Trapped In My Own Fear.......  

blondebabyboo3 45F
190 posts
2/7/2006 6:34 pm

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Trapped In My Own Fear.......

As I sit here tonight, looking at this screen, having my glass of wine, I realize that there is something wrong with this picture. There is a reason that I am not as outgoing & assertive as I once was. I, since childhood, have had this dream that one day I would, one day, find my Prince Charming. I would wonder across him, somehow, and he would just whisk me away from the pain & agonies that I have dealt with in my life. I would look into his eyes and know that he loved me, and I would get lost in that love. That overwhelming warmth of our souls, as he takes my hand and leads me to happiness.

My own disappointment is that, after being out in this cold, cruel world for the past year, I now see that there is no such fantasy. No one TRULY loves anymore. No one. That is the fear that keeps me from loving. The fear that I will waste time, once again, on a man that only loves himself. And those feeling we have will only decay, and add to the misery.......Trapped in my own fear......of losing love.

norprin5 56M

2/7/2006 6:56 pm

there is still love out there. this, however, may not be the place to look for it.

if you want to stick around, though, follow me back to my blog, meet some of the people who have become my friends.

whatever you do, don't give up on love.

love still exists. and it may find you, rather than the other way round

King Nor XVIII

rm_art_persists 52M
1789 posts
2/7/2006 7:34 pm

People do love and they love in amazing ways. Maybe your expectations need to adjust.

oldman1776 79M
3164 posts
2/7/2006 11:25 pm

There are people that still love and there are a lot of them on here. Keep looking you will find what your looking for.

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