Wish I knew  

angeldevillvr 54F
92 posts
12/15/2005 6:51 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Wish I knew


Have you ever been in one of those moods where you are very down and will start crying at the drop of a hat?

Well I am in one of those moods right now. And I can't pinpoint why I am being this way. It could be the fact that since my divorce and I moved out my kids don't have much to do with me. It could do to the fact that I got stuck with all the bills in my divorce which leaves me in a very tight financial strain and not enough money to keep everything done and be able to have my own place. Because of this I live with my parent sagain at 42. Not a real easy way to find a man interested in being more than just an occasional fuck buddy. And it may be the holidays coming on where there will not be anything happy about it for me long story and I wont bore all of you with that. But Santa isn't stopping here to either pick up presents or deliver any presents.

But anyway Im in a mood where I am totally bummed out and feeling like I have no one in my life that cares and would just hold me and hug me and be there for me to cry on their shoulder.

I am really a nice woman with a big loving heart and I just wish some nic eman would just realize that and let me love him like he should be loved and return the favor. I don't ask for material things (yeah they are nice) but its the emotional things I want from a man that and the physical things you can feel when you are with a man you really care and love.

Well enough for now.

SlimGoodGuy 39M

12/15/2005 7:18 pm

I wish I could help ya out. For your sake, don't put yourself in a situation with a man who might hurt you some more. Emotionally, you are in a place where you run the risk of latching onto someone after they make you feel better. Get out and do some things around town. I know it's not easy with a financial burden hanging over you, but do things that are simple. Go out and enjoy the lights people have up for Christmas. Get some exercise at home or at the gym. Maybe seek out the creative side of yourself. Just find things that will get you out of the house and get your mind off of the stress for a bit. Keep on blogging if it seems to help. Typing up your thoughts is one way to let it all out and then have a chance to look yourself over after the fact.


rm_TwiztedCharm 57M
456 posts
12/15/2005 9:10 pm

It's called depression, something I am an expert at and can tell you that it is not a good place to be so do anything to change that mood as soon as possible. Be good to yourself and only accept positive energy from others. Make yourself happy because others will try to take advantage if they sense a weakness. Never show one even if one exist, Hide it with confidense and thing will work out ok. Good luck

There are many men who are in need of loving hearts .... you will find one just make sure you find one worthy of yours.


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