Wake up?  

becomingmonica 48T
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3/15/2006 12:52 pm

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3/15/2006 1:06 pm

Wake up?


Its morning,I can tell.The sun light is burning the last peacefullness from the cool unlight air of my domain.I arise and streatch out full apone my bed admireing the naturally formed curves that bless or should I say curse my body.The air once wecomed to my chest now cought in it.Ow yes another day.Another day alone with my self degragation and crusifiction.I see the cloths and fabrics formed into shapes in which the other inhabitants of earth say represents apporpritly the sex and style that I should find comforting.Why?Why?I ask myself continuesly should the print or shape of my shirts and undergarmints dictate what kind of person I am?As I srtech again my hands run over my chest,flat still ofcourse,but some day I'll compleate what my whole entity longs to develope.Right I laugh hatefully just another thing sosiety deems a unhuman state of wanting or desire,and so gutlessly I comtemptuesly conform.My kids from a love gone bad,I tell myself,I must for them put the mask of man back on.A woman to love and be loved back is fuond only through a lie,that is the reason I commit personal suiside each day.In reality a dream forilled would be the day that tenderly a woman and I touching kissing taisting sucking and more as two ladys but with a slylessly little secrect enjoy and satisfy each others needs with no need of make believe objects simulating male sexual body parts.Our mouths kissing each others nipples gently,ow there I go again.Thats heathen talk and for a"person"born a man that just aint right down here in these parts.Well I must have the devil in me or "sumpin".And so with out delay I'll climb atop my cross of self detruction and burn myself away.Maybe tomarrow I can be fake with a smile like everyone eles.So unill????????????????????????????????????????

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