Somethings about me you should know...  

angelwoarose 42F
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1/16/2006 9:30 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Somethings about me you should know...

I figured since this is where I am spilling my guts I should probably explain a little about myself so you don't think I'm completely crazy.

I am a 30 year old single parent. For most of my adult life I have been in long term relationships. This is the first time in 10 years I have been single for any length of time. I have dated a good deal of men over the past year and a half...some of which good friendships developed...others turned out to be nothing more than one night stands or fuck buddies. (Yes I can have sex with out any emotion to the person I with...I just don't enjoy it as much).

I married the first man I ever dated. I had some sense of loyalty to him because he was the first man I had ever had sex with and felt I had to marry him even though I knew in my heart it was WRONG!!! In the end he decided that he no longer wanted a family but to chase starlits in Hollywood so he I sent him on his way....

Then came Darcy. I loved that man more than anything. The whole 5 years we were together he never had to worry about a thing. He put me thru a lot that I'm not gonna get into here...in the end he passed away a year ago....

SOOOO I am not only a divorcee but unoffically a widow. That's a lot of shit to have to deal with and only be 30. There isn't much left that can be done me at this point. I've accepted that my love life will pretty much always be screwed up. For a while i had wished to hope someone that saw more in me then just a sex object...guess what?? that happened...and that sucks too. I'm looking for a balance between the two I guess.

Guess I'm just not meant for a relationship...soooo

Wine me
Dine me
Fuck me

Just don't play with my heart. It's damaged goods.


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