The Affectionate Touch  

bigandtallreturn 38M
1538 posts
8/28/2006 7:12 pm

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8/30/2006 11:30 am

The Affectionate Touch


Being single has its advantages. I'm responsible for only one person. I don't have to worry about buying for two or more people, or cooking meals for two or more people. I don't have any relaionship drama. In a lot of ways, it's liberating.

But in a lot of other ways, it's also depressing. I don't have someone to comfort me, or that I can give comfort to at the end of the day. I don't have someone to bounce ideas off of. I don't have someone I can surprise just by leaving a rose on the foot of the bed, or on the windshield of her car. (Believe it or not, that's something I've always wanted to do.)

I have periods where I enjoy the single life, and then are periods when I hate it. And right now, I'm in that "hating it" period.

I saw something today at Bed, Bath & Beyond (my favorite store, no less) that, in one moment, summed up everything I want in a relationship. While looking at new shower curtain liners (the old one is simply... well, it's pretty disgusting), I noticed this cute older couple walking by. Since I'm one of those people who likes to observe other people, I watch them walk by. They were holding hands.

Then, the woman simply took her finger and sort of slid it down the cheek of her man in an affectionate matter. He looks at her, smiles, and gives her a gentle kiss. Just like something you'd see in a movie.

Maybe I read too much into stuff like this (no, I KNOW I do), but that right there, simple moments like that... I would give up so much for. Just to have an affectionate moment like that, just for no good reason only because that certain someone cares for me.

Maybe someday.

"Today may be the first day of the rest of your life, unless you live on the other side of the International Date Line, then yesterday was the first day of the rest of your life."- Larry Andersen


PrincessKarma 45F
6188 posts
8/28/2006 9:15 pm

Ohhhhh...

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma


PassionKisses4Me 45F

8/29/2006 3:30 am

I so want moments like that too...I hate being alone especially at bed time

Your time will come sweetie

Becky


~Becky~


curiousinlorain7 60F

8/29/2006 4:56 am

I"m exactly the same way... one of the reasons that I hung on to my marriage was the fear of being alone... sometimes though alone is better then together...especially when abuse is part of the together... I wish I had someone to leave a rose on my bed ... or to hold hands with


MamChelle 49F
1443 posts
8/30/2006 8:26 am

i have a similar reaction. i long for just being able to roll over in the night and reach out to someone. i had hoped things would change and be better with moving....if anything i am feeling more alone than ever. like you i am a i hate it time in my life....i just doin't know what the hell to do about it! A part of me longs to just dissapear somewhere and never look back. That worked once ten years ago when i went to florida...lol. i am down to the point that i wonder if anyone would even notice me gone.........


MamChelle 49F
1443 posts
8/30/2006 8:27 am

i have a similar reaction. i long for just being able to roll over in the night and reach out to someone. i had hoped things would change and be better with moving....if anything i am feeling more alone than ever. Like you, i am in one of those, i hate it, times in my life....i just don't know what the hell to do about it! A part of me longs to just dissapear somewhere and never look back. That worked once ten years ago when i went to florida...lol. i am down to the point that i wonder if anyone would even notice me gone.........(Sissy would, and that is all that keeps me here)


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