angelofmercy5 60F
12148 posts
4/19/2006 6:32 am

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Do you ever just feel alone? Even when there are smiling, happy people all around you? Even when you join in the conversation...and move through all the steps your day must take you through? It's not always a bad feel alone. Sometimes we really need that time to think... to resolve issues in our own mind. To speak to God and allow our spirits time to listen.

The bed is cold and empty
Without you.
My heart and soul are longing
Without you.
The day just doesn't feel right
Without you.

I touch the phone,
But I know I can't call.
I touch my fingers to my lips,
But it's you I want there.
When can I touch you?
When will our eyes meet?

Without you....
I am alone.

This is dedicated to know who you are. 143

helga_hansen 50F
1987 posts
4/19/2006 6:37 am

Yes... But it helps knowing they are there...


Love, hugs and kisses from ♥♥HH♥♥

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 7:15 am: DOES help knowing that they are there. It also helps when they know you need that alone time once in awhile.

dasher121 37M

4/19/2006 7:26 am

agree with helga's comment. We all do need down time. Me personally, Im a bit of a loner. I have a lot of friends but I choose to spend a good bit of time by myself. No real reason, I guess it's just the way I am. But, just the thought of knowing that there are others out there who care about you and enjoy you being in their lives is very comforting to know,


angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 7:28 am:
Dasher...I think you hit the nail on the head. We all need to know that there are those there who care for us. I am really not a loner...but I do value some alone time.

rm_FreeLove999 47F
16127 posts
4/19/2006 7:35 am

*sigh* i often feel alone. comes from being a white, lefty woman in south africa who is not uptight about sex... (a lot of SA lefty woman act as tho sex is an anti-feminist plot)... i think part of the reason i love blogland sooo much is i can talk openly about my sexuality...

[blog freelove999]

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:02 am:
Free...for those of us who love knowing you in blogland...we are glad that this is a place you can talk openly and freely. And don't let anyone stop you from doing just that.


4/19/2006 7:41 am

This post sounds just like me and my feelings for mrrdking I am going to direct him to read this. TY angel

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:03 am:
HNB.....I'm glad this reflected your thoughts! I hope he will come by and read this then. Love ya!

horny4770 61M
8158 posts
4/19/2006 8:05 am

Being by yourself and FEELING alone can be totally different.

For years I've started my days early just so I can have time by myself to think, reflect and organize. Each day given to us is new and has opportunities we can easily miss if we look at them thru yesterday's eyes.

Then again, having those who care and share with us is terrific also.

Humans are a strange and complex bunch!

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:04 am:
Horny....I know just what you mean here. And thanks for being one of those people I can share with.

_Safira 54F
11260 posts
4/19/2006 8:06 am

Being alone is different that being lonely. I often prefer to be alone. *gentle hugs*

This is my blog - Comes With Warning Labels. There are many like it, but this one is mine.


angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:06 am:
Safira....I knew that you would understand. ~hugs~ right back to you!

PassionKisses4Me 45F

4/19/2006 8:14 am

It is amazing to me that I can at times feel so alone while being around so many people....for me being alone has been so hard this past year and a half...especially at night once the kids are asleep and the house is so quiet...the bed so big and empty



angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:08 am:
Becky...I know that it is hard to be alone sometimes. Just know that you have friends here that are standing with you. I know that doesn't fill the lonely bed at night.

rm_saintlianna 46F
15466 posts
4/19/2006 8:15 am

Thats sad, I spend almost all my time alone anyways so I can sympathize........

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:08 am:
Saintlianna.....I me I do.

nydude1955 62M

4/19/2006 8:37 am

Very sweet, but very sad. Being and feeling alone is a drag.

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:57 am: is sad sometimes. But then there are times we just need to be alone. Thanks for stopping by my blog....come back again soon.

firestarter665 43M/40F

4/19/2006 8:47 am

Just from reading this, I miss Mr. Fire even more.

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:34 am:
Firestarter.....I think it is wonderful that you miss Mr Fire. I hope he knows how lucky he is!

HighPocKets1938 79M

4/19/2006 9:18 am

Everyone, for just a while, should have their "Me Time" to ponder
Is this all there is, isn't there much more, and let your mind wonder
To those fleeting moments when there is just the two of you
Amongst that crowding horde of others so caught up in things new

Your own time to wish for your special one to be near
Hear the laughs, see the smile that you hold dear
To hold you so tight, to kiss you just right
To take you back to Heaven throughout the night.

'Tis the loneliest of feelings, when there are others about
With all their own agendas on their mind but leaving you out
Alone, just wishing "He/She could be taken in hand and Love
With abandon, as cherubs are flitting above

A love that has no equal, none other as true
can ever take those special moments away from you
I feel your emptiness, your longing to be held tight
To bask in the glow, but soon it will be the night

And together you will once again soar
to those lofty clouds you rise once more
Forget all cares, in heaven, not on Earth
Basking in love, happiness and mirth

And so dear Angel, you are not alone in your mind
Though apart you may be, He is always there in kind
of the back of your thoghts, longing too it does appear
Just waiting for the time when "together" is NEAR.

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:35 am:
That was just beautiful Highpockets! ~hugs~ to are so sweet and dear.

Sulabula 46F
12659 posts
4/19/2006 9:25 am

I know that feeling so well

Sula xxx

come visit my blog

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:36 am:
Sula....I think there are many of us here who know this feeling.

rm_Keystone3812 66M
583 posts
4/19/2006 9:38 am

Yes, I know that feeling, Sweet. We all have lonely moments. The person you dedicated the post to is a lucky person! I'm envious.

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 1:01 pm: are the sweetest man. And how do you know it wasn't dedicated to you?


4/19/2006 10:35 am

The am when I am laying half asleep waiting for HIM to whisper peace to me and make my day complete. In that still is when the empty void is filled. I quit searching for the other person or thing to fill the void that always comes up a temporary fix and is always a disappointment. I love that moment of clarity and stillness and fullfillment. {=}

just a squirrel trying to get a nut

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 1:03 pm:
Ah Mofun......somehow, I knew you'd be one of the ones to understand this. And I totally agree with you!

VATraveler1948 69M

4/19/2006 11:37 am

Angel, I often feel just the way you described, even when I'm in a crowded room. I felt that way this morning but I was sitting in an auditorium full of people in a convention center.

You are never truly alone, you have your memories and your dreams. Reach out to those memories... but try hard to recall only the happy ones!

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 1:05 pm:
VAT...honestly, I am so blessed with good memories....that other than the sadness when I am going through the bad times...I often can't remember them. Only the good ones!

papyrina 52F
21133 posts
4/19/2006 1:41 pm

its the worest kind of lonelyness and have felt it often,i love being alone but i hate all the feelings that come with being lonely.

hehe i know who he is

I'm a

i'm here to stay

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 7:01 pm:
Papy....exactly! So, you know who he is, eh?????

seek_u_topia 52M

4/19/2006 1:51 pm

I know the feelings...and i adore your words here...sometimes only one person can take away that feeling of being alone

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 7:01 pm:
Seek u....and if you have that one person in your means everything, doesn't it?

pragmaticCTcpl 62M/51F

4/19/2006 2:15 pm

I know how you feel. Sometimes I just have to look within myself and find the strength to get through the moment, until he's with me again. {=}

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 7:02 pm:
Pragmatic....and it is good that we can find that strength inside of ourselves, isn't it?


4/19/2006 7:42 pm

I try to make the best of my alone time which is alot.. wacky schedules.Thats when I blast music, talk all night on the phone.. do the girly stuff, Nails, hair, the eyebrows.. But if i get lonley.. watch out for chocolate and a chick flick... and hey .. who is it ?????

under the stars
We choose to write
you choose what you comprehend.
read twice and be nice
every key stroke... has a heart beat

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:06 pm: is fun to have a girly night once in awhile!

heavensdesire 107M

4/19/2006 8:13 pm

I need my solitude at times... but I know this feeling. I often feel far more alone in a crowd than in an empty house. I know the feeling of wanting to pick up the phone... and knowing you can't call... pure torture. All the best to you....

boydcounty 68M

4/19/2006 8:15 pm

I long for my alone time. I spend my best moments with me, just sitting, listening to nothing. I hear the heart beat of God in those moments. Those scant, few fleeting moments shape and mold the clay formed by my experiences. Those moments show me who I am, what I should do, and the path I need to take to get there.


angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 9:05 pm:
Boyd....that was beautiful. And that is the kind of alone time I am seeking right now.

sexyariesgirl 59F

4/19/2006 9:40 pm

Angel....I only discovered your blog tonight. You are such a wonderful woman! I'm thankful to have found you! My prayers are with you as you prepare for surgery.

Alone and lonely are certainly two different things....I love my alone time....but hate being lonely. I used to be lonely a lot...even in crowded rooms. These days I'm not as lonely....I am beginning to make peace with myself once again. And that's a GOOD THING!

I wish you the best, Angel.

Power To FOK

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/19/2006 10:17 pm:
Sexyariesgirl....I'm so glad you discovered my blog! I thank you so much for the wishes...and the comment. I am also making peace with myself...and I have learned so much in the process! I hope you stop by often.

TheRealThing655 49F
9558 posts
4/19/2006 9:57 pm

This is a wonderful post. Yes, I feel all those things at times.
Thank you for this...and all the best for you, you are a true Angel to us here.

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/20/2006 2:14 am:
Thank you for those kind words.....if I can make someone feel something...or smile..then I will feel like I've done something special.

supinefeline 52M

4/19/2006 10:57 pm

angel... yes, i know exactly what you mean. beautiful post. supine

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/20/2006 2:14 am:
Thank you supine! It helps to know that others feel the same way.

rm_upalllnight3 55M
23 posts
4/20/2006 1:32 am

I like bieng in big bed alone not having to listen to wife snore my ear off and be able to spread out across bed in whatever position I like. Sometimes feel alone when everyone is home more than when they are gone seems everyone has a project or show they want watch. good thing I have a dog who will cuddle with me and not ask what I am thinking about, dog just asks to take her for a walk and that makes us both feel better.

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/20/2006 2:16 am:
Upallnight...there's nothing like that unconditional love from a dog, is there?

HBowt2 60F

4/20/2006 8:55 am

some times it's like you walk out of step with the rest of the world and you wonder do they feel what you feel....

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/20/2006 8:58 am:
HB......that was the best way to put it that I've heard yet!

(What the fuck is this shit..?? *rolls eyes*)

4/21/2006 4:19 pm

Loneliness is the one thing we all share equally...I enjoy my lone-ness maybe to much. When I am in the back 40 walking I have wondered, If Ready falls and there's no one around to hear her,does she still make a sound...??....Ready


angelofmercy5 replies on 4/22/2006 6:57 am:
Ready..that is too funny! But it is nice to have a back 40 to walk in, isn't it?

docdirk 49M

4/21/2006 6:35 pm

The only time I don't feel alone is when I am alone.

Ah, Its you again, Your Angel Feathers and your Blood Stains...

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/22/2006 6:58 am: aren't the first person I have heard say that! What is it I wonder that makes us feel alone whenwe are in a crowd?

rm_unlistedone 66M
2718 posts
4/22/2006 1:10 am

Angel, there is nothing wrong with being alone... it can be a good time to sort out all sorts of things. And being alone in a crowd, is something I can relate to, also. Mr. Kagel was a good example of being alone.

This is a wonderful post hun. And don't worry, your time is coming. I just hope you haven't made the dream bigger than what the reality can supply.

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/22/2006 7:01 am:
Unlistedone...I remember Mr Kagel...and you just reminded me how important human touch might be, or that smile for someone who is really alone. But, I don't think my dreams will be disappointed....not even a little! 143.

rm_funinic 50M
823 posts
4/23/2006 12:37 pm

Every night since my wife and I separated in January...

angelofmercy5 replies on 4/23/2006 4:58 pm:
Funinic....I'm sorry! Hopefully things will look up for you soon!

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