The aunts, and uncles, now want to meet this long lost boy...they have written, sent cards...been wonderful since they found out. I am sure it is as traumatic to them, as it has been to us.
Unfortunately I saw the angelical girlfriend in a different light…

charmedlulu 61F

5/29/2006 7:27 am

In Dickinson County jewls...at the Norway Speedway


charmedlulu 61F

5/30/2006 7:20 pm

I am also! Would be nice to meet...maybe we have been sitting right next to each other and don't know it!


charmedlulu 61F

6/1/2006 6:24 am

stands...


charmedlulu 61F

6/1/2006 11:35 am

I am not allowed in the Pit's till after the races! Makes my young man to nervous to have me around!


charmedlulu 61F

6/2/2006 11:06 am

Well jewels...it has been a week of fix and repair...he was spun out and then tboned last weekend in his final lap, final corner...hopefully he can do well tonight...he runs in the 4cyl's...in the A category...#13.


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