For tonight I shall....  

angelwoarose 42F
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2/18/2006 8:34 am

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For tonight I shall....

Today I am in a very good mood. My life isn't perfect, but it's mine. I'm not perfect, I'm just me. And honestly that is all I want to be. I know too many people that waste thier lives on finding happiness or perfection..and it is never going to happen. So, I have adopted 2 new philospies for my life.

The first : "Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game." (For those of you that are Hillary Duff fans, yes it came from "A Cinderilla Story"...a very cute movie I might add...and yes fairy tales are my weakness.)

The second is: "The past is past and the present is perfect." (That one if from a comic strip, but I can't remember the name of it) I really liked how it used the butterfly as an example. When you think about it, it makes a lot of sense. When a butterfly starts out it is an ugly little worm like creature...a caterpiller. But the it transforms into a beautiful butterfly. In the comic it was questioned if the caterpiller ever thought back to it's past as the caterpiller or just lived in the present. That got me to thinking....

Why should I dwell on my past? Everyone has made mistakes and moved on...others dwell in the past and waste away. And yes, we must be aware there is going to be an impact on our lives with the choices we make....but that should only help us guide our decisions not keep us from making them.

I have had my heart broken several times in my life...and I am sure it will happen again. But I made the decision that I was going to love like I never had before..and each time I learn that I love deeper. And in truth, that's what I am searching for. I find that love that will eventually make the others fade away. And it is out there. I have no doubts. I have a lot to give and there is someone worth enough to deserve it.

So for tonight I have no worries about "striking out" or the past. I have no worries about the future...and "the present is perfect". So I shall crawl into bed and dream my dreams and love my loves. I bid you adiue.

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