a broken heart..  

carebearluv2 43F
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1/15/2006 8:16 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

a broken heart..

He broke my heart...for the second time.

I gave someone a chance this past week. Someone from the past that I dated for about a month contacted me asking if we could try again. We broke up previously due to his partying and lifestyle choices. Since our differences were supposed to be a thing of the past, I agreed to start talking again. We talked on the phone all week and things were going pretty well. Until last night.

It was my birthday yesterday. I decided to go out with him, my best friend and one of his friends. Things didn't go as well as planned, despite a small make-out session. He spent most of the evening quiet and I spent most of the evening trying to figure out the cause of it.

Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a very outgoing person. I will talk to just about anyone who will listen to me. I am the first one to speak to a stranger, make a friend feel comfortable or greet a co-worker after a weekend away. I am not loud or obnoxious, just friendly. I am comfortable with my personality and spend 95% of my life happy. He knew this before and he knew it when he contacted me again.

Despite all of that, I called him today to ask him a question. After he gave me a few one word answers, I finally decided to confront him. He then informed me we are too different and he doesnt see a relationship happening. He is willing to "give me another chance" and see. Can you believe that? How did the roles get so reversed here?

Now I could just chalk this up to his stupidity and move on. I will eventually, but it really hurt me. I spent most of the evening tonight crying. To be rejected for who are you is much worse than being rejected for who you are not. I have never said an ill thing to him, never hurt him and I've never lied to him. Yet he's done it to me twice. I am kicking myself for being so stupid and letting myself get in this mess. I know he is going to call again eventually. This time all he is going to get is a dialtone.


dasher121 37M

1/16/2006 8:33 am

Ah, feel so sorry for you here. But it is really his loss and his personal confusion. you clearly know who you are and that is wonderful. I know it hurts and easier said than done, but time will heal all wounds, i promise that. Dont see yourself as being stupid for a second chance. He is the stupid one, and at least you found this out early on and not later down the road, when great time and emotional commitments were rehashed.

Take pleasure in the knowledge that you KNOW who you are and what you want. Life moves in strange directions no doubt, but yours is moving in the correct one.........forward.

carebearluv2 43F

1/18/2006 8:06 pm

Dash, thank you for this lovely, sweet advice. You have helped me move past this more than you know by just those kind words. I know what I want and who I am...let the rest of them figure that out for themselves without wasting my time.

norprin5 56M

1/19/2006 8:21 am

ya gotta kiss a lot of frogs, etc etc... your prince will come, sweetie

and belated happy birthday!!

King Nor XVIII

carebearluv2 43F

1/20/2006 6:31 pm

Thanks Nor..you're a sweetie!

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