The tires hit the lets see what yer made of....  

barbiebunny 37F
6789 posts
5/22/2006 1:11 am

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5/27/2006 10:58 pm

The tires hit the lets see what yer made of....

This isnt about sex... SO if youre looking to get a nut off.. come back later.

You know.. also called "nutting up" "testing the tempered steel" jumping off into the unknown muttering the big battle cry.."HOLY FUCK!" nono thats not it..yeah this is it..Jeronimo!!!"

Ive had this blog pretty much a year in one incarnation or another (the woof banned incident) anyway, I have bloodletted, grieved, exuded my strength, learned from my triumphs, horrendous flops, and birth control failures, heartaches, lusts and heartbreaks. Pretty much I let it out..sure theres a lot more goin on behind the scenes at the "bunny casa"..but you get the cool highlights here. And you..have muddeled thru my basement, been on the highs and lows with me.

Again another milestone for Bunz... when quite frankly, I thought i'd done it all.. resolved my sufferings to hopefully to come to the comfort of another and eeearily as I am realizing rescue myself.

Tires hitting the road Lets see how I have applied it shall we? If i was playing poker, this is the hand I was dealt.

In a single moment in time...herein lies the rub... your beloved family members hang in the balance...each one can expire at any moment..where do you spend your time?

Gramma-in Icu with congestive heart failure

Grandpa- has a mental snap from seeing the trauma of his wife being recessuitated from death. Been married 61 years. Now helping to seek therapy.

Father-Autonomic nervous system failure. Yup, it forgets to tell him to breathe and other necessity things..due to a tumor in the brain stem. Oh yeah, he's in Arizona. So im traveling consistantly from Arizona to California...its a bitch.

Mother-out of control diabetic.

Yes, Im going to get my pilots licence...First thing is I wanted to stick my head in the sand..but as usual I nut up.

Special forces..yup thats me. Now kiddies..where do I spend my time? This is all pretty grusome seeing the end of life 3 times in front of your face at the same time. I couldnt have dreamt this one up...mother being a wildcard.

Stay tuned. More revelations to come..and any input..appreciated.



DON'T FLUSH...............

Its good to be...ME

Nightguy_1961 56M
4866 posts
5/22/2006 1:42 am

Damn,'ve been dealt a tough hand.....and no easy decision to make at all....

Honest opinion....stick close to your Grandmother...just a feeling, that's all.

Good luck...if you need to vent....holla

NG61...slipping back into the darkness...

barbiebunny replies on 5/23/2006 8:26 pm:
thanks hun ox

rm_FreeLove999 47F
16127 posts
5/22/2006 5:16 am

whew! i have no idea what i would do with those choices. you're just gonna have to wing it and hope for the best! hope everyone get's well soon!! love, hugs and strength to you!!

[blog freelove999]

barbiebunny replies on 5/23/2006 8:26 pm:
youve got such a great heart ty

GoddessOfTheDawn 106F
11240 posts
5/22/2006 8:13 am

    Quoting humboldthonni:
    oh sweetie. the times they are a changing and you being dragged along by your heart. I am knowing that whatever is next you will deal this hand and play your best cards cuz that is who you are. Breathe big and know all in blogland that love you for who you really are are pulling for you. Keep us in your thoughts cuz you are in ours always...

~ nodz ~ honni said it better than I could


barbiebunny replies on 5/23/2006 8:25 pm:
thank u gotd

(Princess Lips)

5/22/2006 8:34 am

oh Bunz...*sweet hugs*

If I could just clone you I would...and let one Bunz celebrate life and just be happy!

I lost Dad and Gram within months of eachother...broke my heart...

Don't look back...or forward...stay in the moment...

Send them all your energy and love..and prayers! Spend what you can time wise with them...listen to your heart- It'll set you on the right road...

and we are here to listen and help you!


barbiebunny replies on 5/23/2006 8:24 pm:
thanks you for the thoughts xo

SeekingFun337 65M/61F
657 posts
5/22/2006 9:25 am

Reading all the above posts says so much about the goodness in so many of those who have joined your blog community.

As you go forward, events will most likely drive where you end up spending your time, and what you do.... You are and will want to rescue, and fix what you can.... You need to search only your heart, with the knowledge that, most likely, the ones who you love, and have cared for you, would only want what is best for you...

It sounds like your family is receiving good medical attention, and that they are being cared for... If you are comfortable with this, then you should check on them often, and visit based on circumstance, and then spend your time preparing for what you may have to deal with going forward... It is in dealing with the actual needs, that you can take comfort that you are doing something of consequence..

When my mother was dealing with a life threatening illness, and we knew her time was short, she never expressed or expected us to stop our lives... I doubt your loved ones expect this... Do what you can, and take solace in the fact that you cannot change these events... you did not create them... Spend you time in both places, and remember you cannot be there for them if you exhaust yourself, and become ill as well... speaking of this... how are YOU DOING THESE DAYS...???? (a strong virtual hug, and sincere heartfelt thoughts for you in this time... )

barbiebunny replies on 5/23/2006 8:24 pm:
thanks hun for the advice.. Me? I need rest

SensualBlueMale 42M
90 posts
5/22/2006 11:39 pm

Sweetheart, here is a newbie's post but you have my empathy.

As for my two cents worth, I'd suggest to take a beautiful woman's advice:

"Remember, when kicking someone's ass, always look incredibly hot."

Replace "someone's ass" with what you are dealing with and I can assure you that your attitude will be flawlessly sexy.

I'm rooting for you and I wish you the best of luck.

barbiebunny replies on 5/23/2006 8:22 pm:
thank you for the reminder... and welcome

barbiebunny 37F
5597 posts
5/23/2006 8:21 pm

ty everyone..

Its good to be...ME

RoyalPurpleRose 53F

5/23/2006 10:37 pm

My prayers are with you and your family. My mother had conjestive heart failure and suffered a massive heart attack and was gone too quick. That was a week of pure hell. Still makes me cringe. It's been 4 years ... still have family that refuses to speak to me.

I know you can't help but spread yourself too thin. But try to sneak in a massage once a week. You may think I'm crazy, but releasing some tension will help keep you focused and your heart will know what comes next. You have to take care of you along with everyone else.

~Kisses, RPR

barbiebunny replies on 5/26/2006 11:12 pm:
thank u for sharing that rpr..namaste xoxo B

tillerbabe 57F

5/25/2006 2:15 am

[bg bgcolor=FFCCFFAwweee.... sweetie...go ahead and FLUSH! It's "oK" just this one time! {=} Love you...[/bg]

barbiebunny replies on 5/26/2006 11:11 pm:
love u too!!!!

Kaliedascope61 43M
4084 posts
5/26/2006 3:14 pm

Do your thing, stay strong, and let life unfold around you.

barbiebunny replies on 5/26/2006 11:10 pm:

_Safira 54F
11260 posts
5/27/2006 6:28 pm

I'm here for you ... no matter the time of day or night, my love. Just "ring" me. *massive hugs*

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